So the end is in sight. Today and tomorrow, so you can say one more day, as you dont count this day and it makes it sound like you are closer than you really are. Haha the mind again, wanting to control and change what is.

I was thinking last night about why I started this and it was for fatigue and aches in the body that I figured would get called arthritis by a doctor. It is rife in my family, so would not be unexpected.
But I know you can overide the genes and I know you can change anything in the body when you decide, and release.

So how is it now. It is funny how your forget. My back is a million times better, it no longer wakes me up through the night and I am pain free most of the time. But I am still getting that creak going from sitting to standing, that has to go to.

My shoulder and elbow are much better but there is still a tiny noise from them now and again, so that has to go too. Plus the hand that I stabbed is healing now but the finger above is stiff with less mobility before so I am aware of that.

My energy levels are way better and my self belief and inspiration are high, so that is fantastic too.
I can still fall asleep at the drop of a hat, and going to bed early to catch the healing hormones between 10-2am so its all good there. The body heals when we sleep. The quality and quantity of our sleep is critical to healing.

Another interesting thing has come up though as I think I may still have slight candida.
So the food changes have to continue. As from thursday I am going paleo. I will cut out all sugars 100%.
Candida is a fungus in the gut that gets fed by yeast and sugar.
Here are the symptoms
Here are 10 common candida symptoms

1. Skin and nail fungal infections (such as athlete’s foot or toenail fungus) 
   
2. Feeling tired and worn down or suffering from chronic fatigue or fibromyalgia
   
3. Digestive issues such as bloating, constipation, or diarrhea
   
4. Autoimmune disease such as Hashimoto’s thyroiditis, Rheumatoid arthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Lupus, Psoriasis, Scleroderma or Multiple sclerosis
   
5. Difficulty concentrating, poor memory, lack of focus, ADD, ADHD and brain fog
   
6. Skin issues such as eczema, psoriasis, hives, and rashes
   
7. Irritability, mood swings, anxiety, or depression
   
8. Vaginal infections , urinary tract infections, rectal itching or vaginal itching
   
9. Severe seasonal allergies or itchy ears
   
10. Strong sugar and refined carbohydrate cravings

So although lent is over, I will make sure my gut is completely healed but following the paleo plan without sugar for the next 6 weeks along with using oregano oil, reflexology and aromatherapy from my private therapist Mairi McEwan, probiotics and omega 3, FIR sauna and daily yoga and or workouts and of course tapping, emotion codes, affirmations and The Amazing Sedona Method.

6 weeks can seem like a long time to make changes and there have been cravings, but not that bad. Makes me realise how far I have come with all of this, and how living in Malta has really helped me let go a lot of my bad habits.

I am a big believer in the 80/20 rule and not taking all of this too seriously, but on occasion and usually as you get older you have to.
I am in charge of my health and happiness, it is up to me to heal this body I am living in, no one else.
I change its chemistry, electrical charge and magnetic field by what I eat, believe, think, feel and do.
Me, all by mycellf.

I am healing. I am free from all aches and pains. I am open to the energy and vitality I had at 20.

Here is to your health and happiness.

First day fully raw and of course it was bloody freezing. In our wisdom we turned down the heating thinking Spring had arrived, just as the temperature plummeted and the day of going on cold food was very cold.

I like hot food, always at night even in Malta have something warm and today was a day for soup. Must be some comfort thing, often when I just have a salad I still want something warm in it.
However I did a lot of prep and today was easy. Morning juice followed by a big green salad and delicious spicy dressing. Lunch I had avocado, macademia nuts and cashew cream along with some more grated veggies and dressings.
Dinner was a large salad and I some raw homemade hummous with lemon, garlic, basil, parsley and olive oil, totally delicious and filling.
It takes ages to eat raw food as you have to chew well and the flavours are fantastic because everything is fresh and alive.
I used to go to a raw cafe in Sedona and they gave you a big plate with tons of stuff that was not possible to finish in one sitting. They always gave me a box to take it away so it actually did me for 2 meals.
I have always wanted to replicate what they did here, but its taken me till now to get my ass in gear.

Yesterday hit the vibrogym then the FIR sauna ahhh totally bliss. Your skin feels awesome, every part of my body is worked and even the 1 minute step ups which were killing me are happening again now.

Its a relief to start feeling fitter. 
It is such a thought to get into it again when you feel tired all the time. So it's all good if I keep up this pace I will be back on full power by the Summer.
Ahhh the beaches, the outdoors, the Mediterranean, the sand, the fun yesssss I look forward to that life once more.

