Next stop Popayan.
I take the bus from Cali and it takes about 3 1/2 hours.
There are big buses and minibuses, not a huge difference in price, and I got accosted pretty much as soon as I arrived at the bus station and was in a minibus before I knew it.
Not knowing the language kind of leaves you at the mercy of whoever is there to bulldoze you along.
I had booked into the Arte Hostel which was walking distance so I hiked my way there.
I met 2 English girls there, which turned out to be an enormous stroke of luck which I was yet to understand.
There was a hill a few hundred metres from the Hostel and we took a beer up to watch sunset.

On the way back we were lured into a local bar by bright coloured lights and good music. We ended up staying there for quite a while as a band came on to entertain us and a bunch of locals gave us shots of the local hooch.
A few days there then on to Ipieles which is the border town.
I left Popayan early in the morning as the bus was 8 hours and I wanted to be tired.
An hour into the journey I realised I had left my UK plug, camera and kindle charger and batter pack charging on the wall.
Dam!
I knew that Holy, one of the English girls was maybe coming the next day, so I thought I would get her to take it or have it, if we could not meet up.
I got a nice hotel there, got a good rest to face the border crossing which we had heard brutal stories of up to 16 hour queues.
Holly was arriving the next day around lunchtime, so I decided to wait on her and get my things. There are tons of shops and a market so I went out to shop, only to realise that my card no longer worked. Long story short I had to order new pin numbers for my new cards, and they had obviously cancelled my old one.
Holy shit. WTF. 
Then I thought about Holly, she would have a UK account, I could charge my laptop when she arrived and transfer the money and she could pull it out, if she was willing.
I messaged her, she was totally cool, said we would work something out.
I remembered that to set up a new recipient they would call you with a code. I had no signal. Ahhh Nicky I thought, she said she would sort it out. Great. TheN Holly arrived and her account is in Spain. Nicky would have to go to a bank to do it.
This was Wednesday and I had 2 more days for the pin numbers to arrive before the weekend would finish that plan and I would have not access to cash until the Monday.
Holly paid my meal, bus, coffees etc and then in Ecuador lent me $50.
A total godsend. 

We arrive in Otovalo Ecuador and meet another English girl, who is also happy to help me as putting the money into her account would be easier
Then the pin number arrived and I got cash out, OMG did it feel good.
4 days here in Otovalo and money to pay for it and spend on their famous market.

I seriously do not have enough clothes, I really had not packed for the Mountains, God knows why. No yoga outfit of any description either, so that had to be sorted.
It is an gorgeous little town with an indigenous population in traditional dress.
A lot of the women carry their babies tied on their backs as they did in Uganda, but there are also fancy buggies too.
The people are tiny and fascinating to look at, I would love to take pics of their beautiful faces and clothes but it seems rude.
The market is colourful, wonderful, busy, crazy and I am so tempted to buy for my grandkids and friends kids, but I understand it will all be cheaper in Peru, plus I wont need to cart it around.
Put Otovalo on your route if you are coming this way, there are beautiful hikes too, and it is just fascinating to people watch.

Cali the World Salsa Capital


I decided to head South and finish the North of Colombia later, before I go to Mexico. My friends have a yacht in Cartagena and hope to be out there in April May, so I am planning to be in that region then.
Your visa only lasts 90 days, so mine will get renewed when I return.

I went to Cali, because it's on the way to Ecuador and Peru.
I had never heard of it, so I asked other travellers what they reckoned.
Prepare to get diverse and opposing opinions.
The girl who led the walking tour in Bogota asked me how many nights I would have here and when I said three she looked at me and said most people only have one.
So I went there with low expectations.

Cali
Cali far exceeded my expectations.
There seems to be more money here, gyms, clubs, bars, the river regeneration.
They have planted or left over 300 000 trees in and around the city, and they are protected!.
Their understanding of the land far outweighs ours.
People on mountain bikes, nice motor bikes, cars, clean streets and the usual Starbucks, Dunkin donuts and Subway.
Subway is everywhere.
And phones. Hell yeah, is that not how we measure wealth now, by the phones everyone has.
There is wifi, no worse than Canada and Argyll, everywhere here.
Walking along the river yesterday I noticed, as in the UK everyone is on their phone.

In Bogota there are police, army and security, muzzled dogs and a guards literally on every corner.
You are constantly reminded that you are being protected by these very brave individuals.

Its not like that in Cali. The security firm on the river is private, they wear blue t shirts and blend in with the crowd. There are police here everywhere but it is not nearly as in your face as it is in Bogota. Either way you know they are desparate to keep you safe, to stop crime, and you feel really grateful for that.
And the people here just get on with their lives, hopeful, happy, dancing, singing with a focus only on a prosperous and safe future.
We could do with more of that.

Smell
There is also hardly any smell here, unlike some Countries. You see heaps of rubbish on the street, but maybe its the temperature or that fact it is not there for long that it does not matter.

Food
I have to be totally honest here, I am a foody along with being a nutrition twat, and the food scares me..
Tons of carbs, plantain, tatties, fried god knows what, rice, sugar in everything and for a post menopausal granny, this is not good. I have tapped it through and meditated on my blood sugar, as this is actually a real consideration for me.
But I like eating out.
If I buy food and cook in the hostel, it is much more social and healthy, to date only had 4 meals home made.
I much prefet to eat out.
Loads of pop, coke, diluted juice, I think fruit then a ton of granulated sugar.
You get a juice with any meal you order, and you have no idea whats in it. 
Maybe a good thing.
Cali is a huge sugar cane providers, but it was the same in Bogota. I think they maybe copy the US with the sugar and everything mentalness.
Street food have bbq's, hot stands and fryers, I had the worst corn on the cob I have ever tasted, actually inedible, I had to throw it away.
Often there is only salt on the table, if that. You get lots of soups and fried chicken, but they usually need salt.
For someone who loves Indian, Mexican and thai food it can be a bit bland.
I know some people say they love SA food, but to date that is defo not my experience.
I have gone to nice places and had salmon or a steak, but you pay what you would at home for it, so not really possible to sustain that if you are away for 9 months.
But there are amazing fruits and veggies to be had at the markets so I have no excuse.
Its the same at home, even although we grow amazing food, we don't always eat it.

I need to cook and chop more.
And I want to speak fluent Spanish.
And dance like these dudes.

​The Walking Tour
There is a gorgeous girl comes round the hostel everyday to tell travellers about the FREE walking tour. Its not free, but they dont tell you that till you get to the square then other gorgeous girl with a yellow umbrella tells you she recommends a donation of 30 000 pesos about $12 which is a lot of money out here. Clearly nothing if you are on holiday, but if you are long term travelling that could be a days keep. 
Me and 2 young American girls from the hostel go along for the 3 hour walking tour.
It was really good fun. They took us to different places to promote the local juices, coca leaves, coffee and chicha(local brew) but it was super interesting learning about their amazing fruits, their health properties and the huge benefits of the coca leaf from a nutrition and healing perspective, how they ferment for alcohol and making great coffee from a barista.

We also learned the story behind some of the incredible grafittis on the walls, more info on the infamous Pablo Escabar and some of the fascinating history which I ofcourse have already forgotten.
She asked us if we had seen Narcos.
She recommended the place we tried the chicha for lunch, so a bunch of us went back there and had a great 3 course lunch for only 800 pesos (about 20p).
A few of us then went for a beer, and what a laugh we had in this crazy little bar place. The cool thing about travelling is hearing others stories and getting to know like minded individuals. An American, English, German, Dutch and Scots. Fun combo.

THE POLICE MUSEUM

She explained how many police have died, the guns the cartel have, how the peace process has divided the Country, how they have to wear a bullet proof vest and which guns will kill them quickest.
Its surreal to think this is how people are living.
​But fantastic to see it change.
She was warm and witty, strong and hopeful, my God I think living in peace surely is our greatest gift?
It reminded me of a young guy I met in Malta from Eretreya.
He told his friend, "let's go to Europe, I hear they live in Peace there."
That hit home to me.
Peace.
​

I get to the hostel after a mild haggle with taxi driver and although its before check in they have a really cool hang out area, inside and out, and you can leave your rucksack in the back. 
I went on the roof and was immediately invited to join a couple, one English guy and one American gal. We drank beer together and chatted and I felt very relaxed, it is really beautiful on that roof, with the high mountains in the background.
​

They left to go on a bike tour and I decided to go for a walk. I was in the Candelaria area, totally by luck, not design, the best place to hang out, tons of cool wee local bars, colourful shops along with cheap and more expensive coffee shops and restaurants.

I wandered around, then heard loud music coming out of a local taverna, and went in for a drink. Then I saw the Rob and Rebecca from the hostel and shouted them in.
There was a table of young guys and gals right beside us. They were drinking a carton of stuff along with their beer, it tasted kind of like sambuca. They handed us some shots over, we bought them beer back and the singing, dancing and silly selfies started.

We were having great fun, language no apparent barrier, until we realised that Rebeccas bag was gone.

Now theft has played a big part in my life recently. My daughter was robbed weekly in her business, my friends came from Canada to mountain bike and had their very precsious mountain bikes stolen on the last day, and now Rebeccas bag was gone.
From right under our noses.
We were in a corner, had put the bags beside us where you would have thought they were 100% safe.
Was it when we were taking pics?
Was it when she was at the tiny wee stinking toilet?
There were 2 cctv cameras pointed on us, they could defo see who had taken it if they worked? The young guys beside us were upset too, the police were called but deep down we knew nothing would happen.

In her bag was 1 card, her phone and her waterproof jacket, it could have been worse.
But we all know our phone is the most precious commodity these days, not because of the value, but its our contact to everything.
Then mental thing was my small osprey back pack was right there too, and because I had not yet bought a padlock, I had everything in there, stupidly thinking it would be safer with me. My iphone, my new camera, my passport and all my cards and cash. Holy shit, that was soooooo close.

We all know material things can be replaced, but theft does way more damage than that. I changes how you feel about people and places. I know how I felt in Argyll, so hurt by how my daughter had been taken advantage of, money stolen from the salon, plus her tip box saving for Disney with the kids, I wanted to leave and never come back.
Then the overwhelming support from the community reminds you that most people are good.  

I know when Lesley and Paulas bikes got stolen, they were furious at Scotland. What a betrayal after such an incredible trip, on the last day too. They too then experienced the support when their facebook appeal found the guys who had stolen the bikes, everyone was truly gutted for them, if you are a biker especially, you will understand the value of a bike you have built. But again the police, could not or would not do anything to bring them to justice or get the bikes back.

Same as Rebecca, there were 4 men just sitting watching us, someone knew who it was. We were backed in a corner, it could have been a member of staff? Someone turned a blind eye.
I wonder where that gets you dear Universe?

A fact of getting robbed.
It changes how you feel about a place and the people in it.
You wonder who all is involved and who is staying dumb. You wonder who you can trust and who you cant, and it is not a nice way to live your life.

Coming to Colombia, every single person tells you to be careful and keep safe. The young guys we were with, messaged the next day, apologising, saying how sorry they were, one came up to the hostel to make sure Rebecca was ok. I told them it happens in our village, in our County too, I think it happens in most places.

Its sad you need to be so vigilant, it actually pisses me off. (release)
If people didn't steal we would not need keys, passwords, zipped bags and jackets.

How much easier my life would be.
I know it is not personal, I understand we have been conditioned by our ancestors, childhood and environment, I get that they have their own issues, it's not my drama.

But in the ideal world, I would not have thieves, and evil in general.

In the 5th dimension there will be none of that nonsense :)

Bogota
Bogota is such an interesting and amazing place, but the warnings of others ring in your ears, be vigilant, don't wander about at night, keep everything on you hidden, they may have knives and guns, its dangerous at night and so on.
I have been releasing on other peoples points of view, its the perfect place to practise, because you keep getting them, over and over.
I felt completely safe and tbh they are tiny, you feel you could outrun or wrestle them if push came to shove.

Then I walked out a restaurant yesterday and left my phone on the table........
When I ran back it was their, they had kept it for me. 
Again showing me how many good people there are.
The good massively outweighs the bad.
The Colombian people are trying very hard to change the reputation of their Country.
What an awesome attitude, I am humbled by their spirit.
They have hope, and guts and a stunningly beautiful landscape.
​I AM excited to see more.

One of the most amazing things about organising the Goddess Gathering, is the fantastic women who have come towards me.
One of them is this shining, pro active Goddess, Vicky Kakos, the creator of
"The Wee Retreat".
The concept is that we can have "wee" Retreats every day instead of thinking that we need to leave the Country etc in order to fulfill our spiritual, health and happiness needs.

Vicky has taken on the Goddess collaboration and got some of us together last week, to get to know each other, share ideas and do a bit of a brainstorming.
We all felt the energy, bounced ideas off each other and decided to meet on a regular basis.
We understand the huge importance of support, like minds, collaboration and cooperation, plus it is just fun.

Vicky then shared her great news.
She has faced her fears and put out a call to create a "Wee Retreat" venue in the South side of Glasgow. There is always a lot going on in the West End, Vickys mission is to bring this amazing facility to the South side.
The venue is available and she has created a crowdfunding campaign to buy this venue which will be a focal point for therapists, therapies, workshops, courses and any kind of Wee Retreat that you can think of.
As we have this shift in consciousness it is essential for us to meditate, educate and liberate ourcellves through learning and being with other like minded souls.

This venue will help this tremendously.
We need to recreate communities, support, collaborate and cooperate with each other.
The shift is on.
This will help us to make the transition so much more playful and rewarding along with being much less stressful.
Creating a community on the Southside of Glasgow is an idea worth sharing.
Please go here and listen to her video and see if you can help in any way.
www.crowdfunder.co.uk/the-wee-retreat

Its nearly 12 months since I first met Sabrina.
She moved into my home and went on the Gerson protocol to try and heal her disease. Diagnosis stage 4 ovarian cancer.
She had been through 2 rounds of chemo, radiation and 2 operations along with weeks in the local asylum due to a reaction to steroids.
This culminated on her being on 2 anti depressants, 1 anti psychotic and a tranquilizer when she arrived to stay with me.
You can never come off this medication she was told.
6 weeks later she was off all meds.
Not something we recommend to everyone, but she felt she could and she did.
She listened to her intuition.
During this time she learned a lot about her body, mind and soul and started to feel better than she had for years.
Her candida level was through the roof and she got that under control in weeks too.
In January she went to the Budwig Centre in Spain and changed her protocol.
She loved the medical staff there, they were super supportive and said she was presenting more like a stage 1 than a stage 4.
On her return from there the "swing" of hope between "you can heal" and "you cannot heal" really started.
Yes you can.
No you cannot.
Holistic versus Allopathic, as if it is a competition.
2 diametrically opposing points of view, both delivered with equal certainty.
You can heal.
You are dying.
I teach all my client to come out of victim mode and stand in their power.
To take full responsibility for their choices so that blame is not part of your dialogue, thought field or emotional response, because it is completely unhelpful.
Unfortunately, even today, our choices can be limited and made for us due to our financial situation and the fear of being broke in the future due to not being able to work or contribute.
So why go to a place where they insist on telling you to accept you are dying, even when you have categorically told them not too?
Why go to a place that quite literally terrifies the living daylights out of you?
Her belly was swelling and retaining fluid which caused her intense discomfort and pain.
To get it drained in a private hospital was over 1 thousand euros. In the NHS hospital it is free, which sadly, is a huge determining factor for most of us.
The allopathic opinion is that she is terminal, ie no hope of a cure.
The holistic opinion is that she can heal, but she has to follow the protocol. This is not as easy as it seems.
Who do you believe?
For the last 9 months it has been an emotional roller coaster.
On a daily basis I have tried to keep her spirits up, release the fear of the allopathic opinion and the force of their might and apparent desire to be right.
Its a huge wave that overwhelms and brings her under, and I have thought often, is she strong enough to believe her way out of their heavy oppression?

I have an innate fury at the fear in our current system having watched loved ones die in it for years.
I don't blame the Doctors and nurses, but know that Big Pharma, one of the richest companies in the world does not always have our best interests at heart.
And our reluctance to open our eyes to the latest, cutting edge science which clearly teaches us about epigenetics and the incredible power of belief to change our chemistry, biology and electro magnetic body.
The power of our mind is completely ignored in Western medicine and is actually used against us, telling us we are powerless, when nothing could be further from the truth.

