Up a long and winding glen, in the wilds of Argyll, where few people ever venture, an experiment is taking place. It’s a human experiment – a band of courageous beings have come together on a biodynamic farm for 12 weeks to see if it is possible to heal themselves (spoiler alert – it is possible!). With just the help of one truly phenomenal woman who has a vision for a healed Scotland (and beyond) – Lilia Letigo Sinclair and a beautiful couple – Helen and Stewart Wright - who have created and hold the a truly magical space for our healing to take place.
We’re almost 8 weeks in and it’s been an interesting journey so far. For me it’s been a bit like a cross between Groundhog Day and Big Brother. Each day there are new insights into how we can become better, healthier and happier human beings. We have cameras (look out for the documentary), we are living together in confined spaces, cut off for the most part from goings on in the outside world. We are learning how it is possible to heal ourselves from a number of different illnesses and diseases. We’ve discovered the magic of letting go, though some of us are still holding on. We’ve endured cold water immersion, some of us daily, some of us less so. We’ve seen improvements in each other and ourselves. We’ve been told that unless we feel in a headspace where we can make love to the soil, we shouldn’t be working on the land. We’ve let go of our need for technology, some more than others. We’re seeing the power of gratitude, of being thankful for this truly amazing opportunity. We’re raising our frequency to a higher level and moving into a space of acceptance and peace. We’re humming our way to a higher vibration, singing from our souls and evolving away from a world that no longer serves us to a world of possibilities and magic. We’re rediscovering so many things that we’d forgotten, reconnecting with what’s important, disconnecting from what we used to think was important and realizing that we are woven right through the fabric of the universe just as it is woven through us.
It’s a slow, gradual process. The days pass slowly yet the weeks are whizzing by. I often wonder where I will go, what I will do, who will I become when my time here is done but for now I’m living in the moment, enjoying the sunshine, fresh air and biodynamic veggies. I’m also loving learning more about myself and my place in this world, how my thoughts impact every aspect of my being, how other people and their shit are the best teachers in recognizing what I need to heal, showing me what I need to look at inside myself. Healing is not an easy process, nor is it linear, it can be messy and is often uncomfortable, sometimes very uncomfortable. Be prepared to have tears and snot running down your face or find yourself yelling at someone out of nowhere. Then when you think you’ve made headway and you’re feeling better - wham, something else pops up which sends you staggering 10 feet backwards - but there is a wisdom in the backwards steps that we would never discover if we didn’t experience the pain.
There is magic in healing and discovering the inner world of ourselves that we’ve ignored, suppressed and been fearful of for so long. It is hard looking at parts of ourselves that are difficult to look at, having conversations we don’t want to have, being truthful when it would be easier to lie, but once you let go and get a taste of the bliss on the other side of the pain, you wonder why you didn’t just let go years ago. It also gets easier to work through your shit when it comes up next time round, and it will keep coming up, we can’t escape it, it’s part of the deal of being human, but our experience here in the wilds of Scotland is putting us in a good position to deal better with it when it does happens!
I think we are underestimating the power of what we are doing here, it’s a gradual process and often I don’t recognize that I have changed until I’m in a similar situation where previously I would have reacted from a place of anger or fear and now, automatically, I’m reacting from a place of love or acceptance. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t come from this space every time, but I’m getting better at not getting upset or angry with other people’s actions and becoming much more aware of the impact that my words, actions, moods and emotions may have on both myself and others.
I feel truly blessed to be part of this ‘experiment’, to be spending time with amazing people in a beautiful location and very excited to see where this vision takes us once the 12 weeks are over.