I am healing
I allow mycellf to return to full fitness and power
I am vibrant, healthy and free...

So today I wake up early 5.30am. Felt brilliant.
Having said that I slept on the settee from about 8.30 last night.
So my sinuses have cleared again, headache all but gone and although there is still a twinge in my back and shoulder I am much, much better. Still not 100% ache free but pretty close. Still can fall asleep in a nano second, but generally feeling pretty dam good.
Feel like a hypochondriac always looking for things wrong in the body and then talking about it, especially when I teach dont try and figure it out, move into allowing and acceptance.
Loads of great things have happened, super cool people, synchronicities and opportunities. I have been faithful to my routine and following my own advice to the letter (cool eh:) and I am loving the feeling of the flow.
Despite what the body is doing, even with the sneezing and itching, it is a minor irritant that is not stopping me from being on one.
So my next nutrition move is to cut out the sugars. I knew I had slight candida but I was not following a candida diet as I did not think it was the issue. Now I do. All the symptoms lead to that. I have been eating a lot of fruit, maybe 10 times more than I normally do. Normally I would have eggs, cheese, pulses but they are all high in sulphur so I had cut them out.

Now I am going raw for a week so I will be interested to see how that goes taking fruit out the equation.
I have raw milk on order so will make kefir and paneer and that should help keep me free from starvation :)

When I have felt hungry over the last few weeks I have just eaten fruit.
I have lost weight, my jeans are hanging now, I never had an arse but when I am thin my jeans fall off, I need to get another belt this one does not cut the mustard anymore.
Its nice to see hip bones and some muscle definition again, I have really ignored my body recently, did not give a shit, but have to say I am enjoying feeling that middle age spread feck off.

Interesting old journey this. Raw food workshop tonight got me really inspired, I love raw food, nuts, spices and herbs and looking forward to seeing how I feel at the end of Lent. 
1 week to go, wooohooooo. Then I will still need to do anti candida diet for another month or so. So will still be very restricted.
Here are the things one site recommends, as always there are many varying and conficting views, but I am going with this one.

VEGETABLES
Artichokes
Asparagus
Avocado
Broccoli
Brussels sprouts
Cabbage
Celery
Cucumber
Eggplant
Garlic (raw)
Kale
Olives
Onions
Rutabaga
Spinach
Tomatoes
Zucchini
Eating non-starchy vegetables starves the Candida of the sugar that feeds it. You should buy your vegetables fresh and eat them raw, steamed or grilled.
Avoid starchy vegetables such as sweet potatoes, potatoes, yams, corn, all winter squash, beets, peas, parsnips and beans. Olives are OK as long as they are not in distilled white vinegar.
LIVE YOGURT CULTURES
Probiotic yogurt
Kefir
Live yogurt cultures help your gut to repopulate with good bacteria. The live bacteria in the yogurt will crowd out the Candida yeast and restore balance to your system. This is especially useful after a course of antibiotics.MEAT & EGGS
Beef
Chicken
Lamb
Turkey
Eggs
Eat only fresh and organic meat - processed meat (like lunch meat, bacon and spam) is loaded with dextrose, nitrates, sulfates and sugars.
Smoked or vacuum packed meats are also best avoided.
FISH
Anchovies
Herring
Sardines
Wild salmon
Wild salmon and sardines do contain ocean contaminants, but in much lower amounts than other seafood. Buy these fish fresh or packed in olive oil or water.NUTS AND SEEDSAlmonds
Coconut meat
Flax Seed
Hazelnuts
Pecans
Sunflower Seeds
Walnuts
These nuts are healthy and have a low mold content. If you're still worried about mold, soak them in a diluted grapefruit seed extract solution for a few hours.
For baking, almond flour and coconut flour are healthy options.NON-GLUTINOUS GRAINSBuckwheat
Millet
Oat Bran
Quinoa
These grains contain a high amount of fiber, excellent for keeping your digestive system moving and eliminating Candida toxins. Most products derived from this list are also OK - e.g. quinoa crackers, buckwheat flour. You can find these in the gluten-free section in health food stores.
HERBS AND SPICES
Basil
Black Pepper
Cinnamon
Cloves
Dill
Garlic
Ginger
Oregano
Paprika
Rosemary
Thyme
Turmeric
Many herbs and spices have antioxidant and antifungal properties. They can also improve circulation and reduce inflammation. They're great for livening up food if you're on a limited Candida diet.OILSVirgin Coconut Oil
Olive Oil
Sesame Oil
Flax Oil
Coconut Oil
Red Palm Oil
Use cold pressed oils where possible. Remember that heating or boiling can destroy many of the oil's nutrients.
SEASONING
Black Pepper
Sea Salt
Lemon Juice
Coconut Aminos
Apple Cider Vinegar (Organic, Raw, Unfiltered)Coconut Aminos are a great alternative to soy sauce. And you can use apple cider vinegar to make some delicious salad dressings.BEVERAGESChicory root coffee
Cinnamon Tea
Peppermint Tea
Ginger Tea
Licorice Tea
These are just a few of the herbal teas that have antifungal properties.
Chicory root is also a great prebiotic (it contains 20% Inulin), so it can help to repopulate your gut with healthy bacteria too.
SWEETENERS
Stevia Xylitol 
Stevia and xylitol can be used in place of sugar and they have a much smaller effect on your blood sugar levels.