I know, like many others that we can heal ourcellves.
Not everyone will heal, for now we are still trying to unravel why some do and some do not.
We cannot measure as yet, someones innate faith and compliance to the programme in terms of beliefs, perceptions, limitations, subconscious traumas, inherited or created, and the force of their intentions.
And this is where it all starts and ends.
Its not a belief it's a knowing, Kelly Turners brilliant book "Radical Remissions".clears that up with no doubt.
Healing is a potential in the Field, a possibility for all of us, no matter what the so called experts say.
Documented cases of people who were sent home to die and chose not to.
Why is this not being brought into our hospitals?
What about the power of others beliefs can stop you from healing and can actually kill you.
That may sound dramatic, but we know it to be.
Fear kills.
Taking away all hope kills.
Isolation kills.
Lack of support kills.
.
It is totally mental and we will be appalled at how we aquiesced, giving away our power, in  the future.
Sabrina has been verbally abused by well meaning medics and continuously bullied to "face reality" that she is dying and cannot heal herself.
Even if that was true, which it is not, I still question the morale ethics of pushing this one sided, outdated, untrue version of reality down someones throat, especially when you have specifically asked them not to.
Treat the fluid in the belly she asked, but please do not tell me I am dying.
This was totally ignored, and even writing this makes me fume, I have to release and accept this system the way it is.
Dr Bruce Lipton & Dr Joe Dispenza to name only 2 of the most advanced scientists on the Planet have proven categorically that our beliefs, words, perceptions, emotions and actions impact our health.
That we manipulate genetic expression with all of the above. That we are "above" the genes, epigenetics. That we are electro magnetic beings as well and chemical and biological beings.
That we can literally "tune in" to different data streams via the brain waves and heart coherence, to an unseen intelligence that knows how our cells should be arranged.
That healings can take place in real time when the internal and external enviroments are aligned.
This is a game changer.
Yet we are still telling people they are going to die. Destroying their hope.
But the big question here is, are people dying because the Doctors and telling them they are going to?
The nocebo effect. Hexing. Black Magic?
Does anyone on this Planet have the right to tell you when they believe you are going to die? Is this playing God in the most hideous way?
When science clearly tells us that our beliefs create our biology.
There maybe no drug to heal the cancer, but there are plenty of other ways you can enhance and enrich your health and happiness and most of them are not available on the NHS.
Just for today can we allow love to flow no matter what we think we see in a test or scan.
Do we need to use fear to force our ideas and beliefs on others, that might decimate their lives and that of their families and friends?
None of us are guaranteed tomorrow, not one single one of us.
What does success mean in terms of healing?
An extra day? Week? Year? Decade?
Who gets to decide?
Should we be giving treatments that cause suffering when they are non curative, and should patients and staff be fully educated on all the new science and different protocols that people who have defied the odds used?
This closed system needs to be opened up, we need to share all the possible treatments and give people every possible chance to learn about their bodies and lives.
We need to break free of the stranglehold and business that keeps us stuck in the past.

Sorry I digress, Sabrina.
I flew over to visit her beginning of July. Her dad picked me up at the airport so we went straight there.
She started a plant based treatment 2 weeks before and had been sleeping a lot.
She was lying on the sofa and was clearly very fatigued. I sat with her, did some hands on healing, then left her sleeping while her dad and I went for a swim.
When I returned 3 days later it was more of the same, she was totally out of it, and struggled to stay awake even for a few minutes to talk to me.
She was thin, but that is not always a bad thing, she had no appetite, but was getting constantly nagged to eat, which was doing her head in.
Again I just did some hands on healing,and wondered if there was any way she was ever going to come back from this.
But for some reason I just felt everything was ok, I prayed, released and asked for clear guidance on being the best help I could be for her higher good.
I felt so much for her dad, he is amazingly positive but of course was having black thoughts of what might be.
The day before I left I went back over not expecting anything, just wanting to sit with her, pray and ask and listen and see.
She looked completely different. She had not taken the oil that morning, so was not in that coma like state. She was alert and pleased to see me, like she just truly realised that I was there.
She has a drain in her belly that she can use herself, this saves her going back to hospital and into the fear. This is common with ovarian cancer. She was still draining a lot of fluid off, but even when her belly went down she was still getting beaten by the pain.
To her the pain was a definite sign of dying, and no matter how much we released on that belief, she was still holding on to it.
I opened a short book that my friend Brenda Campbell  a cancer survivor has written and  given to me to take over. I read it to her and we laughed as she agreed with everything on the list that she was trying to control. 
Part of healing for a lot of us is letting go of wanting control.
Then we went to the beach, me Sab and her dad.
Sab and I hung out in the Med, one of our fave things to do. 
We chatted and ruminated, she talked about dying and getting her will sorted, she had been in so much pain and was so fed up of being in bed that the best way out seem to be death.
I was still not so sure, but had to visit that possibility that she seemed hell bent on.
In the sun and sea she relaxed and said she felt better than she had for weeks.
I treasured that time wondering if I would see her again. 
Just for today, everything was perfect, for me at least.
She seemed to have given up all hope and was accepting what the doctors had told her would happen. They had given her 2 months.
That was about 4 months ago.
I left, still with a strong feeling she could do it, and releasing all my fear around the story.
We have an ongoing joke about her being a big baby when things, and the body does not go her way. When she plays the victim. And when she rises back up I call her Sabrina Latina, this is the feisty, strong, determined, funny girl that I know.
I know both, we all have these sides, but it makes me sad when she is sad, so I try to bring out Latina, the courageous rule breaker and survivor.
She has already outlived her prognosis by miles. She has already succeeded in so many ways, she is a much wiser and emotionally intelligent, self aware person now, she has worked on herself relentlessly, going through a mammoth set of ups and downs, a story that is beyond incredible and God know where it will take us.
She was much brighter when I left, and then a bit sad after.
But she seemed to turn a bit of an attitude and perception corner.
My friend Ilenya who is an access consciousness expert had also done some intense work with her, asking her to choose what she truly wanted, life or death.
Then there was the plant based oil, helping her to sleep, calming her mind, assisting in pain control, then there was the sun and the sea.
What if any or all of these things helped her?
I messaged her on tuesday the way I do every morning asking how she was and the first word came back, "great"!. My heart sang, she had not felt like that for months.
She had her hair cut short and dyed purple. She had organised to rent a mobility scooter as she does not have enough energy for the heat and crowds.
She had the hospis nurses over and they had given her great advice and a day out which was a brilliant distraction.
Her cousins were coming from Oz and it was her precious feast.
She is like a different person.
Her mindset, perceptions, attitude has totally changed.
She has dipped down occasionally, but we catch a hold of it and I make her laugh by getting her tapping on being a big baby.
The pain is still present, seems to be worse at sunrise and sunset, but she is dealing with it now and not making a black story up about it.
There has only been 200mls of fluid from her belly in over 2 weeks, this is indeed a miracle.
But most importantly of all she is happier, she has dreams and she has hope.
Just for today.
​That's all any of us can wish for.
Then the pain got worse again, bringing in more panic.
A trip to Gozo, total change of enviroment and she is back on it.
Then the pain comes back, the mind kicks in again and the rollercoaster continues, but she is handling the mind way better now and knows what she has to do.
Please send all your love and prayers her way.
​

On the 3rd of November we will be gathering with hundreds of other women on the banks of Loch Fyne to celebrate the rise of the Divine Feminine.

The Dalai Lama has said that the change will come through Western women.
We are poised, we are ready, we are strong and we are committed to our brothers, sisters, children and grandchildren and to our Sacred Planet Earth.

Each human has male and female energy inside. Yin and Yang.
Both equally valuable and essential for balance and harmony.
We are out of balance. The male energy has been dominating.
We have been ruled by our heads and have forgotten our hearts.
But we are awakening.
Women are rising, you have seen it all over the World when Donald Trump became President of the US.
We are off our seats, we will be silent no longer, we will stand in our Power and we will be heard.
The Rise is on.

At a local level this means we move from competition to collaboration.
We work as communities for the greater good of all.
We support, love, respect and honour each other.
Instead of bitching, complaining, judging and competing. 
This is destroying our health, happiness and our Mother Earth.

Time for change.
Time for Action.
Each individual has a huge responsibility for their own energy, their truth, their vibration.
It starts within each one of us.
We cannot shout for love when we do not love ourcellves and others.
There is work to be done.

We have a weekend of incredible speakers, workshops, seminars, Music, dance, Arts and crafts for you.
Something for everyone Goddess out there, regardless of budget.
In room 1 there will be speakers and your all inclusive early bird ticket of £99 allows you into all events. In rooms 2 & 3 you need to book, as numbers are limited. 
First come first served.

On saturday afternoon we have 4 speakers who have healed or are healing cancer. They will be available to talk to privately after the seminar. If you know anyone with cancer, please let them know about this event. Its called Reconnect.

On sunday we have a free afternoon, come over on the Ferry and join in and learn, booking essential.

On friday night we have a dance performance and opening ceremony.
We will meditate early in the mornings, chant and do some yoga before the day begins.
This is a huge networking opportunity that can ripple out into your homes and communities.
If you feel alone with your views of the World, maybe you have been waiting for an event like this? 
To continue our spiritual growth and expansion it is essential to hang out with others on the path. 
​It is very exciting and huge fun.

We would love you to come and stay for the entire weekend, we have been given incredible deals on the accommodation, book here to take advantage of the dinner bnb plus use of Spa www.portavadie.com/
It is a spectacular place, you are guaranteed to fall in love with.

Early bird all inclusive tickets can be bought here 
www.brownpapertickets.com/event/2945064
Please read the programme carefully and if you want to join in any of the events in rooms 2 or 3 then book via email lookgoodfeelgr8@gmail.com

Love truly is all we need. 
Lets start the revolution.
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What a rollercoaster this journey has been and is.
It was only 7 months ago that I met this firecracker but boy does it seem like a lifetime of experiences and emotions.

Recap on her history, 2 operations, 2 chemotherapies and 1 radiation for stage 4 ovarian cancer.
Admitted to Mount Carmel (asylum) due to major sensitivity to chemotherapies and put on 4 different drugs for depression and psychosis.

The only option, from the allopathic perspective, was more of the same a 3rd chemo, another large operation to remove more of her intestines and maybe organ parts.
Going to the UK for “special chemo” and to see if the surgeon there would undertake the operation, if he felt it would be humane and worthwhile.

To try something a third time that had not worked the first two seemed strange to me.
I told her if she was my daughter I would suggest Gerson, at least try it for 6 weeks to see how it feels, then take it from there

I then offered her a room at my place to help her through the detox.
We then discussed blogging the journey, and whether we should "wait" until she healed or do it in real time.
We both felt it would be more powerful in real time, so went ahead and started making videos and blogs. 

My neck and reputation
I knew I was putting my neck on the line. Putting mycellf up for potential judgement and criticism. I just knew, hand on heart, if it was one of my kids, that is what I would recommend.
But taking a total stranger into your home?
First of all I am not the most tolerant person in the World, and I did not know her from Adam. 
From that perspective it was completely illogical.
Secondly, what if she died?
What would that mean for me?
Was I seriously not going to help her because of fear of approval from others?
I felt we had to try, it felt right, it was meant to be.
I also thought, if she was my blood daughter, I would want quality for her, for however long she had left, and that we could journey with this sick body and learn from it, priceless, life giving information.

People asked her "who is she"?
What are her qualifications?
That place is not a certified clinic (Wardija)

Even when I started the gofundme someone suggested to her that I might keep the money.
She has also been criticized for "travelling", a visit to Spain and Scotland to keep her spirits up.
This is just part of stepping out and trying to do something that most others would never consider doing.
Prepare to be judged. Prepare for the oppression.
And follow your heart. That is what I did.

Sabrina jumped at the idea, she did not want chemo, had never wanted it, but had never felt supported to try any other options.
From my perspective it is never about "not dying".
I can never promise what is going to happen in someones life, even if they follow the protocols to the letter. Things can go terribly wrong, or right, I don't get to decide.
The Allopathic system cannot guarantee anything either, but we accept that.
For me it's about living without fear. 
Choosing and being part of your healing and your life journey.
Discovering what we can, allowing the body a chance, trusting.
We know when we let go of our fear of death often we heal.
I find that slightly ironic.
But boy can fear grip, surrender can be impossible to some.

Week 1
After a brutal week of detoxing she came back to life, and over the next 2 months felt better than she had in years.
Most days I made all her juice for her, so all she had to do was drink it. She resisted that a bit too, but I hardballed her and educated her on the process as we went along. She soon stopped complaining and started enjoying the juice.
Make no mistake Gerson is a hard diet to follow.
gerson.org/gerpress/
Life without the Maltese Ftira had begun.
But it works, how much do you want to live?
She then did my Immersion Retreat, participated in the entire programme and had a real breakthrough on the emotional stuff, it was brilliant to watch.
The first time we talked she thought life without a ftira (white Maltese bread) would not be worth living, now she was dancing and laughing, like a new person.
I left Malta at the beginning of November and she moved back home, and was left to her own devices.

Holistic perspective
The holistic model looks at physical, emotional and spiritual health.
The allopathic looks at symptoms and tries to eliminate them with drugs and surgery.
Totally opposing ways of dealing with the body.
One from the old Newtonian physics, one from the new understanding of quantum physics.
Sometimes you need both.
Most of my clients combine treatments, you need to do what you believe will make you well again.
Every single one of us is different, and everyone who has defied the odds has done it in a different way.
You have to work with the belief system and perspective that you are in.
This will change and evolve during your healing journey, but it is a fully personal journey.
It can be very difficult to listen to your intuition when everyone is shouting at you to follow theirs.
By the end of the year she felt she needed to do more, was struggling on her own so I set up a go fund me to help her find the external support she so desperately needed.


Budwig and Gerson
Sabrina wanted to go to Gerson in Hungary in January.
She applied, got all the tests sent to them, then called me very angry and disappointed that they had rejected her.
She had put a lot of store in this. I had told her if they said no it was because there was another, better way for her to heal.
But she was determined to go somewhere in January and was very stressed with the news.

When I read the letter from Gerson, some days later, they had not rejected her. They wanted to get her over for the day, do a series of tests, teach her the protocol then get her back in 3 months for the full detox programme.
They were concerned that her elimination organs would be compromised, which made complete sense to me, but hot headed Latina had other ideas.
Gerson seemed to have made that decision based on the extra stress of the psychiatric drugs she had been on. Drugs she had been told she could never come off, but had, during her time in Wardija.
This sent her on another path.

Budwig
She then went online and contacted Budwig in Spain.
The Sunday she sent the email, the Doctor from there called her personally.
She was stoked and organised to go there. He was very positive and her experience there was fantastic.
They told her she was more like a stage 1 than 4 and congratulated her on her body and how she was looking and feeling so well.
She changed onto the Budwig diet, which has linseed and quark or cottage cheese for rebalancing the gut and started their regime of detox machines, EFT, herbs bachs, remedies and supplements.
www.budwigcenter.com/
I wondered how she would be when she got back to the real world again.
During her time in Spain her belly got swollen again.
I immediately assumed it was the change of diet,  I had wondered how it would work for her, but I trusted Sabrinas intuition and that this part of the journey was the right one for her.
We know that one of the steps in Kelly Turners book Radical Remissions, is "listening to your intuition."
Often that means doing things others may not agree with.
We are all filtering through the past, our individual past.

The belly
She was given some machines and a protocol to do at home.
All based around detoxing and helping the body release toxicity, parasites and bacteria.
During the years she had been attending the Doctor before they diagnosed her, she had huge problems with a distended belly. I suspected candida, and sure enough her level was very high. During Gerson her belly reduced and she started to enjoy the new flatter version, but to this day she sees it as her evidence of being well or sick.
We spend a lot of time letting go of her judgement of the belly.
Not long after she was home her belly was giving her discomfort, Budwig said this is a normal part of the healing and recommended she come off the quark, thinking she could be lactose intolerant.
This concerned me a bit, I like a strict structure for healing, no grey areas,
I know Budwig has huge success, but again my conditioning did not see cheese as part of a healing diet.
When you start deviating from the path, you don't know where you really are, whether the protocol is working, and you can lose your way.
Anyway they were now taking responsibility for her nutrition, something I was happy to hand over.
Every radical remission had a different diet, but the main things were no wheat, no sweet, no meat and no dairy.
I am sure there are people who are healed who have deviated from this, it is impossible to measure the impact our feelings and beliefs are having on our chemistry too.
But find a plan and stick to it.
Charlotte Gerson is adamant and forcefull about this too.
And it can take time, a lot of it, over 2 years in some cases.
Anyone who has been on any kind of diet will know, you cannot start cheating, it all falls apart.

My beliefs and programming
I am aware I am programmed and trained to think that Gerson is the way for serious cancers, so I am very aware of putting my concepts, that may or may not be true, on others.
I fully understand 1 diet does not fit all, I personally liked Nicholas Gonzalez work, he had 10 different diets ranging from raw vegan to ketogenic.
You need a diet that works, but you also need a diet you can do.

Enter Joe Dispenenza - ALCHEMY AND OUR INTERNAL POWER

In July 2016 about 3 months before meeting Sabrina I discovered the work of Dr Joe Dispenza.
He introduced me and most of my close circle of friends to the concept of healing by thought alone.

When we change the frequency of our brains, our electromagnetic field, our thinking and emotions, we can heal.
Our bodies are light and information.
Disease is a darkening and a lowering of frequency.
Healing is raising the vibration and letting in more light.
We have the power to release the past and change the information in the body.
We all have this power within, but most of us do not all have the skill yet.
You need to practise, you need to break the old habits of being yourcellf.
This takes incredible discipline, will, practice, repetition and most of all FAITH.
If you do not believe you can do it you will not go to the bother of learning.
What Joe does is gives us the science, the measurements, and brings the people on stage who have already done it.
One women healed stage 4 ovarian with her mind alone.
No change in diet, but she went into meditation 6 hours a day.
She changed the chemistry and frequency in her body, and it healed.
We all have the power to do this.
Joe has thousands of these stories now.

