DAY 18 AND THE LIGHT COMES ON

Driving from Glasgow back to Argyll yesterday and I realised I was feeling better, much better.

My energy was good, I had no desire to sleep, the ache and stuffiness from my sinuses is marginal now.

I felt my mood lift, thank god for that. It has only been 3 weeks since I got super serious about this, but I wanted to get some good old satisfaction. 

I had a Vibrogym workout on wednesday and did some yoga yesterday, that felt good too, actually wanted to do it instead of forcing myself through the paces. This is progress indeed.

My thinking had been a bit unhelpful and indecisive which is unlike me. I normally vaguely know what I am doing in terms of months but for now I feel I can make no plans I just need to wait and see what happens. After dad getting sick 2 years ago I like to stay flexible to be around my family if need be and this has been a time for that too. 

Then the mind wants to kick in and get some form of security. People ask in genuine kindness and concern when I am going, what am I doing and I cannot really say for sure about anything......is that a good or a bad thing? 
Neither, but it's funny how the mind wants some security, control and approval.

Well it's not getting it for now. Staying open, doing what needs to be done, healing and spending time with my family and friends.

I went for an aromatherapy massage today. Wow. What bliss. I was away in another place, cool colours, saw some people I didn't know, it was awesome. She did some acupressure round my sacrum and my back feels brilliant now, the best if has for at least a year.
I think we vastly under rate the value of massage in our culture, it terms of healing. It really assists the body to get the job done plus it feels downright amazing. I love smells too so aromatherapy is the biz for me!

I AM Healing, I actually am healing.

Loving the healing, wooohooooo this new energy will keep me on track.