I am healing, I am in the process of healing, I am letting go of all impatience around my healing, I am totally pain free.

For nearly 5 weeks I have had zero crap apart from a bag of crisps and a few stolen chips.
I have fasted for 10 days and really thought I would be jumping off the roof by now.
Over a week ago I cut my hand and it ended up infected and left me feeling pretty crap.
Then I had itching started in my throat again and my eyes and ears.

Even my scalp seemed to be itchy. Then at the weekend my eyes started to water and I got what appeared to be full blown hay fever. On top of that my gums had swollen up and my mouth felt tight, especially when I was eating an apple.

Wtf? So annoying. Then it dawned on me doh! If I have candida it is fed by sugar along with other things.
I never eat a huge amount of fruit, sometimes I put an apple in my juice along with lemons and limes, and maybe have the odd piece but in general its veggies I eat.
But since I have been doing this healthy eating I have really upped my fruit intake. Bananas, apples, pears, melon, strawberries and hunners of tangerines. What else r u going to eat when you are hungry and avoiding all dairy and wheat?

But this could have put my candida which was slight, out of control?
My sinuses kicked off again, I have a slight headache and just as I am about to go raw for a week.
Clearly on a raw food diet I would be eating fruit, so there is another dilemma?
Is the fruit making me feel worse?
Luckily my friend is coming with her vega machine in a few weeks, but till then I will move to another way of eating to heal candida.
The reason I love that machine is it just cuts right to the chase and tells you what is happening in your body now.
But I think its obvious, the fruit needs to go too. And the carrots, which I live on. Another wee challenge for me, but I am up for it!
Let's see how this goes.
This is what is crazy about nutrition and why we can get very confused.

Had a superb, well rested weekend, well after friday night :)
Down at Balinakill the fresh air, lack of street lighting and the knowing I do not actually need to get up to do anything, always means I wake up feeling like I had a restorative and healing sleep.

Sleep is an integral part of your health. When you sleep it gives the body a chance to rebalance and restore.
Between 10 and 2 am the healing hormones flood in, but you have to be asleep to utilise them, So early to bed, early to rise was good advice indeed.

It's crazy how we have moved away from working with natural daylight. In the East they still work much closer with natural daylight, here we use electricity to artificially light up our lives, and black out curtains to keep the daylight out. A bit stupid when you think about it.
We have street lighting everywhere so unless you live in the countryside your sleep is getting affected by artificial lighting.
We have moved so out of sync with Nature, and have the total cheek and audacity to call ourselves the "developed nations".

This disconnection with Nature is playing havoc with our health. This idea that we can do what we want, believe we are superior to it, disregard and ignore it is killing us and the very enviroment that has the power to keep us well.

We tear up the land, cut down the trees and plants, move outwith the light and sleep whenever we decide.
Add in the un nature like foods, the lack of daylight, insufficient exercise, lack of gratitude and connection to others and the planet, poor quality water and air and the way we compete with each other and you have the recipe for dis ease right there.

Then some of us are still believing a pill can fix that.

It is up to us, up to us to reconnect and release. Up to us to demand quality food from our government. Up to us to take our power back from the pharmaceutical companies and the destructive corporations and save ourselves and the Planet.

As the final week of Lent approaches I am going raw with a few buddies. I am looking forward to it, make me learn more cool, healthy things to eat. When you have nuts, herbs, seeds and spices combined with delicious fruits and veggies you can make some super tasty foods. I am learning loads of new tips everyday and looking forward to making it my way for a full 7 days.