Common people doing the uncommon thing
I know our DNA is affected by our beliefs, have known that for years.
Dr Bruce Lipton wrote Biology of Belief years ago and has been trying to get the fact out that we are the Master not the victim of our genes.
We are operating from outdated science, Greg Braden also bangs on about that.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=-t1hGosvUus
What I did not fully realise is that we can overide the chemistry of food, exercise, the past, disease and all abuses with the power of our minds.
I knew conceptually that you could expand at a cellular level and release the past, the past that drowns and depresses our immune system.
What I did not know was that someone was teaching how to do it, measuring it, and repeating it, every single workshop.
Imagine how exciting that was for me?
When we learn how to transmute energy, pilot our pineal and pituatiry glands, we can overide all old programmes and heal anything and everything.

The Church
Another strange thing that happened was I ended up doing a church course on emotional baggage with a friend of my sisters. 
The information is identical to Dr Joes, he just uses different language.
The Quantum Field becomes God.
www.impactministries.com/about-jim/
The labels and words are irrelevant to me, I can choose to believe its a coincidence or a very large, important message coming my way, to help me and my clients.

Hospitalised
Sabrinas belly became large, uncomfortable and distended.
Budwig said it was normal and to stick to the protocol, the body was healing.
The allopathic Doctors said it was a progression of the disease and offered palliative care.
Interestingly enough my body was doing something similar. Not fluid retention, but discomfort, aches, I knew something was going on, I joked with her to sort her belly out and I was sure mine would balance too.
But eventually it became too much for her and she decided to go private to get some advice.
She wanted a Doctor who did not know her story and could maybe help without the fear. She did not want to go back to the old oncologist who was so certain that she would die, and had described how it would happen.
She saw a really nice doctor, very kind and sympathetic, who told her they could help by draining the fluid.

Money
However they wanted over 1 thousand euros for the job and she new she could get for free on the NHS.
She said she heard my voice saying “Goddess up” and she faced her fears and went back to the original free hospital.
Where she knew that the language they would use would scare her.
She explained the situation, told them she did not want them to tell her she was dying, she did not want any tests, she just needed some relief from the fluid that had gathered in her belly.

The nursing staff were amazing, telling her how well she had done and that most people that had her operation were dead within 6 months.
But they were super kind, interested and humane.
They drained 5 litres of fluid off her belly and did more tests, but she said she wanted no more results.
No more bad news, heavy words, terrifying points of view, fear is useless and damaging when you are weak.

She was miserable in hospital and desperate to get out, thinking that she would feel better the next day......
But the body has just had a massive trauma, so patience is essential here, our Sabrina does not have much of this.
They warned her that the fluid could build again, but that it could balance out.
Since then she has gradually got more and more miserable.
The fluid has gathered again.

What to do?
I suggested acupuncture.
I posted on facebook asking for recommendations, Sabrina chose the first one, because he was a Doctor. Big mistake.
He asked her who recommended her to come? She said me! He said don't listen to her, she is not a doctor, you should go to the hospital and get chemo.
Sabrina was laughing as she told me, she hot footed it out of there and off back to the hospital.
Hmmmm another interesting chapter for the book and movie.

Hospital
They put her on a drip with some nutrition and she is feeling better than she has for weeks. She told me "my body is in hospital . my mind and heart and spirit are in the sun 3 vs 1 so that means I'm not truly here."
She feels safe there and that makes me happy.
One common misunderstanding most people make is that I am against everything allopathic.
She said to me "I have done something you will not like". I said whats that?
She said "I had a scan." 
I thought if a scan makes you feel better then do one.
No judgement there from me, personal choices all the way.
People love tests, I personally don't.
But they have helped me in the past, never say never.
And because I have been off the mountain with pain the last 2 weeks, I was pressured big time by everyone around me to go and get tests.
But I knew my body would heal itself. But boy did the pressure mount as "days" went by. Impatience by everyone, are you better yet?
You should go see a doctor. They know more than you. 
Then my 2 brothers got in on the act, saying how much happier they would be if I went to a doc.
Now I am not stupid, and if I thought a doc would have helped me to heal, or if the pain was too much for me, I would have been at the doc in a heartbeat.
I would take drugs to see me through if I believed I needed it.
But I knew I didn't. I knew the body would heal itself.
I went deep into my meditations, then had some acupuncture, and its much better now.
My choice, my intuition, my understanding, back off.
But imagine I was diagnosed terminal, how would that pressure have got to me.
How would my faith have stood the force of others?
Belittling my understandings because I am not a doctor.
Very interesting situation.

Fear versus FAITH
Our only fear of the hospital is that they use the language and say the things that induce fear.
Cortisol and adrenaline are not needed at this point.
And this is a scientific fact, so I have no idea why we still do this.
She was offered catholic "bread" I am not really sure what that means, they also offered for her to see a minister.
A nurse told her he was "cute" so she agreed.
Plus she said it could be a good way of letting go, which is ultimately confessing and forgiving.
We laughed last night as she told me that she was a sinner and he was not cute and did not really approve of that fact that she swore at God and hoped he was deaf because of the things she had been saying.
Since studying with Dr Joe I have a completely different view of the body, healing, death and time.
This is a very personal thing, but it has been a game changer for me.
It allows me to "see" things very differently.
I know from my life experience and from Dr Kelly Turners book Radical Remissions, that it is NEVER over until the fat lady sings.
And even then Anita Moorjani came back and allowed her sick body to heal.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhcJNJbRJ6U
Faith.
Faith even when all the Doctors point you to fear?
Has my faith been challenged?
Yes?
Have I got caught up on the fear of others?
Yes.
Have I wavered and wondered if she can heal?
Actually no.
Faith heals and so does prayer. 
Please pray for her, for all of us who love this crazy, brave girl and are asking for the miracle.
Or is it a miracle or a process, that each one of us can engage with?
We are all entangled in this energy Field, and we can pull each other down or help each other up.
Our words, thoughts, feelings, perceptions, beliefs, intentions and attention are creating our reality.
Where we put our focus and attention is what we will get.
But if we are weak and unable to hold that, we need others to support and help us.
This is why we need to change the way we see disease and healing.
Faith heals, let's all stay in it.
She is back home now,  they refused to drain the fluid again, Budwig have told her its normal so she is now looking for natural ways to assist the body again.
What a shame they can not help with that in hospital.......one day!
Please put her in your prayers, meditation and keep supporting her with your messages and word.
It is priceless, thank you.

Bad Body – I don't like pain, I want to go snowboarding

So I had to go to bed on sunday.
Had been having such fun on deep powder snow on sat and sun then around lunchtime on the sunday I felt this pain that had been a minor but annoying niggle for a few months, raise itcellf up a couple of notches, to a level I could no longer ignore.
I suddenly felt wiped, had to sit down, half lying to ease the pain.
Felt a bit breathless too, just wanted to go home and lie down.
I got emotional too, felt quite sorry for mycellf, like a victim.
Came back from the mountain, went straight to bed with a hot water bottle and stayed there till tuesday morning, 36 hours later.
Slept on a off all day, the heat helped the pain but in the avo took some tylenol and that helped massively.
I hate being sick.
But what can you do when you are in such pain and cannot even think of anything else?

I watched mycellf.
Lilia the patient.
Lilia the big mouth healer.
What do I teach and preach and how did I get on with walking my own walk?

A year ago I had a more laborious strategy for healing, before working with Dr Joe Dispenza.

BJ - Before Joe :)

The old way
I had a 10 step healing plan and the first thing I would do would be to get my juicer out, clean the diet, do some yoga if possible, get fresh air and do some releasing and tapping.
Make no mistake the old way of doing things worked, but they involve a lot of work, making changes, managing your time and a huge pile of keeping on keeping on.
Avoiding going to certain places, releasing old habits, fresh air, grounding, exercising the list goes on.
Getting people, including mycellf to follow this plan was a challenge to say the least.
I was also really aware that a lot of my clients already had a terrifying  prognosis, young children and were already suffering from overload and overwhelm.
Me coming in with another list of things to do, could and would only make matters worse.
More reasons to beat yourcellf up, more concepts that could actually harm instead of heal you?

The new way
Last year I had to change tack with my healing.
The way I had been programmed to believe healing would happen no longer had the same impact.
The juicing was not having the same effect, dousing the inflammation that had been coming and going since my periods stopped.
Then I heard that inflammation is almost impossible on the Ketogenic diet, so went on that.
The total opposite from my mainly vegan fayre, and I struggled, but it worked.
That was an eye opener, I know one diet does not fit all, but I thought I knew what to do when my body was struggling.
Things change and it is essential to keep your mind open.
Release all concepts and labels. Everyday.
Be careful what info you are taking in, it's probably based on the old way to see the body and the World and the last thing any of us need is more limiting beliefs and concepts.
Again it seemed like a minefield of conflicting information, who and what is right?
Then I found Joe.

Seek and ye shall find?


I knew there had to be a way, just had to be a way, that I could help these young mums without driving them over the edge.
Then I found Joe.

My silent question on a daily basis was "show me a way to help this beautiful young women". I knew there was a way, I just did not know what it was.........
Then I found Joe.


He simplified it for me. 1 thing to do.
But you MUST do it.
And he has the science to prove it.
His students are experiencing real time healings.
His work is spreading like wildfire and is the way ahead for me and my clients and anyone with an open mind and willingness to try.
NB Learn this while you are still well!


Put simply....
The body is made of light and information.
The cells are the container for this.
Change requires 3 intentions.

1. Clear out the past - move out the way, stop holding on
2. Design your future consciously from your heart - laser sharp clarity
3. Connect to the Quantum Field intelligence for assistance

Out with the old, in with the new.
Clear out the old information and put in new information along with bringing in more light, which raises your vibration.


Disease cannot exist in these high vibrations
Disease is a lowering of vibration.
This problem I am experiencing is a valve between the large and small intestine that has got inflamed.
Turns out this is what has caused all my symptoms for decades.
I won't bore you with the details, but I do have a different understanding of it now.

So the old way included

• Poor me, I am a victim
• Trying to figure it all out, what is the body doing, why, when and where blah blah blah.
• Going to the Doctor to get it checked and if possible get a label or concept to go with it. Then probably a prescription to make the body heal.
• Follow my own 10 step healing plan.
• Wish things were different and just generally complain about being sick. Discuss and complain about every symptom.
• Feel like a patient, like something is wrong, behave differently and get treated differently.
• Guess what the body is doing, fill yourcellf with fear and make things worse.
• Judging and seeing the body as a separate entity that does things despite you. That is is against you. Bad body :)

And let me be brutally honest I did or thought about all of that. There is a technique to close the valve that is apparently causing my pain, but it did not seem to work.
I swore at my body for not doing what I wanted, then I woke up.
What are you doing?
Break the habit of being yourcellf, you know of a much better way now...
And did I just get this pain to see if I could put my money where my big mouth is?
Was I put in the position of patient to give me a clearer understanding of the shoe on the other foot?
Another guess, who knows......


The new way – Forget all of that
Let go of the past and redesign the Future

Change your internal frequency, chemisty and electromagetic field using the power of your mind.
Heal by thought alone.
Think and feel yourcellf well.
Let go of fear and move into total trust, FAITH, because that is what heals.
Tune into the potential in the Field by changing your frequencies and connecting to the Universal Field.

The Quantum Field of potential and probabilities.

Go shopping in the Field for the exact health picture you want. Pain free, energetic, flexible, loving, joyful body please.


Step into the unknown and get very comfortable there.
No trying to figure it out, wishing it was different, guessing what the body is doing and why.
No need to know the name of a muscle or bone or jack shit.
Every human can do this regardless of anything.
Change the frequency of your brain, your electro magnetic field, connect with the Divine and allow the Universal intelligence combined with your clear intention and elevated emotion to heal you.
This work encompasses the Sedona Method, a transformational tool I have banged on about for 15 years and was happy to see in Joes work.

If health and healing is what you want then get into your Meditation, let go of the past, design with your mind the new pain free, flexible, vibrant, healed you.

Whatever you want the process is identical. Wash the past away and focus and feel what you want in.

You can overide the chemistry of food, exercise, fresh air, Nature, the works when you get good at this.

Be your own alchemist
You can be an alchemist that can literally transform the light and information in the cells.
But only you can do it. No one can do it for you.
To move into Faith, the light, the truth takes an open mind and often an attitude of I have nothing to lose and I am willing to look.

Healing happens, the particles rearrange themcellves, your job is to move out the way.
What a huge relief that is.
You shut up, stop tormenting the body, let go of the past and all the BS concepts and labels and send the body the information it needs to heal. Allow the Divine energy to flow and make itcellf known to you.


Our own personal Pharmacist and Alchemist
We are the Pilots of our pineal gland, which contains our own inner pharmacy with the capacity to create any “chemical” we need.
We just need to learn how.
This allows us to experience the oneness.
To fully know that we are not alone and we are protected and loved.
We are all connected.
There is nothing to fear ever when you release all your limiting beliefs and fear.
You will quite literally “see” another way to be.

“Heaven” on Earth.
Seeing the light, because the higher frequencies are lighter.
5th Dimension
Enlightenment
Born again
Whatever you want to call it is fine, what resonates with you.
But we are moving to a new way of being. And it is wayyyyyyyy more fun.

Multi Dimensions
We are multi dimensional beings, living in a multi dimensional Universe.
Death, time and things are all illusions, cool game eh?
When we let go of all the concepts of what we should and should not do, eat, preach, believe, work, exercise and so on we can heal.
Effortlessly, with faith.

The Church
I have been studying a church course here in Golden because I wanted to support a friend who lost her husband at new year.
I thought I was there out of the goodness of my heart, ego still yakking away, imagine my total surprise to hear the identical words of my Dr Joe.
The minister explains the exact same phenomena.
Is that a coincedence?
I am in London in October 2016 with Dr Joe Dispenza and he opens my mind to the Mystical.
Then I come to Canada and in February 2017 I hear exactly the same messages from a Minister?


I have been seeking, did I just find?
I think so.
Off to Meditate and do the Sedona Method at the same time.
CHANGE
Time to let go of all the old concepts of healing, and remember I am an energy spaceship that is 100% unlimited.
Still to get my Pineal Pilots license, but I am open to the possibility in the Field of Potential.

If you want to learn the new way, pm me for a free consultation.​

​A month has passed since Sabrina returned from the Budwig Centre in Spain.
My concern was always what happens after that?
She had a great time, felt loved, understood and truly cared for as a human being when she was there.
She was told she was presenting more like a stage 1 than 4 given their tests.
She met others who know about healing without expensive drugs.
She met people who listened to her and congratulated her on how far she had come given her prognosis.
The Doctors hugged her, hugging is part of their healing protocal.
She was, in her words, treated like a princess.
She felt safe there.

Then she returned home.
Back to the external enviroment.
This recreated the internal enviroment of fear and stress.

She lives in a beautiful home with a wonderful loving, supportive dad, that is not the point.
She is till in desperate need of support.
Most people dont trust and believe in the bodys ability to heal, you can feel this.

People have their own busy lives to get on with, they care but can only do so much.
People say things through their fear and their belief systems that strike pain and sorrow into a vulnerable heart.
Every single client I work with has this problem.
Please be very mindful of your words and gestures with people in this position.
Support what they want, not what you believe.

The system does not accommodate people who are trying their best to release the terminal diagnosis and heal themcellves like thousands of others have done.
When you refuse the drugs and surgery, you are left alone to try or die.

There is nowhere for Sabrina and others like her, to get the support that most of us would need to fend off the oppression of a terminal diagnosis.
Nowhere that does not cost a fortune that most of us do not have.
Combine that with the vivid description of the expected dying process, kindly given to her by the oncologist and you need to go some to “not believe”.

Sabrina
I can read Sabrina like a book now.
I observe her ups and downs, even know when they will happen based on what she is eating and doing.

I want to be with her, kind of like a yearning mum does when their sick kid is left at home.
Or like when I dropped Nicol off at nursery and he cries and begs to go with me.
You know the feeling.

I know I can make her feel better, but for now I can only love her across the net, and thank God for the gift of that.

I see her pain through my computer, she has no mum to hold her, no boyfriend or girlfriend to hug her wordlessly.
She is not alone, none of us are, but it feels that way to her and others in these darker moments.
Then the stress overtakes the body, tears come, anxiety and pain come in as the body is flooded with the wrong chemicals and the cells contract tightly creating great discomfort.
It breaks my heart but drives me to seek the solution to this.

Her abdomen has been really swollen, the way it used to be before she came to Wardija.
This has been really getting her down.
It seems to me, that it is the change of diet.
Combined with the enormous amount of detoxing.
This is when it gets hard, you need to be super strong, well educated and knowing to believe that the body is healing, not getting sicker.
This is when people believe you are in denial.
Not understanding that our beliefs are driving our DNA towards our intended outcome.
Most people have no idea of the healing power of our beliefs.
Henry Ford said it.
Whether you believe you can or you can't, you are right.
She has come on miles since we met and is doing all the right things and knows the symptoms may not mean the worst, but it is uncomfortable.
She has had some really difficult days. I told her to email Budwig and get their take on what was happening.
They modified her diet and told her to use the machines, vortex 10 for 3 hours everyday plus her magnets.
She has been confused and as to what rituals to follow, what to eat and too emotionally weak and distressed to see clearly what has to be done.