Let me know if you fancy joining in, we can all support and share with each other.

Was up for a few hours friday night with my grandson so when I got up at 7 I was quite hungry.
Usually I would have a coffee then and not eat till 10 or 11 but I had some fruit, nuts and seeds mashed up, it was delicious. Then I made 2 pints of juice to drink throughout the day, I am upping the amount of juice I am having to blast my energy up.

I am feeling inspired and confident about not really knowing what I am going to do next.
I fancy getting a nice place in Gozo and running a really cool health and fitness air bnb.
Or I could go back for a few months then head off round the world, oh the options are open.

But for some reason I was still "looking" for something to eat to satisfy whatever it is I seem to need to satisfy!
It's like that time of the month, maybe my body is still going through that cycle.
Like you do not ever get full no matter what you do. For someone who fasted for 10 days I know that this is all BS, there is some emotional stuff behind it, maybe hormones too but I need to release all of these thoughts, however in that moment it feels real.

Enter Nicky and Steesh with a fish supper that is way to big for Joni. I had a bit of fish and sneaked a few chips too.
Then did the usual thing you do when you eat something unhealthy, especially something that was fried in a chippy, you regret it, thinking about how rancid the frying fat would be, how many time its been reheated and what is it anyway.
I knew they were coming with it so I should have eaten first, then it would have been easier.

Now what is crazy about all of this is the mind. I never once in the last 4 weeks thought about fish and chips.
I have thought about coffee, been around it quite a few times and never succumbed and I wont.
But there I was sneaking a few chips with the bit of delicious white fried fish.
Frying is no big deal if saturated fat is used, but is rarely is. Reheated trans fats are carcinogenic and should be 100% avoided, but I ate them none the less. A cup of organic coffee would have been a much better idea, but in that moment, at that time I wanted the tottie and the grease.

I have always loved potatoes in every shape and form. Even before I became so aware of nutrition I rarely ate sugar, chocolate and sweets, my treat was tatties. Crisp, chips, roasties and mashed or any other way you can get them.
Garlic, cream, onions baked in the oven.
They do not work for blood group O, we do not digest them well, but we were raised on them, like a lot of Brits. 
We had them with every dinner, every night and sometimes twice in potato soup made with a ham hough.....delicious.

So I have some emotional attachments to them. Now its clear I can release it!

Food cravings can be caused my lack of nutrients. That was not what this was about. It was about the treat thing again.
It was the weekend, I was a bit tired (that can make you revert to old patterns) and because alcohol is out too there was some desire to recognise the fact it was the weekend with some treat. But weekends are not actually real either. Again it is just another concept of the modern world. In nature it is just another day. In our modern world it is the time when we do things we dont or cant do through the week. 
More concepts that we live through without really knowing it.

Last night I stayed at Balinakill Country House. 
I always sleep like a baby here. I slept sound all the way through till 8.30, very unusual for me. Woke up with the sun streaming in my face. I like no curtains and waking by natural light, especially with no artificial street lighting around.
I feel alive, excited and very lucky to be here, looking out at Nature, listening to the stream, watching the birds, this is the stuff I need and love now.
Although my friend tries to entice me with wine and lasagne, I stay true to my pledge acknowledging the chips on the way, that I am healing. I feel it today, the process is slower than I had hoped, but its happening and as the energy from the sun hits my lap top I laugh again at my impatience and doubt that perhaps I could make all these changes and nothing was going to change!
Again very good experience for me to help my clients heal. 
Patience and faith.
Trust and surrender.
Whatever you want to call it, its the same deal.
Allow and accept the healing is happening. Release on all doubt, release from others points of view and well meaning advice, stay true, stay focussed, stay in faith.

Happy dayz, here is to your health and happiness.
Here is to me letting go of all my crazy mind talk and idea of "treats".

I am letting go of all limiting beliefs around potatoes.
I allow myself to eat only foods and drinks that act like medicine to my body.
I am healing.
I am vibrant, healthy and focussed.
Even although I believe I need a treat or crap food, I deeply and completely love, trust and accept mycellf.
Gratitude is a high vibration and I am feeling a ton of it sitting here looking out from the majestic, special, beautiful place.

For some reason today I have been wanting to cheat.
I drove from Glasgow this morning and they have a Starbucks beside the petrol station I usually stop at now.
I love their coffee. 
I used to drink it when I lived in Whistler, some of the happiest days of my life so it has a big emotional hook.
I don't often go there as I would prefer to buy coffee from a one man band but on occasion, especially early doors, it helps my run down the road.