She went to see a private doctor, and he asked why she did not go back to her own oncologist. 
She told him outright, only God has the right to tell me when I will die, not that man.
I am trying everything to live and I do not want any of your negative opinions, please just help me release the swelling in my belly.
The wonderful thing about this man was he made her feel safe.
Wow. Seek out the people who make you feel safe.
She is unbelievable the way she stands up to the oppression and might of the Doctors, she constantly blows me away with how brave she is.
Anyone who has been in that position will know how hard it is, I see it every day.
She needs support but boy is she strong. And she is also super knowledgeable.

Support
Dont get me wrong she has amazing friends and incredible dad who love and support her, but they are all worried about her too.
She needs professional holistic healers to support and mentor her, and possibly a place to go when the going gets really tough and the overwhelm makes her feel like giving up.

She told me last week she wanted to give up, but thought of her time and Wardija, and all the people who have helped her, and she climbs out the depression and sees a tiny glimmer of hope again.
She is a fighter, but she is also a human being.

Fear of death
This is not about not dying, we are all dying in our own unique way.
This is about trying to live. And that is our birthright.
The biggest irony of letting go for healing is when you look at death and release all fear, you heal.
But that is a big ask when you are so low.
She is only 36.
Not many want to die at that age.
We are totally terrified of death and do not even want to say the word, and we are all going to die, it's a real kind of crazy.
Let's ignore it and hope it goes away.
Ultimately we are all going to leave these bodies, so lucky  we are not the body.

Destruction
The crazy thing is we destroy the body.
We torment it with our desperate need for control, approval, security, separation and oneness. With our wishing it was different, trying to figure it all out, heavy judgement, perception of being alone and separate.
With our belief that maybe some time in the future when everything is the way we demand, then we can be happy.
The future never comes.
We only have today. Every single one of us, allegedly terminal or not.
Just for today can we trust?
Just for today can we accept?
Just for today can we surrender?
Just for today can we allow?

The current model
In the current system we have 2 choices when diagnosed terminal or incurable.

1. Take the drugs and surgery with the belief of either getting a little while longer or relief from symptoms. The radiation that my dad got for lung cancer certainly helped his cough which was a godsend, but it destroyed his energy and ability to participate in the family for any length of time.
2. Accept that you are dying and go into a hospis or respite at home.

Option 3
What about a 3rd option?
Radical Remission Wards of Hope
A space where you get the opportunity to “try” to live with an all singing and dancing supporting cast.

Lets pull out all the other things that you can do to help yourcellf to have one more day on this planet.
Or to feel better about the days that you may have left, like we all do without thinking.
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What about a place that just helps you release fear, fear that has been given to you by a system that is beyond outdated.
What about forgetting about death and focusing on today.
Today is all we will ever have.
To project someones death into a perceived future, with colourful adjectives to help the mind torture the body, is beyond cruel.
It is abuse.
It is also not true or does not need to be if we would just open our minds and our eyes.

Here are some of the blatantly obvious things you can do to help your cellf that are totally ignored in Western medicine.

I am going to quote directly from Kelly Turner PhD's book Radical Remissions.
Go to her site to read about all the people who were told they were going to die by Doctors and Oncologists, and chose not to.
http://radicalremission.com/

Here are the top 9 things they all did. 

1. Took control of their own healing
2. Radically changed their diet
3. Supplements and herbs
4. Let go – the biggy!
5. Focused on the positive
6. Had a strong desire to live
7. Deepened their intuition
8. Deepened their spiritual connection
9. Strong social support network – surrounded themcellves by the right people

Kelly talked and continues to talk to literally thousands of people who have defied the odds.

Why some people heal and defy the odds is not crystal clear, but this is where our energy, attention and focus should be going.
Our collective consciousness HAS to move to solution and away from accepting this is just the way it is.
We are transmitters of energy and we create our reality, individually and collectively.
Disease is out of control.
What do we need to learn?
What is so out of balance when we have so much information, material wealth and possessions?
Why is it so difficult to believe we can heal?
Our health went one way and now it can go back again?
Surely this is a basic concept of physics?

You either believe this
1. We cannot heal and we need other people and drugs to help us. We are separate, individual entities fighting for our lives with no power of our own.
or
2. We have the power to heal, its innate in each one of us. And we can collectively pull together and put our intention into the Field to help and support each other on this journey. We are one.

Owning your power
I understand the difficulty in moving from,  I give my body to the Doctors to heal,  to I heal mycellf, I own my power.
How could  it possible without training, without education or understanding of biology, chemistry and medicine?
Well it is, choose to believe it or not, that is your prerogative.

Faith
Its a massive leap of faith.
A 180 degree shift in understanding.
Healing does not happen out there, it happens in here.
Wow, that is a huge paradigm shift.
Faith heals, not like some magic bolt from the sky but because it changes your genetic expression, your chemistry and therefore you biology.
It changes your story.
You biography becomes your biology.
Plus it's free.
Truly believe it and you will see it.
​It's the Law.
Keep the Faith Sabrina, just for today.

Out of date?
Are you living in the past?
Old fashioned thinking, doing, feeling, believing and acting?

Now its bad enough that our clothes, make up, hair and shoes are old fashioned, but what if our beliefs and perceptions are too?

We are living in a time of huge shift in perceptions.
This means we have to full on face our beliefs.
And we all know that humans hate that, and will kill in order to defend their beliefs.

From fear to Faith - from suffering to love - from 3rd dimension to 5th
But what if this new paradigm meant you had to let go of ALL your old beliefs, habits, concepts, labels and perceptions​?

Even your religious ones.
Even your spiritual ones
Even your scientific ones
All of them, no exceptions

What if God, The Field, The Universal force, Buddha, Prana, Mohammed, Messiah, Chi etc was all the same thing? What if you dropped your beliefs around the word?

What if there is an intelligence that we are entangled with, that is inside us and all around us, that can help us to heal and make a better world for ourcellves and others?
What if we are actually supernatural beings but nobody told us.
And if you don't believe it you will never see it?
What if this intelligence is unconditional love, what if we are never alone it is simply part of the illusion?
What if you can have anything you want when you 100% fully trust and surrender.
No half assed, kid on type bullshit hoping but real focused changing and allowing?

Are you willing to go there?
Are you open to the idea of loving the unknown, letting go of all "wanting security"?
Could you let go of your beliefs about death and linear time?

What would you not give up?
Can you and would you let go of all your co dependencies including your children and your other half?

Would you let go of all your material wealth?
Your friends?
Your home comforts? Central heating and new car?
All your fancy dancy things?

Carolyn Myss asked me that question years ago. (Me and hundreds of others!).
What are you not prepared to give up in order to be free.
In oder to work for your higher good, and that of others, whatever that may entail?

Most people say their kids, others their partner.
But the reality is that this thing we call death is a journey we can only do on our own.
From this reality anyway.
What if we could release all of the addictions, needs, habits, beliefs, limits etc and be free right here, right now without leaving the body.

What if when we did that we healed?
What if that was Heaven on Earth that everyones been banging on about for centuries?

Detachment
What is your biggest fear, take it and look at it straight in the face and then let it go.

Releasing fear, and moving to FAITH is the most powerful thing you can EVER do.
Because we live in fear 80% of the time we are constantly thinking of the worst case scenario.

Imagine flipping to Faith and living in the best case scenario.
Maybe you do that a bit and it pisses people off, I know I do and it does.

Preparing for the worst case scenario is playing the victim.
That is another direction you can go in, if you choose.
Make sure you know you are choosing.

What if you welcomed the worst case scenario, detached from it by letting go, then focused on the best case?
Preparing for the best case can be more of a challenge, especially when no one else thinks and feel like you. They will do their best to tell you that you are “living in denial” “in cloud cuckoo land” “Dreaming” you know the deal.

You are not your chemistry, that is an illusion
Understand that your inner pharmacy will produce the chemicals you need to prove you right.
This is your wake up call.
You create the chemicals based on your beliefs.
Which leads to your thoughts and feelings, then the body thinks it's real and it provides the chemicals to help you deal with that.
You are doing it all. Unconsciously.
Time to get conscious.
Time to transcend the old heavy vibrations into higher ones.
Fear to Faith.

Fight or flight = worst case scenario
Love, joy and courage = best case scenario

Your thoughts, feelings and beliefs maybe getting dictated by your chemistry.
And your chemistry is being dictated by your internal and external enviroments!

Think about this.
You are doing it all to yourcellf.
Your body is creating the chemicals based on what it thinks you want.
Think fear, get adrenalin and cortisol and a blood rush and heart rate increase.
Think faith, get seratonin, oxytocin, endorhpins along with heart and brain coherence.

We get addicted to our emotions and our reactions and we actually believe that is "just the way we are".
No.
Not with this new information.
We can change anything.
We change our brain frequency, our electro magnetic field, our dominant thoughts and feelings and we are on our way to a new world.
Quite literally.
Fearlessness will take you wherever you want to go.
Wash the fear out of your cells, let it all go and BOOM you are on for the ride of your life.

Now, thanks to the incredible work of Joe Dispenza, we can break the habit of being ourcellves and wake up to the fact that we are the placebo!


Its BRILLIANT news peeps.
All you need to do is refire and rewire your brain.
Wash the past out of the cells.
Then the body follows.
Then you produce the frequency that you truly want and are.

But it takes cellf discipline.
Its takes support.
It takes practise and repetition.
Are you driving that body like a rusty old pedal car, or Piloting your pineal and flying in that incredble space ship?
The choice is now yours.
Want more of the science?
www.youtube.com/watch?v=NVCh7p6V7MQ&t=804s

It is soooooo incredibly exciting, if you are ready to explore more, pm me for a free consultation.

The Placebo effect.
When you believe you are getting something the body behaves as if you did (belief) and you get the exact same response as the drug, sometimes even better.
What the hell?
This is very important information that nearly everyone knows about but we ignore?
Why?
Dr Joe Dispenza and his team are pioneering their way where no man has gone before and using science to explain what happens when we "believe".
And they can prove it, every step of the way.
How and why?
Because they measure it.
We are connected to a Field of Intelligence that can now be measured.
When we meditate our brain changes frequency.
The brain clearly shows a change when we connect to the field.
A massive download of energy that is clearly visible on the screen, they can even see that it is coming.
Some western scientists that were brought in to observe thought the person was having a fit.
They had never seen anything like this.
When you observe the person being measured it is clear they are enjoying the experience, The machine shows a dramatic rise in energy, but only the person meditating knows exactly what is happening.

When the person comes out of meditation they can tell of their "mystical" experience which often results in a healing or expansion of understanding and awareness.
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Guys, something is going on here, and Joe is measuring it and using his own money to research it.
This is the most exciting research in the World for our healing potential.
And our understanding of the Universe.
We are on the edge of a totally new understanding of our reality.
Read here for a deeper understanding.
drjoedispenza.com/files/understanding-brainwaves_white_paper.pdf

So the real question is.....can we heal ourcellves by belief and thought alone?
Yes.
Tried, tested and measured.
Repeated and duplicated.
We can heal by thought alone.
Fact.
So now what?
The World is not flat, we are not solid, pharmaceutical drugs do not heal an energy system, we can change our perceptions, beliefs and electromagnetic field and heal.

So how do we do that.
Maybe you don't believe?
Maybe you do not want to believe?
Maybe you would prefer to live your life the way you want then expect a Doctor and prescription pad to fix you?

This is a life changing paradigm shift.
Hale Dwoskin told me nearly 13 years ago, there is nowhere to go and nothing to do, to be what you already are.
I did not really understand then. I spent all these years releasing all the concepts and labels I have gathered over nearly 6 decades.
I am not the body, I am an eternal energy being, here having this Earthly experience?
There is no such thing as death, time or apparent others?
We are not solid beings living in linear time?
We are multi dimensional beings living in a multi dimensional Universe?

Could we really have got it that wrong?

So many, suffering terribly, because of the concepts of linear time and death.
Telling people they are incurably ill, inoperable, terminal, aggressively sick terrifies the living daylights out of them.
The body goes into fight or flight and creates chemicals to fuel the body for action.
The immune and healing response shut down.
The total opposite of the healing, restorative state.
This is a dangerous state for the body to be in long term.
People often just stay there and die, like they were told.
This is called the nocebo effect. 
The opposite of the placebo.

This prognosis comes from the concept that there are no pharmaceutical methods to help therefore your life is over, and nothing could be further from the truth.
This is a lie.
Or an alternative fact or falsehood.

What if you could heal if you believed you could?
What if you focused on that instead of fearing and focusing on death?
What if you were not given a terrifying time frame but a new understanding of reality where death and time were merely illusions?

Can you open your mind to the possibility?
Are you willing to even look?
Or is your belief system and mind going straight into denial, resistance and maybe even outrage?

People are dying, fighting and suffering today because of different belief systems.
We cling onto our beliefs like crazed lunatics.
And a belief is just a thought that was repeated until we thought it was real.
AND you can believe anything you want.
AND you can change what you believe.
So why on Earth would you believe you are a victim if you are not?
Why would you not try everything in your power to bring your body back into harmony?

What if you were given the opportunity to ride in this genius spaceship we call the body, but because of your limiting beliefs and ego you chose to see it as an old pedal car?

Carolyn Myss read for over 10 thousand people when she was a medical intuitive.
Guess how many out of 10 thousand, when given their healing plan said "is that all I have to do to get my life back"?
One.
Yes one out of 10 thousand was "grateful and willling" to do what had to be done.
Quite incredible eh?
So what are you NOT prepared to do to get your life back.

We are all going to the next dimension, it is not something we can opt out of.
But maybe we can take control, stand in our power, listen to our hearts and learn why our body is dying and in doing so nurse it back to life.

You can lie about what you eat, drink and think to me.
But the body only hears the truth.
Time to own up.
Time to wake up.
​Time to take our power back.

Want to explore this thing we call death a bit more?

Sabrina Latina goes to Spain


For those of you following Sabrinas story this is an update on her progress.
For those of you just coming into my blog Sabrina is a client who became a friend, as they all do, who is searching for ways to save her own life.


A few weeks ago Sabrina had pinned her hopes on going to the Gerson centre in Hungary.
When they realised all the treatment and medications she had had they did not want to put her on their program, feeling that it could be too severe a detox for her.
They offered her a place for one day where they could teach her the methods etc and then put her on their diet for 3 months with the view to her coming back in 3 months when she was “cleaner” to do the 2 week course.


She was bitterly disappointed and was under pressure to “do something” from her family who are clearly very worried about her.


Test Results
To enter into any other holistic place they look for the results from your oncologist.
This involved another visit for Sabrina, which is always very stressful and this time was no different.
He told her she had stage 4 ovarian cancer and that she was going to die, her belly would swell, it would be agony and her legs would fill with fluid.
He even examined her looking for the signs, there were none.
Her distended stomach was flatter and she feels better than she has for over 10 years.
It is very difficult to shrug off these words and beliefs, but she is getting better at it, suffers and gets down for a few days, then bounces back.


So we started researching, I sent her all the links, we got some good recommendations and we prayed, meditated for the right place to appear.


There was then the problem of paying for your own treatment and the expense of going to other countries, accomodation and flights.


We had discussed starting a fund raiser but she was reticent at first.
Desperation was setting in, so I grabbed the bull by the horns and set up the gofundme page.
This is clearly not something I can do for all my clients and I have to confess it feels slightly uncomfortable to ask for money.
However her life is on the line so I let that go and put it out.
This research and journey that she is making will help all my other clients.
We are learning a ton on the way and plan to make big waves and noise when she heals.
This is not just about Sabrina for me.
This is for all my clients, current ones and others sadly still to come.
We should not have to beg for money, we should be able to take our chemo and surgery budget and use it as WE see fit.
We are in a very tight Big Harma grip.
This has to end, soon.


We looked at the Oasis of Hope, but its 25k per visit plus the long flights so this was out the question as we needed to move quickly.


A friend of mine had suggested the Budwig centre in Germany and when Sabrina googled this the one in Spain came up.
She emailed them.


It was a sunday so imagine her surprise when she got a personal call that day from the Doctor.
The owner of the clinic.
He is a Canadian man who moved to Spain to practise Budwig as Canada is as tightly sewn up with Big pharma as the UK and the US are, you are simply not allowed to use these safe, non toxic treatments.
Mental how this situation arose.
Money, greed and power.
Imagine you have to move out your own Country in order to be able to help people heal because of the corrupt powers that be.


But even there he has to be very careful as we soon found out.


You take part in the programme as a day visitor, it is non residential.
You can also do it remotely, we will explain more about that later after treatments are finished.
First thing is they do the vega test for food intolerances, organ function and gut flora.
See here for more info.
www.budwigcenter.com/portfolio-items/test-vega/#.WIeQUBsrLIU
Hugely helpful test that helps you rebalance rather than telling you where you are at with the assumption you cannot change it.


The therapist was amazed. Said her results looked more like stage 1 than 4.
Wow, how incredible to get such hopeful, liberating good news.
From the results they got from the oncologist they had not expected her to look and feel so well.
They congratulated her on all her good work, said whover she was working with (big up for me) had done a great job and they were hugely positive about her health picture.