I never stopped but when I got home the voice in my head was convincing.
I am doing Lent for health, not to prove something. 1 coffee makes no difference to anything, in the grand scheme of things it will make zero difference.
But I decided to go without, so its a thing now, I said I wont do it so I wont. Or will I?
4 weeks without and it has been fairly easy, why today? Well it's friday, it's the weekend, I am babysitting I deserve a wee treat......aye right, all the bollocks and crazy beliefs that we have that keep us stuck.

What we describe as a wee treat, is usually the complete opposite for the body. But I watched a great video today and the guy was saying it's all about the level of consciousness in your reasoning. The example he gave was the waiter offers you a paired wine to go with your meal and you think, sounds lovely, it will enhance the meal, why not try it and see if you like it. 
That thinking comes from a healthy curiousity and will likely lead you to an interesting fun experience.
Or, you tell the waiter how much you need the glass of wine because you have had such a terrible day you deserve it.

That comes from a place of suppression and avoidance.
So let's take my coffee chat. I deserve it, it's the weekend, it's a wee treat instead of straightforward I love the smell and the taste and it makes me feel good.
I made a delicious fish curry and thought I would love a chapati with this. I feel so much better avoiding bread too but tonight I was defo wanting a coffee or a carb.
Interesting old time this, seeing what comes up, what you "fancy" and all the reasons to break your own code and have it. The rocky road, you have to be totally strict or you, I mean I would go off the rails and not give the body the well deserved rest that it needs.
I make these delicious omega 3 balls made with coconut, seeds, nuts and figs, but Nicky ate the last one.......
Anyway it's all good I just had another plate of the fish curry and now I am happy and nearly ready for bed.
Let's see what tomorrow brings.
Let me do some tapping on the belief that I need a treat that is not a treat :)

This lent thing seems to be going on forever.
Nothing to do with any food cravings it just seems much longer than 2 weeks ago that I was fasting.
I knew that 6 weeks would be a good amount of time for me to make an impact on my health, I reckon it took me about 2 months the last time when I healed from chronic fatigue.
I had known for years I did not feel right, but it was not till I got on a bus in Australia and slept for 14 solid hours and still did not want to get off, that there was something definitely wrong with me.

I was on my own then, for the first time in my life. Completely able to sleep, nothing and no one I had to get up for.
I dragged myself off the bus and realised I needed to do something.

When I was in Nepal I had met a guy who taught my Ashtanga yoga. I had never been a yoga fan, slow, sore and boring, did not get it at all, until I met this guy, saw his body and energy, and then tried this power experience out for myself.
He was getting something out of it that I had never had. As I watched him breathe deeply, totally away somewhere else, I knew I wanted a bit of that.

I flew from Oz to Canada and my friend there and I did 2 hours Ashtanga everyday for 2 months.
At first I hated it. 6am my body is not at its most flexible so I struggled along side her (she was experienced and good and I was shit) everyday just because I had committed to it, and at some level knew it would help.
So I dragged my exhausted, stiff body out of bed every morning and hated the first 20 minutes will I warmed up.

It was no overnight cure. I became aware that I was not thinking about bed at 9pm. I felt more awake, more alive, my energy levels and purpose became stronger, I was healing. I was ecstatic.

So Lent is about this for me. I have not been doing that much yoga, or anthing like it because I have felt so tired. Am I lazy, getting old or what? The fact is when you feel alive you want to exercise, so it's the chicken and egg thing. I have been doing a lot of walking and back in Argyll I have been on the Vibrogym and in the FIR sauna, this is awesome for recovery.

The sun is out the nights are getting lighter and time out in Nature all goes to healing.
Emotional releasing  happens daily, working privately with my clients really helps me too, which is a huge win win.
You cannot help someone else release without releasing yourcellf.
Ellie and I had a Bling it on Workshop last night where I teach how to let go of judging and perhaps hating the body.

How we waste a lot of our precious creating time thinking wishing things were different.
How to let go of fatigue and stressful thoughts.
How to affirm exactly what we want.
I am open to high energy, vibrancy and love.
I allow myself to let go of all judgement of the body and what it is doing.
I am happy, health and free.

Here is to your health and happiness too.