I cried when she told me, tears of gratitude for this amazing, crazy girl.
I had watched her since she came to live with me early September.
I knew she was much better, I knew the body was healing but to stave off the fear, terror from the hospital is very difficult.
I knew she could do it but the huge oppression from the medical establishment does cause you to question.
In a quantum world where you put your focus and attention is where you go.
The Doctors play a big part in helping people to focus on fear and dying.
Anti healing vibrations and intentions.


Following the protocol
Sabrina did what most people do not do.
She followed my advice to the letter.
Some people baulk at liver flushes, enemas and vegan diets.
They refuse to do what successful people who have healed do, this always baffles me.
But a few grab the recipe for healing and just do it.
Sabrina is one of them.
She got really tired, really challenged, really fed up and disillusioned but she kept getting back up, determined to heal hercellf.
Even when I called her a big baby she cried then laughed.
We still joke about that today. We laugh a lot and funnily enough that boosts your immune system.
We have got through the almost daily challenges the huge ups and downs by saying its just another good chapter for the book.


So after the high of realising her body was in really good shape they sent her to see an oncologist.
WHAT?
I wrongly assumed it would be for an overview but oh no, he offered her a “mild” chemo!
Get this, just as a precaution.
Remember her first strong” chemo that put her in a asylum, 4 different drugs had another oncologist remarking it was a miracle it didnt kill her, did not work.


Is it just me or does anyone else find this quite gobsmacking?


I was furious. She was clearly upset and it was another mind fuck. Excuse the language, but thats what it was.

Chemo for Sabrina or for insurance purposes - covering your ass?
You go somewhere to heal naturally and they offer you chemo.
Now this was not in the actual Budwig Centre it was a clinic they liase with.
As Sabrina said in her usual down to earth fashion, if I wanted chemo I would have gone to a chemo expert.
But again it shakes your faith.
And its faith that freakin heals you.
She had a really low day and we did some releasing to help keep her eye on the goal. This is totally normal when you are detoxing, a whole load of old emotional and physical stuff is leaving.
Part of you, the diseased part is leaving, you are letting go and that can feel sad, for a bit.
I suspected the oncologist part was an insurance deal.
And it was, to keep his clinic open you have to involve Big Pharma.
But that should have been explained and would have saved a day or two of confusion.


Natural treatments
She has been getting hypothermia, halo, ozone, foot detox, bachs, homoepathy, supplements, affirmations, letting go, meditation and more.
I am not going into detail in this blog on what all of these do but long story short is all about getting the wrong stuff out and the right stuff in to allow the body to balance.


She had the weekend off and went to Granada with her friend, they laughed a lot and she seemed really happy. But she told me her belly was swollen, I suspected it was the change in food and detox bringing everything out.


So yesterday when she went back they did another vega test.
Parasites, fungus and a virus showed up, this explains the belly.
It did not freak her at all, she told me that if nothing came out she wasn't healing.
She has learned so much in the last 4 months.


So that is you up to date with her healing so far.
She has come a million miles in 4 months and I give her so much credit for that.
In some ways the easier path is to put the chemo into your veins.
This path is not for the faint hearted or poorly educated and unsupported.


Anyone embarking on the road less travelled need constant support, love and reassurance.
We thank everyone of you following this journey for your words of encouragement and donations to the greater cause.


We will keep you informed step by step along this incredible journey.
She gets machines to take home with her to carry on the treatments there.
I will blog about these in more detail when she gets back.

Our perceptions of the Universe are changing fast as is our awareness of our inner power.
Healing by thought alone will be the next step for Sabrina, studying with the Master who is Joe Dispenza.


If you or any of your loved ones are brave enough to hope that you can defy the odds please get in touch for a free consultation.
The more people that step up and out the quicker we will change the system to a holistic, empowering, truly healing one.
Faith can replace Fear.
​Just for today.

If you would love to help here is the gofundme link
www.gofundme.com/help-healing-sabrina

I discovered Dr Joes work in July.
Healing by thought alone.
He is teaching literally thousands of people to do this, with phenomenal success, I am quite gutted I have never payed attention to him before.
The concept of spontaneous healings has always fascinated me.
When I say fascinated it has now turned to an obsession.
My friends joke saying I am going to morph into Joe Dispenza, you cannot talk to me for more than 120 seconds without me referring to his work in some way.

Why?
Because he researched spontaneous healings.
He is duplicating real time healings EVERY single advanced workshop.
So called miracle healings are happening except they are not miracles, he explains what happens and why from a scientific point of view, the only one that most Westerners will listen to.

Demystifying the mystical
He demystifies the mystical.
Teaches you how to change the frequency of your brain, increase your vibration to change your electromagnetic field, and how this interacts with the Field.


Quantum physics
What is the Field?
It is the energy that everything in the Universe is made up of.
The Quantum Field is a soup of consciousness that we interact with.
We are not solid, we are frequency like everything else in the Universe.
This information changes our reality. Our percpective.
Particles and waves that are affected by our thoughts, feelings, actions, perceptions and beliefs.
We can change the waves to matter, material.
We can use the mind to change the matter.
We are powerful supernatural beings that can heal, and snowboard to any standard that you train your mind to.


This surely must be the most important scientific discovery of our time.
Others have known about this for ever but in the West we wont believe it till we see it.
Now you can see it.
How does Dr Joe Dispenza know?
Because he measures it.
Everything.
He can provide all you sceptics with the scientific facts.
How do you like them apples :)

This turns healing on its head.
We are the architect of our lives and our bodies which is our subconscious mind.
With this excitement of our unlimited potential comes a responsibility.

You are hanging out in a uber intelligent bundle of vibrating, stringed cells.
You are communicating to the body and the World your innermost dreams and fears.
Your cells respond to everything you say, think, feel, perceive and believe.
No one else can drive this spaceship for you.
Its up to you.
No victims, only Masters.
We need to take control, own our power and start paying attention to the things that truly matter.

So what has this got to do with snowboarding?

When we learn something new we fire the brain in different ways.
We teach the body how to do the things we need it to do.
Now I have been skiing then snowboarding for over 30 years, my body knows exactly what to do but this trip I recognised the power of my mind to try and stop me.
To put me and keep me in fear.
The ego justifying all the reasons for me not to go up the mountain.
Bullshit reasons like a wee pain in my back, I have to write a blog, Im tired, I need to have recovery time.


I saw and listened to it all and knew it was all lies and excuses.
Another major thing was my level of fitness.
5 hours on a mountain everyday was too much for me.
There I said it out loud.
My body was screaming to rest, to stop, making excuses.
I was last down the mountain and had to tell mycellf that is NOT what it is about.
My ego was rearing its hilarious ugly head but now I know it.
Combine that with draining my energy levels with fear chat and you can imagine how knackered I was at night.

Never give up
But I have a season pass, and I have a sister who is a machine and a shining example of just get on with it.
So I ignored the mind best I could and persevered.
Then this week the powder came, my legs were tired but I just kept going.
Suddenly the fear went and the body remembered.
I felt strong and confident to look over any “cornice” that my nephews were going to.
Boy did it feel good.
Anytime I did something new I realised I was teaching the body new tricks.
Even did a few small jumps and I mean small.
I was doing the Sedona Method on the burning in my thighs and actually started to get a buzz out of the feeling.
I switched my perception.
I took control, I said to the mind “Is that all you've got”?
Oh how easy it would have been to stay in the nice warm house.

Fitness of body and mind
I have never really not been fit, well this kind of fit for years, its a good boot up the ass to use it and not lose it.
I am already planning next winter here as this is just a lifestyle, its on the mountains, its everything that I love and its not like going to the gym.
Its being in Nature, being on the Mountains, in the trees, pushing the boundaries in the most spectacular scenery in the World and most of all it is exhilarating.
Its a way of life, that's all and I am blessed that I can come here and hang out for the Winter, what a privilege.

Dr Joe Dispenza teaches us we are not the body.
And when we focus on the body we become cellfish.
Snowboarding brought my attention to every ache and pain that has been going on there. The numb toes, the stiff neck, the slight ache in knees and then the desire to bore everyone to death talking about it, as some do.
I felt it all going up the Gondola, then it all disappeared in the rush of sliding fast down the mountain.
What had changed?
Nothing except my point of focus.
I was out the body now, looking ahead, deciding on my moves, speed, direction.
What a brilliant lesson for life this is.
It has brought stuff up for releasing that I did not realise was there.

A new mind
My brain is firing and wiring in new ways, the ego is quietened for now, I feel stronger and fitter than I have for a long time.
Im breaking the habit of being me. Of buying into others points of view.
Of believing my body is aging instead of regenerating.
Sure there is still a lot of shit in there for me to discover but today is a great day.
I aint only going downhill, I am going up too :)

It is such a strange culture we live in.
And until we wake up to the fact we are energy beings I cannot see it changing.
We have Doctors telling our brothers and sisters that they are going to die, there is nothing can be done and sending them home with that belief.
Across the Mexican border the Doctors are trained in nutrition and supplementation plus they are not controlled by Big Harma and the governments that benefit from them and people are going there and healing.
​How confusing.

We now have a situation where people are paying thousands to go there and other places in Europe in a bid to save their own lives.
And a lot of them are succeeding.
So where do we go from here?
You can only get access to that if you have the money and education?
Seriously, in 2017 in a so called developed County?

The UK and the US see themselves as possibly the most developed Countries in the World.
Yet people are dying because of this control and lack of willingness to move with the times.

We have an archaic system that says we are not allowed to do things until they prove them and say we can.
This can take decades.

Meanwhile the Cancer pandemic continues to destroy lives and families and we sit by and wait?
And watch?
We read and research and investigate what others are doing, then we ask the "experts" and they say that there is no other way apart from what they offer?

I understand that you cannot just bring in the latest machines and treatments without proper research and tests but I think we have gone way beyond this now.

Oncologists and Doctors are not holistically trained.
If they are it is because they have taken it upon themcellves to move outside the "model" they were taught in school.
This is a fact and not a judgement.
The pharmaceutical companies tell them the latest breakthroughs and it is only ever about drugs and treatments that can and do make them money.
There is currently a Doctor in the UK lobbying the health minister to bring in nutrition and wellbeing to the medical curriculum.
The BBC interviewer was quite rightly bemused as he said, I dont mean to be rude but is that not just common sense?
Exactly.
Thats what we think.
But woooahh dont question the system.
You are not allowed.
Dont step on anyones toes.
Is there any other industry, because it is one, in the World that you would get away with this mentalness?!

In the UK we have the NHS and there seems to be a belief that Doctors are not on the payroll but ofcourse they are, in a slightly different way from the blatant disgrace that is the US, but they get rewarded none the less.

In the current system you can get drugs, chemo, radiation and or surgery.
Thats it.

So we all are waiting for a drug to come along to solve all our health problems?
Seriously?

Doctors go by what gets “published” in the “respectable” places and if its not been double blind controlled, peer reviewed blah, blah blah etc they will not accept it.

But think of this........

Getting this new “data” to convince people to change has to go through a tedious, time consuming and often non accurate process.
You could die while this is happening.
Someone has to decide to do it. If its not funded by Big Pharma then they have to get funding.
This takes time.
Often a long time.
Then they have to do the studies over and over in controlled enviroments.
Then they have to get it published.
Then people have to read it.
Then some people have try it.
Most wont, they will wait like sheep till others try it, this also takes a long time, then when the masses are convinced they will maybe “try” it.

Meantime an entire generation have died.

But get real here folks.
We are not suggesting you experiment with another poison.

We are talking about fresh vegetables.

Gerson has over 10 thousand documented cases of full recovery, decades later from people who have been sent home to die.
A diet of fresh vegetables, coffee enemas and supplements.
Dr Kelly Turner has thousands of Radical Remissions on her site.
One of the main things they did was no meat, no sweet, no wheat and no dairy.
I could go on but you get the point.

PEOPLE ARE HEALING WITHOUT THE SYSTEM.

And a lot more would heal if we opened up this closed shop.
And there would be less torture and pain for the families and friends.

This is not rocket science, this is not dangerous, this is common sense surely.
Why would you not try?
What is the worst that could happen?

These natural treatments can only ever make you feel better.
The detox has to be managed carefully if you are very sick, but that is fairly easy when you understand the process and steps can be made to nurse and support you through it.

And another thing we are all dying. Get over it.

Why are we waiting?
Do we need the government to tell us?
You are seriously going to wait till they get their arses in gear?

There is proof all over the internet.
Take control, own your power, do the research, be brave and stand up and be counted.
Help break this madness, this lunacy.

Joe Dispenza is taking it a step further and teaching us to heal by thought alone!
Come on guys again, WHY would you not try this.

Why is it like a forbidden subject?
Why would you want to believe that your cancer is incurable when there are thousands and growing numbers healing or at least attempting to.
And the more of us that believe, the more of us will heal, it is the quantum law.

Look what Roger Bannister did with the 4 minute mile.
The minute other realised it was a possibility they all started doing it.
They then BELIEVED it was possible, so they did it.
This is the same for everything!
What would stop you?

Is it fear?
Is it laziness?
Is it belief?

Why would your Doctor not tell you (I know some do but it needs to be a thing) that there are no drugs but there are a tone of other safe things you can do to help yourcellf.
You may get an extra week, you may get an extra few decades, but surely you need to try.

Is it because there are no guarantees?
This is even more mental because chemo does not give you any either.
No one can guarantee you will live to be 100.
None of us know for sure when our day will come.
So this could be the lamest excuse yet. (Great Canadian word lame)

You will never know if you can play the piano till you try.

You will never know if you can heal until you try.

What and who are you waiting for?

Sure sit by and wait, but understand that is what you are doing. Taking no action to help yourcellf. Make sure you understand it is a choice.

Here is another thing.
We live in a quantum field.
Newtonian physics is wrong, out of date, useless.
We are the creators.
We can and do change matter with our minds.
This is critical information for your health and happiness.
You aint going to read about this in the Daily Record or the Malta times.
Are you prepared to open your mind to the possibility of healing, to at least try?

The new way to look at the body involves self empowerment and responsibility.
You cannot trash the body then put it into the garage like a car and get it fixed.
How great that would be.
But thats not the game.
You are an energy being and your body is an intelligent mass.
You are a part of Nature and connected to everyone and everything on it.
We cannot be healthy on a sick Planet.
When you live a lie and live out of alignment with your higher cellf and Nature you will experience disease.
The body is communicating to you.
Time to rebalance and change.

Healing is not difficult but sustaining and making changes is.
We drastically need a safe haven to go where genuine body, mind and spirit can be supported back to balance. We need to be patient, the support needs to go on for perhaps years, its a journey and it can be a lonely place to try and heal yourcellf in.

Space ship NOT pedal car

You are living in a magical space ship that you are driving like a old pedal car.
You have the ability to transform and raise your vibration creating any chemical that a pharmacist would be proud of in your brain.
Take your power back.
Take action.
Break through the lethargy and victim beliefs that its someone elses responsibility.
Its yours.
Own it.
Do it.
You are the placebo.

We need to lobby the government to bring in the new proven treatments.
We need to break the stranglehold of Big pHarma
We need our NHS fully aware of the bodies innate healing capacity when we understand it, this has to be part of the curriculum.
We need to hold Oncologists responsible for their language, attitude and lack of holistic understanding.
The fear they instill can and does kill people I have seen this in my own family.
It is inhumane, cruel and I believe abuse.
We need to learn how to navigate this body for our highest good and that of our family and the Planet.
We need to look at ways to communicate the bodies difficulties without terror and taking away all hope. Without painting a picture that is just one point of view, unfair and out of date.

Or you can wait for the “data”.
Its your choice.

Read and listen to the people who have defied the odds with good research and natural ways.
hippocratesinst.org/testimonials

​http://radicalremission.com/search/

http://gerson.org/gerpress/category/your-stories/

And for me this is the future.
Healing by thought alone.
Learn how to fly your spaceship in the direction of love and life.
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Old and brittle? Time to give up?


For the first time in 8 years I have been hitting the slopes of Kicking Horse. A steep mountain, fairly quiet but with a gondola from bottom to top and a vertical of 4000 ft.


I have had 2 days in Scotland in that time but it doesnt equate to out here and the amount of turns required to descend.


I started off on skis then discovered boarding and fell in love with it. Over the years I have gone on skis just to see, but after half a day want to get back on my board.


I had not realised it was that long since I had spent time on the Mountains. Asking one of my clients one day what there favourite thing to do was, I realised that I had not been doing mine for 8 years.
Life got in the way.


During the summer I booked a one way flight out, my sister bought me my ski pass and I am off and running for another beloved season in the snow.


I know my fitness level is not up to speed for 6 hours boarding a day.
I also know my nerve will not be what it was, dont use it, lose it.


My delightful bro gave me money for a physio for my Xmas, he was laughing at the thought of how stiff I was going to be. These particular muscles had not done this for 8 years. Hmmmmm.


So I go up, with that slight trepidation can I still do this?
I soon realised I had lost a bit of my nerve. The things that bother you when you are learning came up again.
Getting off lifts, runs that look much steeper than you would like them too and that hard noise from other boarders and skiers that says ice.
Then going too fast and knowing you are out of control, and the mind bringing in fear, then leaning back and causing yourcellf to fall.


But my mind has come up with some new shit.
I spend my life telling my clients not to listen to other peoples negative perceptions, points of view as they filter their fear through the past and their conditioning.


Here's me listening to my mind saying “what if your bones are brittle!?
You are in that category. What if you break something. What if you really hurt yourcellf. Maybe you should go back to skiing, no one else your age is on a board and when you fall you can hurt your neck and back.
SERIOUSLY. This is the shit my mind was saying.
Then......... I am coming up on the Gondola chatting to this couple about my age.
He asks me what do I do for health care. (This was another thing my mind was banging on about because up until a few days ago I never had any, but now I do because of the mind and other peoples beliefs, its easier to have it.)
So I tell this man I have private medical insurance, which is not true, but I would have told him that anyway.
He then asks but what do they do to you if something big happens.
Im wondering what something big is.
He then adds in, would they send you home or would they keep you here.
Holy shit, this is not a conversation any young person would dream up.
I answer honestly, I have no idea.
But it gets me thinking. What is something “big”.
Obviously if I was in a terrible accident that rendered my paralysed or something, or a stroke or a heart attack these are the only things I would need to go to hospital for, or appendix maybe.


Then I get mad at mycellf for thinking down that line.
I bought the dam insurance, I am planning to get fitter, stronger and braver everyday as I return to full fitness and confidence and I do not want my mind going in the direction of injury.


A friend of mine who had been diagnosed with cancer and told it was in her bones is currently in the Alps and she had been doing the same thing as me, except she was not thinking about osteoporosis but cancer making her bones weak. Actually hilarious we were both thinking about it at the same time, different place same shit.
When my sister saw me on top of the roof on my nephews GT sledge, she said dont get injured at the start of the season.


I have been skiing since I was 23.
100 of us from Kintyre used to go on a plane every year to the Alps.
We NEVER talked about getting injured.
We did so many stupid things, stayed up all night, drank, partied, skied again 6 days in a row of this and none of us got injured on the slopes.
A few did at night on the way home doing daft things, but nothing major on the slopes.


But now I do know a few of my family and friends who have been injured on the mountain.
Hips, shoulders, backs, its crept into my awareness.
Not good, I want to be carefree on the Mountain, letting go of any idea of getting hurt.


Your skis and board are a great indicator of how you live your life.
Do you lean back trying to slow down, do you drive the edge in with confidence and strength, do you face the fall line fearlessly and do you let go and stand on top of your board/skis loving the speed?
When you take control, ride it out, face the lines, dig your edge in, know the snow condition, understand what is round the corner, that is when you get the most amazing buzz.


When you worry about getting hurt, lean back, pussy around with your carves and turns, unsure of the bumps and corners that's when you fall and that's when you use up precious energy, just like life, trying to second guess, allowing the mind to ruin the moment.


8 years ago I got the biggest compliment from this guy, he said wow your board like a 19 year old.
I can still do that, I am perfectly aware, I just need to let go.
Hahahahahaha


I allow mycellf to board like a 19 year old
I am releasing all fear of falling and injury
I am fearless
I am in the flow
I am letting go of others points of view and limiting beliefs
I allow mycellf to trust


Aging is a concept.
For sure there is molecular decay and gravity but the spirit can remain the same when we release all fear and concepts from the past.
Taking on other peoples limitations is hugely unhelpful, but it takes guts to challenge and decide their way is not for you.


Would it be easier for me to stay off the mountain and get old gracefully, yes.
But I am not going to, I will be as fit and fearless as I was 8 years ago and beyond.
I had an amazing day yesterday in 15cms of powder snow, what a fab way to start your day in the most spectacular scenery.
I did fall but so what, if you are not falling you are not trying.
Push the boundaries.
Take the risks.
Feel alive, your cells love it.


Old is an attitude, it aint happening here, not for now anyway.

On saturday Sabrina will go to Spain to the Budwig Centre there.
www.budwigcenter.com/
​
If you can possibly help us go here
www.gofundme.com/help-healing-sabrina

What a journey this has been.
She came to see me for a nutrition consultation in the beginning of September.
She was facing a 3rd chemo and major surgery for the cancer she had been diagnosed with 3 years earlier.
She told me her story and I was horrified.
Not only had she suffered all that toxic treatment but had ended up in the psychiatric hospital due to the chemo, where they then put her on drugs they told her she would be on for life.


She said to me “I know you wont stick your neck out and tell me what you really think” and of course I stuck my neck out, she is the same age as my youngest daughter, I could not bear to think of her getting more of the same, my intuition screamed no.


So she moved in with me and started the Gerson protocol.
Everyone was happy and excited about that, I put my self in quite the situation, but it felt right.


Then the cancer markers started to rise.
They often rise on Gerson as the cancer breaks down, but could we be sure. The Oncologist assured her the cancer was spreading and she would die if she did not take chemo, but could also not guarantee that it would work.


Imagine this is you, or your sister, daugher or mother, what would you think and do?


Most of her friends could not understand that she was trusting me with her life.
I get that.
But when the cancer markers rose, all faith in me disappeared and fear and pressure came in all around her like a huge weight.
What to do now.
I still knew she could heal, but I believe most people can but don't, but it's not about what I believe or my job would be easy.
I was leaving the Country but she still needed help.
The irony being she was now feeling better than she had in 10 years.
She told me that she had been attending the doctors for years feeling crap and they told her nothing was wrong.
Now she goes feeling better than she ever has and they tell her she is dying.
Quite the system.


There are 3 things you can do here.

1. Take more chemo and major surgery and pray you can come through it with some quality of life.
2. Decide that you want to die without any more poison and live out your life, however much longer it will be, the way you want.
3. Take control, research and try everything you can to heal yourcellf.

Clearly Sabrina has chosen the last one.
She is having no more allopathic drugs, they failed her twice already, she feels strongly it would kill her, she would rather die without it, her choice.


But the system is not set up for those who challenge the status quo.
If you refuse treatment and go home and die quietly that is your right, and people do, and sometimes these people heal as documented by Dr Kelly Turner, simply because they let go, they surrendered and the body got peace to heal.


But this situation is different.
Sabrina knows and has spoken to others who have healed, one of them by thought alone.
This is a fact.
Yet the Oncologist is adamant that she will die.

It baffles me that people do not research the ones that defy the odds. Especially Doctors. I know it not nice to be wrong, it happened to me once and I did not like it (sarcasm) but to be ruining peoples lives giving them a prognosis that is dubious and out of date at the very least, not sure how you would feel when you discover that.
If you look on the internet.
Sabrinas oncologist is looking for the expected signs of the clinical path and they are not there. He is baffled and reiterates how her body should be. Swollen, painful and deteriorating.
She told him she only comes for research when he asked her why she bothered coming. She is interested in what he will say and what he expects.
Her body is healing, but for her to maintain her faith under such certainty from the expert is her biggest challenge.
That and the oppressive fear and throw away comments of others. Here is an example, you are like a fruit that looks great on the inside but is rotten in the middle!!!!
Yes someone actually said that.


I started to raise money to help her, this is against every principle in me as it is not possible right now for me to help all my clients this way, and its plain wrong that you may die because of the pharmaceutical grip in our countries, this is a crusade to get things changed.


Sabrina and I talked about taking her story public, we weighed up the pros and cons, but we felt telling the story in real time would be more powerful.
And now we are telling it, rightly or wrongly, the fight for her life is on and its public.


Many friends have critisized her for airing her feelings on facebook, but unless you have walked in these shoes, and as my mum used to say, if you dont have anything nice to say, dont say anything.


The Oasis of Hope where a lot of Westerners go to heal is $25 thousand per visit.
We have researched various places, I was sending her all the links, without realising the tremendous pressure I was putting on her, and how reading and researching for your own life, drains it out of you.
I watch her from the other side of the World, this amazing little human living this horrendous story.
We have been releasing, tapping and meditating our way through this and yesterday she got word from Spain that she is accepted there, she is over the moon.
She emailed them on sunday and the actual Doctor called her the same day.


The fact they accepted her immediately tells her they have hope.
The phenomenal service they have provided builds trust.


When you think you are dying you do not want to wait around for days and weeks until someone decides whether they can help you or not, that is the same as the Allopathic system, it breeds fear and that is what Gerson did.
So Gerson is out and Budwig is in.


But let me make one thing clear from my side.
I believe she can heal without going there.


But its got nothing to do with me, its what she believes and what the people around her believe.

The fact that she is going to see a Doctor puts everyones mind at ease and makes life much easier for her.
The placebo at work, dont you love it.


And for sure this will help her heal, because she is excited about it she knows it is the right thing.
Her emotional guidance system is telling her.
The power of her mind, the power of the hope the Doctors there will give her, meeting other people who are also healing from allegedly terminal disease, this is what will lift her up and move her from hoping to knowing.


Sabrinas story is not just about Sabrina.
It is about our “Health care”.


It is about telling people they are going to die when you do not have any idea of holistic healing.
It is about abuse of power.
It is about the gap in our system, the lack of a place for people to go who want to combine or only use holistic, non toxic, natural treatments.
Its about the strangle hold of the pharmaceutical companies and our governments part in this, the money.

We still need support even if we dont want drugs.
One of the 9 steps in Dr Kelly Turners book Radical Remissions is strong social support network.
They still need Doctors and nurses.
Just open minded ones with an overview of all the incredible work that is going on around the world.
People are healing with nutrition alone.
People are healing by thought alone.
People are going to Mexico to get oxygen therapy, Vit C in high does, hypothermia, Vit B 13, Magnetic, Far infra Red, all cheap, non toxic and working!
Imagine if we can combine all of that.


This is not a competition here.
This is our lives.
I want healing for Sabrina and for her amazing wee dad, but I want it for all of us.
This suffering has to stop and we can stop it.
Collaborate FFS
Please :)
Here is the link to help us fund this healing project, every penny help, thanks in advance
www.gofundme.com/help-healing-sabrina

​I help people move from Fear to Faith
Fear kills, faith heals. Fact.


I help my clients come up for air out of the dark, suffocating fog of fear and into the light where they can breathe easy, at least for a hit.


Then they go back to their external enviroment and well meaning family, friends and doctors can and do trigger the fear again with mindless words and gestures.


This is one of the biggest things I picked up from Dr Joe Dispenza, the detrimental or transformational power of our eternal enviroment.


This happens with every single client I work with, no exceptions.

They plunge back down into fear by others careless words, especially the words of the ones closest and the Doctors who they have given over their body, power and life to.

If you do not believe people can heal, if you have not researched and read, then you should push your belief out through your mouth down theirs, right?
Even if it terrifies the living daylights out of them?

I am sure I have done it too, without realising, reacting from my fear, and giving my unwanted opinion that is filtered through my experience and past. This is not a judgement, just an observation and one we should all be very mindful of if someone we love has had the voodoo curse. (terminal or incurable prognosis based only on the fact there are no pharmaceutical drugs to help)

I knew this was a problem but had no idea how dangerous this was, until recently.

I spend an hour helping my clients to see things differently, helping them come up for air, then hours and days later others fill them with dread, yet again.

This is not about blowing sunshine up someones ass.
This is about quantum physics and the new SCIENTIFIC findings that are proven, measured and duplicated.

We have the power to heal ourcellves.
People are healing by thought alone........and dying.

In Kelly Turners book Radical Remissions she states the 9 things that people did to defy the odds.
She interviewed over 1500 and counting, people who were sent home to die but didnt.
Quite newsworthy dont ya think!!!!!!


NB. People are healing against ALL odds. Hundreds of thousands of them who have been told by the allpathic system that they are going to die.
Remember all the allopathic system can offer is pharmaceutical drugs.
Nothing else.
Quite incredible in this day and age!! 2017 ffs.
Nothing about nutrition, nothing about the past traumas, nothing about emotions, nothing about spiritual connection.
Match symptoms to drugs, thats it.

What appears to be happening through the perception of a human (Doctor) in a snapshot of your body (which is a vibrating mass of energy, constantly changing and interacting in the Field), in that second in time.

That is how your fate is being assessed.
Why the body is doing what it is doing is completely ignored like it is some nuisance behaving badly.

Kelly did her PhD on this and has a course to teach you exactly what they did, if you have cancer then do this course, or any other dis ease for that matter.

2 of the steps in Kellys book are

1. Take control.
   When you get diagnosed you possibly find you move onto a conveyor belt of activity. Appointments, tests, results, treatment, all laid out for you, you have no say. It is critical to breathe, take stock ans weigh up ALL the options, not just the pharmaceutical ones.
2. Strong social support network.

This is critical to your success, maybe the most important.
In Sophie Sabbages book The Cancer Whisperer she sent an email out to her inner circle telling them what she needed, and maybe even more importantly what she did not need, to hear especially.


Embarking on a healing journey it is one of the toughest things you will ever do.
It can take years, maybe a lifetime, and your continual challenge is to keep on keeping on. Avoiding the foods, people, places etc that you know harm you instead of healing you.
And going against the advice of the so called experts takes guts and strength that very few have.
This is where you friends and family hopefully, become part of your healing plan.
They allow you the down time then lift you up again, because believe me it is NEVER over till the fat lady sings, and people have come back from deaths door.
Because they had the balls to try.

This is not about not dying. We are all going to die, or move to the next dimension, all of us so let's pan back and take a less emotional look at this.

I am excited about this thing we call death, I believe we are not the body and just using this incredible vehicle to have an Earthly experience. This is just my conclusion after decades of research and courses.
If you are interested in the direct experience of one of the Worlds most experienced astral travellers go here.
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=william+bullman+death


I am not ready to go there yet, I have a load of Earthly experiences to enjoy before that.

But a huge healing irony is, when we let go of our fear of death, we often heal.
This is all about trust and surrender.


Think about this. If we knew that death was just a change of address and we had no fear of it, then the body would be less likely to get sick.
Infact the minute you signal to the body that everything is ok, the chemistry changes and it will return to homeostasis.
We do not heal ourcellves. We move out of flight or flight and into trust and the cells rearrange themcellf and healing occurs.

Staying in fear depresses the immune system, creates negative thoughts, feelings and perceptions and kills us.
Look around at all the bullshit we are being fed, its is ALL fear driven.
Could that possibly be contributing to our cancer pandemic?

Make no mistake telling people they are going to die will kill them if they believe you and hand over their power to you.
This has been happening forever and is still happening, it is just dressed a little differently now.

So let me talk about Sabrina.
Let me keep it brief.
2 rounds of chemo, 1 lot of radiation and 2 surgeries later her cancer is appearing to spread. I use the word appearing carefully and will explain in a bit.
The first round of chemo was “strong” one oncologist actually said it was amazing she survived it. WTF.
Shortly after she started it, she had an adverse reaction that landed her in Mt Carmel, Maltas psychiatric hospital.


Sabrina has been trying to stay positive, meditate, get into Nature, research, let go, juice and avoid as many toxins as possible but she is continually challenged and depressed by the test results and opinion of the oncologist who has assured her she has an expiry date (her words) and also added in how he thought it would happen, fluid in her legs (which he checked for and was surprised there was none there) and agonising pain in her belly. When that happened she is free to go back to him.

We are unclear as to the cancer markers being a sign that the cancer is spreading or breaking down and healing.
They often go up when the body is detoxing.


Try and stay positive with that kind of language and attitude and you are made of strong stuff.
When it feels like the whole world thinks you are going to die, and you are bravely reaching out and desperately searching for help and there seems to be none.


Sabrina is not alone. But she feels like she is, the fear the oncologist instills and his certainty that she will die has a strong hexing effect.
Another friend of mine took the “special chemo” that was on offer for her died before Christmas.
For some strange reason we all accept that as ok?
They tried everything.

NO THEY DIDNT.
They only tried drugs.
Wake up world.

Sabrina then applied to go to the Gerson Institute in Hungary.
They asked for her records and more tests which meant another visit to the Oncologist.
Fear and body pain, as always was the result of that visit.
Sabrina saying she was trying to heal, him saying no you wont and cant.
Quite the mentally, crazy, ridiculous, bonkers, cruel, you get the picture system.

Gerson got the physical tests then asked for the psychiatric ones.
This is what she wrote in the email.
This was all brought on by the "strong" chemo.

Sabrinas email to Gerson

In the first attachment you can see that I was admitted the hospital because of catatonic stupor and psychosis.  I was admitted to hospital on the 25th January 2014 with auditory hallucinations and paranoid ideations as can be seen in the second and third attachment.  The diagnosis on the case summary in attachment 3 shows that i had Query Encephalitis.  Such psychological problems continued until 31st March 2014 although I still attended work. 

Then after this episode I suffered from a severe depression.  I did not want to wake up and spent full days crying.  I was on different meds.  My first psychiatrist told me i would never get off psychosis meds and i changed him and the new one gave me the right meds to help me and I became better immediately  since 24th February 2015.  I was weened of psychosis meds and gave me new pills which worked immediately.  In attachment 4, 5, 6, 7, 8,9 you can see the changes in my medications. I continued on medications listed in attachment 9 + half sedoxil in the morning and another half in the evening until September 2016 when i started juicing, meditation and I had support to start reducing them.  I had no side effects whatsoever since i stopped them completely. 

She came off all the meds they told her she could never come off.
That she would have to stay on them for life?!

After receiving the medical version of the above they refused her on their detox course.


She was devastated. She had put all her hopes on getting there and meeting others and being with people who know about healing and believe in it.

Now there is a very good reason they refused.
Nothing to do with the stage 4 cancer, all to do with the treatments and drugs she had been given.
They were concerned that her body could not be thrown into their intensive 2 week detox without compromising her liver and advised her to come for the day, get the training and wean her onto the cleanse slowly.

My Mantra is TRUST.
Trust it is happening exactly the way it is meant to.
We joke and say its just going to make the book more interesting.

My take was always, if they say no then its because you are meant to go somewhere else.
She is a crazy latina fan so Spain and Mexico are the places she is drawn to, cancer aside.

The Oasis of Hope, what an awesome name, is a place most Westerners go with tremendous success.
This takes money, another gripe of mine, she should be able to take the money saved from the chemo and huge surgery and use it to heal naturally.
But its all tied up with Big Pharma.


Its hard to beg for money, or ask, or pray.
My dream is that in the near future there will be a place for all my clients old, new and the rest who will be diagnosed in our current system.
A truly holistic place, in Nature, surrounded by love and hope.
Where people can stay with their families until they “rewire” their belief system and subconscious minds.
A place where we can live and die the way we choose without the oppression of the system.
Humans are going to die.
Sabrina has faced death for 3 years, she has done an incredible job, made transformational changes in her life since the day she came to me and said life was not worth living if you could not have a ftira lol.

She says the last few months have been the best of her life.
To die drinking juice, laughing, dancing and visiting your friends in different countries is not ok but to die in a hospital hooked to a drip with poison dripping in, or radiation burning your precious body is normal.

EH?

We are researching all real options for her. Hippocrates is where I would love her to go but it is hugely expensive plus the travel, Oasis of Hope is run like Gerson, a charity but it is in Mexico and a few visits maybe required.

Donal Trump wants to build a wall to keep Mexico separate.
I find it quite ironic that most lateral thinking diseased Westerners are going there to experience the most powerful healers on the Planet.
I hope they will never keep us out.

If you can donate even 10euros it will help us on the journey.
But even more important is your support and messages to her that keep her spirits up, please know that each one of you who has taken the time to message, your words mean more than you can know.
Here is the link, appreciation and gratitude in abundance.

www.gofundme.com/help-healing-sabrina

You need the treatment you believe you need.
Most people I work with are more afraid of the treatments than death.
Is that our intuition?

You can die, it going to happen, in fear or love.
What would you choose?

Here is to our right to choose, and our right to believe.
Thank you for reading.
​Happy, abundance, joyful new year to you all.

Healing by thought alone evidence.

When you tell people you are going to drink turps they immediately go into fear and warn you off.
Always without any education or research on it, which always amuses me.
So I do it on purpose  now, just to get the reaction.

But seriously the healing potential of the pine tree oil is quite incredible.
Plus it's ancient, people have been using turps and kerosene for centuries to heal all sorts.
Yes if taken in large doses its poisonous but so is alcohol to name but one of the things we do that can potentially harm us.

The main reason people fear it is because it is not common here. They have not heard about it so they make a knee jerk assumption which may lead to them missing a very simple, fast and cheap cure for a lot of ailments.
Go to this site for more information on the benefits.
www.earthclinic.com/remedies/turpentine-kerosene.html

​If you read my blogs you will know that I suffered from post menopausal arthritis. This time 3 years ago I had very stiff and achey fingers, shoulder and lower back
​Only when I realised that the pain was waking me up at night did I give mycellf the kick up the ass I needed and went on a fast. 10 days, 5 juice, 5 water then strict vegan and juice for 60 days.
​
​This made an enormous difference and at some points over the last 2 years I have been completely free from all aches and pains, but two joint pains in my pinky and my lower back still come and go.

I have also suffered from candida over the years, chronic fatigue and hayfever beautifully accompanied by superbly annoying itchy ears, throat and eyes.
About a year ago I started getting really itchy shoulders just at the front, really weird, no idea why, but again very annoying.
For years I suffered from severe sinus problems, even getting an operation on my nose.
I now understand all of that comes from the gut, and the fungus or leaks that maybe present there.

95% of my clients suffer from candida, it is quite overwhelming and I am constantly looking for the best and fastest way to help them get rid of it.
Candida is a yeast infection and can get horrendously out of hand causing multiple health issues, fogginess, fatigue, panic attacks, skin problems.
See here for mor information.
www.mindbodygreen.com/0-8376/10-signs-you-have-candida-overgrowth-what-to-do-about-it.html
The parasites can be tricky and sometimes its not a simple as a strict elimination diet, it depends on many variables.

So I stumble across Dr Jennifer Daniels.
She is an MD who helps her clients to heal naturally. Big Pharma did not like this and she lives in exile in Panama now to escape the US mentalness as they put her on a terrorist list.
​She explains the benefits here.

Here are a list of things that it can help heal
fibrofriends.typepad.com/fibro_friends/turpentinekerosene-cures/ 

So after researching a load of youtube videos and sites I decided to give it a go.
See if it would help the pain and the creakiness on this old bod.
I took 1tsp on 3 sugar cubes, the idea is the sugar attracts the parasites and the turps kill them. Your diet need to be clean and you need to have 3 bowel movements a day to ensure the dead stuff leaves your body, yes gross I know but the truth.
4 days in a row I did that.
Felt nothing, no die off no detox symptoms, totally fine.
Did not feel any difference in the pain at the time but 2 days later my back was miles better and my pinky pain almost gone.
Hmmmmmm awesome I thought, did some more research and realised I should do it over 6 weeks to clear all the crap out of there.

Meantime one of my friends was doing it too.
She had a very different experience, massive die off, feeling shit, but got a clarity and a high she had not experienced before. She got insights into her healing business and is now feeling happier than she has in a long time. 
She took 2.5 tsps over 4 days.
She will start again next week but is already feeling better every day.

My daugher started it yesterday day with me and we are both on day 2.
She woke up this morning feeling lighter than she has for a while, after only 1 dose?
Neither of us having any die off, another 2 days to go but if its like the last time it will still have an effect for a few days after.

Its not particularly nice to take, but no big drama.
It is super important to have your bowels moving regularly and that you maybe just do 2 days a week to start, so that you can slow the die off down if it occurs.

I have another couple of friends going to try it soon, will keep you posted with all results and stories.

​Here is to your health and happiness.

Diagnosed with ovarian cancer 3 years ago, 2 ops and 2 rounds of chemo later conventional treatment has failed to heal Sabrina.
With another huge operation and a 3rd round of chemo on offer she decided to try another approach, detoxing and healing the body from the inside out.
She started her journey on the 5th September 2016.
At the beginning of November Sabrina decided to get a blood test to see if her cancer markers had gone down.
She is feeling and looking better than she has in years, but wanted "proof" that healing was happening, not just for herself but for her family and friends.
This was only 7 weeks after she started the Gerson therapy, a renowned method of healing with the power of juicing, fruits and veg along with coffee enemas to support the liver and the detox.
I always teach to keep the mind open for the miracle, but also be aware that for most of us  healing usually takes time. 

Tests and the Nocebo effect
Relying on tests to tell you how well you are can have serious, life changing implications.
There is a well documented and scientifically proven phenomena called the nocebo effect. The opposite of the placebo.
If you are told by someone you deem to be more intelligent than you that something is true, you will believe it therefore you will recieve it.
If they tell you that you are going to die, you may take it on and do so.
When the Doctor told my dad he was terminal, he started dying right then.
She told him "if your wife had not made him come for the xray then you would not know, you would be fine. We know that people with a good positive attitude can live for years.

But how do you overide the alleged "facts" after hearing you are terminally ill? Especially at 82 years old.
He asked me what exactly is a good positive attitude?
I thought about it a realised..... it's not believing them......

A test is a snapshot of your energy system in that second in time.
Xrays and scans are photographs of the inside of your energy system in that snapshot of time.
That picture can seal your fate depending on who is "reading" it.

And the truth is we are a mass of vibrating cells, fluctuating and expressing and changing every day.
We put a lot of faith and action in "tests" which is putting the power outside of us.
I question the sanity of this approach constantly.
In a quantum world we find what we go looking for. (but thats a whole other blog)

No longer do we listen to the body. 

We listen to the Doctor but often they do not listen to us.
I am not saying dont have tests, but, be mindful of the reasons you are having them and what you are prepared to participate in when the results come in.
Be educated on the consequences of the results and treatments on offer.
Our current model can only offer you drugs, surgery, chemo and radiation.
If you understand the critical importance of taking control and impacting your destiny of choice, then you must do your own research.

Mexico?
Mexico is the place for cutting edge natural healing treatments
Mexico is a trillion miles ahead of us in natural treatments and Trumpet wants to build a wall to keep them out, it is a funny old world, if it wasnt killing so many of us.

The new way to look at the body and the Universe is based on the scientific fact that we are energy, like everything else.
We can use the power of our minds to heal.
We may even have used it unconsciously to get sick.
Our current system is based on fear.
​Fear kills eventually, so this can hardly be called "health care".
It terrifies the living daylights out of you and of every person who loves you.

It works on the outdated paradigm of cause and effect.
Quantum physics tells us the opposite, we cause the effect.
Completely different.
We are not victims, we are creators
Go here for full scientific explanation by Dr Bruce Lipton
www.youtube.com/watch?v=YackvFSlDQk​.
This has been known in scientific circles and published for over 50 years but we are still functioning and treating from that out of date model, it is total madness.

During a healing crisis blood counts can get worse before they get better.
This is a known phenomena in the Gerson world, NOT in the pharmaceutical world that does not use Natures produce to heal.
Where do you go from here? Who can give you guarantees on what the results mean?
If you go back to the oncologist you can only be offered more chemo, surgery, radiation and drugs, that's all there is there.
And if they have not worked before and put you into an mental asylum, should you go there again?

I was in Scotland when Sabrina called to tell me the results.
The cancer markers had not gone down.
She was furious, dismayed, angry, suspicious and her dad was devastated.
All the hard work had not appeared to pay off, but was that the truth?
I was incredibly disappointed for them, but I knew it was a possibility.
Juice will break the cancer down and it can take months even years to cleanse the body of it.
I felt so sad for her dad who has walked the last 3 years with her and who lost his wife at only 52 through cancer.
I had so wanted the result for him, he so deserves some peace of mind, it's incredibly hard to walk this journey with a child.

Then the pressure started. Go back to the Doctor. Go to the hospital. Go to Germany.

Do something.

I knew I had to wait till the shock wore off a bit, then help Sabrina release her fear and disappointment before making the next step.
I had to consider that she would now decide to take chemo and surgery.
I had to listen to her, help her listen to her intuition and then make HER choices.
This is critically important.
I do not decide what my clients/friends should do.
I help them release the fear so that they can decide.
Every persons journey is unique, so should their treatment plan be.

But let me be totally honest.
I did not want her to have more toxic treatment, I do not believe that would cure her.
I still believe she can do it hercellf, but does she?
She told me while living up with me in Wardija that she would rather die swimming, drinking juice and dancing than hooked up to more chemo in her veins.
But would she be able to stand by her dream?

She found the fear from others and the pressure to act now unbearable.
I told her to jump on a plane to Scotland and we could discuss a plan.
Emotions were running high all around and it was best to give it time and distance.

Bottom line... did this result mean the cancer was breaking up or spreading?

And who would be able to tell and give guarantees?

If chemo and surgery were not going to featuring in the rest of Sabrinas life, then what should she do next?

Where do you go, what do you do, who do you trust to feel safe?

I am honoured that she still trusts me 100% to guide and mentor her.

She came to Scotland and we chilled, chatted and looked at the options.
I had sent her info on the Ketogenic diet incase she felt drawn to that, another way of eating that is proving powerful in starving cancer.

Before she arrived I had a feeling she should stay on Gerson.
She was looking and feeling awesome and if she had not had the test she would still be on her healing path.

She is feeling better than she has in 10 years, but can you argue with a test?

When she arrived she felt the same, let's stick to what is working and make sure every other angle is covered.​

So I created a plan, one that I would use for me or my kids.

Healing Plan – Sabrina Carabott

After some research and conversation with Gerson specialists it happens that cancer markers often rise dramatically during detox as the cancer breaks up and the body attempts to eliminate it.

The main concern was that Gerson was not working and that fear came in again as to what was the best way forward.

Options


Allopathic
3rd lot of chemo and major surgery


Sabrina is convinced that treatment would kill her and she does not want to go back down the road that has failed her twice already.
The suffering the treatment has and will cause is guaranteed but a fulfilled and adventurous life is not.

Germany
The institute in Germany is an option, Lilia has made enquiries via a German friend whose wife has cancer and has researched it and he said it had some mediocre reviews.
At this stage Sabrina feels that her healing is going to take much longer than a month and that she can do all the things she needs to do herself as she feels physically well.


I have worked with the leading natural healers in the World during my time presenting a conference called The Truth Matters.
If going to a Healing centre is something Sabrina would like to do, here are the ones I would recommend.
They have healed hundereds of thousands of people over the last 100 years naturally.


Dr Brian Clements at the Hippocrates institute in San Diego.
He is one of the most impressive human being I have ever met, he has seen every disease that has a name healed.


http://hippocratesinst.org/


Dr Nicholas Gonzales another genius who sadly died last year, one of the 56 natural doctors to die mysteriously in the States. His wife started and continues his work.
He had helped thousands heal, all documented and learned from his mentor who had been doing this work since early last century.



http://www.dr-gonzalez.com


The Gerson Institute in Mexico – This is the protocal I was taught during my clinical diploma in nutritional healing, tried and tested and has healed documented over 10 000 people.
Plus hundeds of thousands who do it at home, there results go undocumented.


https://gerson.org/gerpress/gerson-clinic-mexico/


If Sabrina felt she needed more support and knowledge, these are the places I would recommend, but ofcourse she would research herself and she may find somewhere she would prefer.
We would crowdfund and get the money in a week as we all know the huge support there is for her.

Oasis of Hope, this is where Sophie Sabbage went and has had incredible results.

www.oasisofhope.com/


Healing at home


For now we have discussed an action plan for the next few months, this is what she wants and I feel comfortable with this for now.


Nutrition
The Gerson Therapy


Emotional and Spiritual
Dr Joe Dispenza, neuroscientist and chiropracter
Dr Joe helps his patients to heal by thought alone.
This is the latest cutting edge healing by using the power of the mind, the coherence of the heart and brain along with changing genetic expression and the electromagnetic field to change the structure of the DNA and the information the body receives.
He is duplicating spontaneous healings every single advanced workshop.
This is the future of healing but there is a skill here that has to be learned and a belief system that has to be opened.


I am currently studying with Dr Joe and have just returned from London where he was demonstrating how they measure the brain frequencies and the heart coherence along with the genetic expression which allows healing to occur.
This is the most exciting work I have ever come across.
People are healing by thought alone and he teaches the techniques which are a combination of letting go and rewiring the brain via meditation, intention, laser focus and coherence.

Sabrina now has all his meditations and tutuorials and this will also be part of her daily healing ritual.


Please see here for his testimonials and further understanding of how this works.


Testimonials
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiKxic9WFxw&list=PLD4EAA8F8C9148A1B


Power of meditation in healing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8FdOjmKU4HQ&list=PLsvol1FQiKWqI-RG4LBVVsyAvH1Z2dx1R


Physical
For her physical healing she will be dancing of course, yoga, qi gong, swimming, hiking and hanging out in nature.


Research and learning
It is ESSENTIAL to educate and inform yourself.
It is your life, your body, your destiny and it is your choice how you do it.
To fully believe without doubt, to know that you can heal means you need to research who has been doing it and how they have gone about it.
You need to create a new belief and you do it with education, repetition and research.
Follow those who have gone before, hundreds of thousands now and rising every day as we move into our own power and heal our own bodies.
Often without the help of big Pharma.
You tube is the place to be.


Radical Remissions Course
Sabrina will be following the course with Dr Kelly Turner PhD.
Dr Kelly reseached and continues to research people who have healed and defied the odds, often just days from apparent death.
She came up with the top 9 things that they all did and she has created a course round them.
Sabrina will complete this course over the next few months.
Here are the steps, super important to know so that you can support her fully with it.

1. Take control of your own health
2. Listen to your intuition
3. Drastically change your diet
4. Supplementation
5. Let go
6. Focus on the positive
7. Strong social support network (this is where we all come in)
8. Deepen your spiritual connection
9. Having a strong reason to live

The Truth about Cancer
A phenomenal series with education on every way to heal naturally.
Ty Bollinger watched his dad suffer and die through traditional treatments and he has made it his lifes mission to educate the masses on alternative ways to heal.
This course alone will help her enormously.

Chris Wark
Chris beat cancer another invaluable source of information and transformations.

www.chrisbeatcancer.com/

Dr Jennifer Daniels
I have written to Dr Jennifer to get her direction and experience on candida, a problem that Sabrina and most of my clients have.
Candida has been strongly linked to cancer and could be the reason this whole problem started.
We are looking at setting up a consultation with her, Sabrina has been researching her too, she is a medical doctor who no longer prescribes pharmaceutical drugs and uses natural products one of them turpentine to help her clients heal.

Overview

The immune system breaks down on 3 levels.

• Physical
• Emotional
• Spiritual

For complete healing to occur we need to address all levels.
In Dr Kelly Turners book Radical Remissions the average time for healing was 18 months, some took a shorter time some took longer.
I wondered about doing the test so early, but Sabrina was adamant, and now we are here.
What does that marker truly mean?
Does anyone really know?
The Allopathic Doctor would take it as a sign the cancer has spread.
A natural healer would take it as an indication the cancer is breaking up and the body is processing it.
Sabrina would really like to know the truth and we are investigating ways to find out.
Talking to the Gerson forum, contacting a Gerson expert and taking it from there.
To get to the bottom of what the test really means we need someone with an overall understanding of detoxing too.
Even with chemo this marker can go up before it comes down, short term.


From my perspective and from the neoroscience data the most important thing is for Sabrina to be happy.
To stay out of fight or flight and fear.
As this causes a chemical change in her blood and shuts down the immune system.
For true healing to occur in the shortest time possible it is ESSENTIAL for her to feel loved, supported, happy and trusted.
This is one of the steps in Kellys book.
Strong social support network.
We need to love her, support her and trust her.
This will help her heart coherence, her genetic expression and her chemical balance.
This step is possibly the most important.
People die without support, I see it often.


My job is simply to help her be free from fear and stay in the healing state.
To help her deepen her spiritual connection and trust her intuition and belief that she can indeed heal.


I believe she can.
I know many people who have and I have researched avidly for the last 24 years since my best friends daughter was diagnosed with leukaemia at 16.
I watched her walk a path that was fraught with fear and devoid of hope.
Incurable they said, I knew that was not true but I also thought that Doctors new best.
I now believe otherwise.
People are healing naturally from all cancers.
They are doing it in a variety of ways that vary quite dramatically.

What we do know about people who healed is that they had the balls to try.
The balls to believe.
The balls to go where most do not go because they had nothing to lose.

There should be no divide between Doctors and Healers but there is.
This MUST change and it is changing as people begin to wake up to their intuition and power.

We all want guarantees, we all want to feel secure and we all want approval from others.

But that is not how healing happens.

There are no guarantees, no one can give us that.
Security is illusional and anything can change at anytime.
The only approval you need is from yourcellf, own your power.

Everyone that Dr Joe and Dr Kelly Turner investigated had one thing in common.

They believed in something bigger than themcellves.

They believed in a higher power and intelligence.

They listened to their intuition no matter what the "experts" had to say.

They owned their power, they took control, they let go.

Trust and surrender.

Are we so busy looking in a lab for the answers and they are right here within each one of us?
​
I believe so.

Sabrina has a plan, and suffering is not in it.
Lets love and support her chosen journey....

How can he stand up there so sure, so inspiring, so passionate about transformation?
He said, "I am only interested in Transformation and people who are interested in Transformation."

He is like no other human being you have ever met.

He knows.

And how does he know?

Coz he measures it, thats how.

He measures the energy in the room, the energy around your body, your genetic expression, your energy centres and soon he will be measuring your telemeres.

No new age hippy shit here, infact he kinda laughs at it.
All the things new agers believe they have to do to be enlightened and perhaps superior.
He has discovered a way to circumvent all of that.

He is a scientist and he has been looking for answers.
And what has he found?

That you can heal by thought alone

By meditating and LETTING GO.
By changing.
The C word.
Change.
By breaking the habit of being yourcellf.
Are you willing to change?
Would you set aside an hour to transform your health, wealth and or happiness?

The first time I watched Joe i heard him talk about when getting the brain in the correct state to wash the past out the body, I was hooked.
Carting the past around depresses the immune system and can eventually kill us.
We need to let it go.
Then we need to decide with crystal clear intention where we want to go.
This is a thought process.

Healing by thought alone

What an incredible discovery.
That's the only thing that is of any interest to me now.
Healing without Big Pharma, torture and fear?
Healing without changing your job, your partner, your diet, your life?
Healing by meditation and letting go and having hard repeated evidence to prove it.

This is a game changing paradigm.
When the collective opens their minds to this phenomena then life as we know it is over.
Fear disappears.
Imagine a world without FEAR?
The ascension is well and truly on and this man is one of the leaders.
I LOVE him.

In my line of work I am hugely aware of our human need for approval
Wanting to be liked, not wanting to hurt peoples feelings.
Doing things that we do not really want to do.
Not doing things we really want to do.
Keeping quiet because we don't want any confrontation.
Losing our temper because we feel bullied and cornered, then feeling guilty and cave in  anyway.
Giving our power away because we believe others know better than we do.
Not following our instincts because of fear and low cellf esteem and worth.
Feeling unworthy and having no trust in our intuition, cellf and the Universal Divine Energy.

I have observed this over my life.
How others want to put their often heavy points of view over to you.
I know I have done it to others and feel embarrassed by that now.
When we disagree with someones life choices we are saying we know better, and often we don't.
Crazy things happens for reasons far beyond our understanding and fear levels, never give your opinion unless someone asks you.

We have no idea how damaging our limited view points maybe.
Strong, dominant, forceful characters can make you believe things that are not true.....for you.

Often we do not follow our dreams because we have so little faith in ourcellves.
Others help to keep us down with their titles, age, experience and programming.
Others opinions are just that, opinions based on their education and perceptions.
And that is all life is, a bunch of beliefs, perceptions, concepts and labels that will only ever keep you stuck.

People my age still held back by things teachers, parents, doctors, emp etc have said sometimes a hundred years ago, but it's still there in their subconscious vibrating away like an old friend!
Our body also our subconscious mind records everything we have ever experienced.
Most of that is completely out of date,, but the emotional attachment is still resonating in our energy field.

We are living in the past.

Everything we look at is filtered through our past, and everything everyone else sees is filtered through their past.

The thing is OUR OWN body knows everything.
We are made of Divine intelligent energy, and we have forgotten this.
So why is this important?
When we stray away from the truth, when we do not listen to our body it suffers, then we suffer.
If this situation continues for long enough our immune system gets too weak to keep us well.

Our current outdated medical model pays zero attention to the innate intelligence inside each of us.
Pays zero attention to the impact our thoughts and feelings have on our chemistry, physiology, biology, emotional and energy body.
Pays zero attention to epigenetics. Ie we can change and manipulate genetic expression when we change our internal and external enviroments.
Hear Dr Bruce Lipton PhD explain it here.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjjvimJRevQ

Our current model says that someone outside of you heals you.
When you understand the quantum field and our place in it you understand that NOTHING could be further from the truth.
Hear Dr Joe Dispenza explain this here
www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZi9kBxsDzI&list=PLI6qaT2i92gMHyWzFxvdhhlDA59OkRHGZ

We are all knowing, intelligent Divine beings.
Multi dimensional beings in a multi dimensional Universe.
As Dr Joe Dispenza says (and I only use his Doctor title because some people only believe doctors) the biggest lie we have ever been fed is that we are solid beings in linear time.
Quite a big leap in understanding if you are not obsessed about this stuff like I am.
If healing by thought alone is a thing, then that is the only thing I am interested in.
How can I take my clients there.
Dr Joe Dispenza has helped thousands of people heal.
But you have to believe its a possibility before you would even try.

Then you have to convince all the people around you with their powerful points of view that you want to give it a go.

This happens in all areas of our lives, take relationships and career choices for example, everyone and their granny has an opinion on that.
Whether someone is judging your boyfriend or girlfriend and telling you to change them, whether they are judging your job or your friends, or even judging you on the food you eat, judging is judging and that creates big problems in the quantum field.
Not just for the person or thing you are judging but for you too if you do not own your power.
Your vibration is one of lack and "somethings wrong".
Your attention and intention are contracting and on what you do not want.

What do we know about designing what we want?
1. Clear intention
2. Elevated emotion

Judging is intention on what you dont want.
And what emotion are you sending out when you judge yourcellf or others?

Own your power, or someone else will

Fence sitting will get you nowhere in the Field.
You have to be crystal clear on what you are focusing on and ordering.

If you are faced with choices over your health this can be even more traumatic.
I have clients who have taken chemo "for their families".
I have clients who will not follow certain protocols because members of their families would not approve.
I fully understand this, but is it right?
Do we have the right to put our fear first and push our views forcefully on others?
​What if we are wrong?
What if the pharmaceutical model is all wrong and functioning from a Newtonian view that most of us now know is false?

What if chemo is right for them?
What if chemo is wrong for them?
What if a combination is best?
What if they are tapping into their intuition and taking a road less travelled because that is their soul journey?

What if I help someone and then they die?
What if I help someone and they live?
What if, what if, what if?

What if you can heal by thought alone and you know longer have any need for Big Pharma in any shape or form......... once you believe?
Can you even begin to open your mind to that possiblity?
Imagine that we all have the power to be our own placebo and heal.
Imagine we have been lied to about our ability to heal ourcellves from cancer and all other so called incurable disease.
Imagine that you can meditate daily and map out a new future where the body follows the brain exactly the same way as we learn every other thing we have ever learned by deciding to do it, then repeating it over and over until the body got it and could do it without thinking.
Imagine that we can heal by thought alone.

ITS HAPPENING

Here are a 100 of the thousands of people who have healed by thought alone.

Fear- there are never any guarantees

Have some people died trying this?
Yes.
Have some people died in the system following advice from the medical experts?
Yes.
Culturally this seems acceptable, no idea why that would be.
Getting cut, burned and poisoned is acceptable and dying that way is too?
Go figure.
There is a belief that they did everything they could.
But really?
Did they?
They handed their power over to someone or something outside of them.
Is this really the smartest idea?
​Fear kills the body.
My mission is to keep you out of fear, plain and simple.
Ignoring your inner voice, believing you are powerless destroys your immune system.
People are going to die whatever they choose, it may even have been pre agreed, I don't know and I don't get to decide.

I am not God and I don't get to decide, would be super cool if I could.
I have no idea what will happen, and neither does any Doctor or Specialist.
We can make educated guesses, nobody likes that word but its the case.
People defy the odds and are doing it in their thousands, especially now that they know others are doing it.
They now have the guts to try despite what they are told by the experts, because of the internet and other brave souls who dare to go where many would never.
We would NEVER know others were healing naturally if the internet did not exist.
We would be held prisoners in this outdated version of health.
People die unexpectedly despite great odds.
We have no guarantees.
One of my oldest friends had a massive stroke last monday and is now hanging on tohis life, he is 57.
This is the uncertainty of life.

My job is to help my clients with their fear.
To help them tap into their intelligence and decide what is right for them, despite what others say.
That is my absolute obsession.
That you live without fear.
For however much longer that maybe.
Whether you combine the old and the new, whether you choose one over the other, your body knows best when you are free from fear.
That's all I am interested in.
Not what you choose,
But that YOU choose.

Families and friends often want me to help them get their point of view across.
I honestly get this, understand and respect it.
I will help my clients look at ALL the options and take the one that feels best to the at this time.

I would not and could not take the responsibility of making or coercing a choice, that would be playing God and that would be my ego..

I am not medically trained and never will be. The demise of our health and power has been caused by the pharmaceutical lie.
Finding symptoms and matching them with a pill, potion or operation is not what I find intriguing.

Mother Nature, Divine energy and you. That's where my faith goes.
You may or may not use some drugs to assist the body, that is your choice, no one elses.
Take control, one of the nine steps in Radical Remissions.
People who defied the odds, were sent home to die but didnt.
You need to feel in control and listened to, this is part of your healing every bit as much as the "treatment".

Free from Fear.
Free from the fear of others.

Start taking snapshot photos of the inside of your body then brace yourcellf.
There are many perceptions of what may or may not be happening.

What about trust?  What about faith? We now have evidence of how our brains and bodies change when we tap into the Divine.
I know who I trust.

My only intention for you is that you are not scared.
That you have faith, whatever that means for you.
Secure in the unknown.
Safe without guarantees.
Joyful for today, as that is all we ever have.
Free from guilt and pressure from others points of views, not matter how well meaning.
Look at death straight in the eye and release all fear of it, its just a change of address.
Ironically this is often when healing happens, we let go of our fear of death and we heal.
​Incredible.

None of us know what soul journey another is taking.
Why would you want to influence that because of your programming, conditioning and beliefs.
Be mindful of your words to others.
Be mindful of your words to your cells.
We are interconnected and eternal so its time to truly let go of all fear.

If you want to be fear free.
If you want to feel more love and joy in your life.
If you want clarity on what is right for you.
If you are a spiritual warrior on this incredibly exciting journey.
If you want joyful, loving relationships.
If you want to have a dam good attempt at healing.
If you want to OWN YOUR POWER.
PM me for a free consultation.

Noone knows better than yourcellf.

You know how obsessed I am with finding ways to heal in the fastest way possible, well as I was doing even more research on candida and its links to cancer I discovered this amazing Doctor Jennifer Daniels.
She is on a terrorist list for not giving out pharmaceutical drugs and for treating her patients naturally and she is now and exile in Panama working online.

This is a true story.
Americans are mental.
Donald Trump is President.

I digress. Her story fascinated me and as I watched all her videos I was inspired to try turpentine on mycellf.
Everything I advise my clients to do I try on mycellf first.
I believe we can heal without pharmaceutical drugs.
I believe the body and the Universe is far more intelligent than man, and when we trust we can harness the power of Nature and heal.
Our biggest problem is we do not trust.
We give all our power away to the "medics" ignoring our intuition and soul.

So this oil comes from pine trees, I like the sound of that.
It has been around for centuries helping people to heal.
Here you can read about all the things it can treat, for me its about arthritis and candida.
www.earthclinic.com/remedies/turpentine-kerosene.html
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Its seems logical. You drip a tiny amount of pure, gum turps which is actually pine tree oil, on 3 sugar cubes.
When you eat it the sugar that candida feeds on acts like bait and draws out the parasites, then the  turps kills them and within 4 days your protocol is done.
Arthritis, digestive issues, auto immune problems can just disappear.
I am intrigued.

OK let me try it.
Got myself psyched up then could not get sugar cubes.
Plus what if there is a die off and I feel like shite when I am being a gran and hairdresser?

Plus you have to be on a clean diet with regular bowel movements so that you know the die off will come out and not cause more problems on the inside.
You may experience a brutal die off so best to be fully prepared.

So tonight I have my sugar cubes and will start the process.
This could be a miracle for those of us with autoimmune problems.
According to Doc Jen our main health issues are parasites and bacteria.
On the islands they regularly cleanse with herbs every month to keep the digestive tract healthy.
Makes sense to me.
MS, Lupus, arthritis, candida and much more could be massively improved with this.
Do your own research, dare to dream and hope you can heal, then do it.
Watch for my next blog sharing my experience.

I have been uber inspired by this man.
Never been this inspired, it feels incredible.

When I heard him say that the cells rearrange themcellves and the past can wash out the body I was spellbound.

The secret to healing is washing the past out the body.
The immune system gets done in by the outdated energy we cart around from the past.
I have been searching for this for over 30 years.

I knew conceptually that it was possible, I have seen and had my own miracles with letting go so I knew it was possible.

I also know that linear time is a concept of the conscious mind and therefore you can circumvent it.

So there is no time, just energy in the now, and when you make a powerful decision to redesign or let go the body will transform in that moment.

What I did not know was the someone was doing it repeatedly, every single workshop and for all the analytically hungry minds, he has the data!

He measures everything.
Teaches you in black and white, no jargon, scientific facts.
Scientifically, no new age words, educating and demonstrating the energetic nature of our bodies and the Universe.
Our bodies are not what we think we see, we are an extended electromagnetic field.
We are on the precipice of an entirely new way to see reality, and its beyond better and way more exciting.

Our internal and external enviroments keep us stuck.
When we overcome time, our enviroment, our bodies, our things our place, we move into a different dimension of possibility.

When we entrain our brains to certain frequencies we can literally tune in to other dimensions of information.
When we put out a clear electric signal via our thoughts it goes into the quantum field.
Add in a strong emotion that tells the body it has already happened and you are onto the thing, its coming, its on its way.
When we raise our vibration into love, gratitude, faith etc when we  allow the flow of Divine energy we literally wash the old information out of the cells.
This is when we heal.
This is critical information for those who have been abused.

The higher lighter/divine frequencies heal the body and it can happen instantly.
Sometimes you have to keep repeating, practising and learning how to tune in, but some people manage it spontaneously.
Unfortunately I am not one of them, so continuing to practise I am.

When our dominant thinking and feeling is on what we want we will draw that to us, this has been known for centuries but due to our fear based living now, this is out of reach for most Westerners.

When we live in fear our hormones change and we can only think of the worst case scenario, that's the point, find the worst case scenario and escape from it, from death!
Except nowadays its all imaginary fear.
BS (belief systems) of fear created by others who want to keep control.

Break free from the past, from your subconscious limiting beliefs, negative patterns and feelings.
Rewire and fire you brain to give the body the information it needs to heal, find love, connection and abundance.

We are all powerful beings living in a quantum field of potential.
Come Retreat with me and learn how to let go and steer in the right direction.

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​Rewire you mind Malta October 28-31st 2016
Immersion Ireland 5-12November 2016

And do yourcells the biggest favour EVER and go hangout with Joe!
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