You have to be careful when you are all over the country that you are organised with your food.
When you are in the car, or in other peoples homes, you either have to have your own stuff with you or just take what is on offer. Luckily my friend in Arran knows the deal and had a delicious veggie curry for me.
I got down to the ferry terminal in Ardrossan, was a lovely run down, and as I arrived the sun came out. I could not believe my luck. Don't get me wrong it was freezing but there is something about blue skies and getting on a ferry that lifted my spirits massively.
The water was like glass as we arrived, the island looked totally stunning. The mountains, the lighting, the water, the greenery just a feast for the eyes.
Before dinner we went for a walk on the beach and Wow the sunset.

I cannot believe that I have never really explored this amazing place, right on my doorstep.
I have been in a couple of times on a yacht, but never fully seen it in all its glory and sober.
Sure I am seeing it at its best because the sun is out and as I look out the window now it is jaw droppingly gorgeous, the view from my friends house is magical.
Its only 30 minutes on the ferry from Claonig, I can decide if the weather is right and jump on the ferry anytime.

There is something about being on an island. 
I love Mull too.
Twice last year I went over and the weather was awesome, I just did not want to come back to the mainland.
The energy is just different. Peaceful. A feeling that is palpable. 
The same in Malta and Comino and Gozo. All you have to do to feel good is be there. 
Easy, effortless and blissful, you just rock up, job done!

I love island people too. They just seem happier. Are they? More laid back I think. Not so many people jostling around affecting and infecting each other?

Whatever it is I like it, I like it very much.

Ahhhhh Malta I so look forward to my return. 

I have really not had much problem in terms of missing foods. No burning desire to eat shite at all. That's a nice feeling, most of my food addictions seem to have disappeared, not that I had many, my main down fall living in the sun is beer.
Beer because of the fizz and the sugar, not good for good gut health and stable blood sugar.
Even the coffee thing is a fleeting thought, like, I could have one if I really wanted to, but I am not going to.

Being back in Argyll is always interesting for me. It is no secret I don't like the dark, cold and rain and would not be here if it was not for my family and friends. But there is something super special about being brought up in small community and having such a large extended family.
When my dad crossed last january we were overwhelmed with the generousity of the community.
The cakes, chickens, soup, cards, letters, flowers, kind words and visit were priceless beyond measure.

There is also something nice about being with people your entire life. You know each other, inside out and back to front and inevitably, even if you have not been best buddies, in times of need we all pull together.

The Sinclairs and the MacVicars were both families of 6. We all went to school roughly together and have always been friends. Some kind of unspoken energy, or the fact that you have all been brought up in a madhouse.

Peggy MacVicar passed on last night, what a lady, heart as big as can be and a sense of humour and kindness to boot, so hard when these people have been such a big part of your life and you never really expect them to leave.
We were in the lucky to have our parents to this age, many do not have that luxury.

As my uncle has been in the local hospital I have been going up there and went to see all of our family friends who are also in there. Peggy was there for a bit and I called round each day to see how she was, I am so happy I got to see her.
It was really nice to be able to sit and catch up all under one roof, but it also makes you think about getting older and what it will bring.

With a health service already bursting at the seams and budgets getting tighter and tighter, the need for us to take more preventative measures to ensure we stay healthy for longer has never been more apparent.

Losing a parents tears you heart out your chest anaesthetic free. 
My thoughts are with this wonderful family today, we have share many memories through the good and the bad times, we have done it all.
But I know the whole community will be there for them and this really helps make it more bearable.

What a woman, what a life

RIP Beautiful soul...

I have been laughing at mycellf a bit and realising I am a shit patient.
I am not even ill, a few aches and stiffnesses here and there, with a need to go to bed a bit earlier than before, but in the grand scheme of things I am pretty dam good.
I have incredible freedom, can go wherever I want when I need or want to, nothing to complain about here.
Apart from a few aches and pains.
Now I am inside the body, looking for trouble, counting how many hours I am sleeping (8 or 7.5, completely normal) checking my neck, my elbow, my shoulder, my back. Putting my focus and attention at what I don't want, instead of what I do want, freedom from pain and stiffness. So I need to tap on that. I allow mycellf to let go of my hypochondriacism. I am healing, I allow the body to heal in its own time. I allow mycellf to be patient, not a patient!

When you are healing there is a plan you should follow for fastest, assured results. pm me for the plan
Then you move into faith, trust and surrender and let the body heal in it's own sweet time and way. 
How and when it does it is not up to us, in fact trying to figure it all out, judging it for not healing fast enough, actually slows the healing down. 
Give the body the love and nutrition etc it needs, then move out the way and let the body do the rest, simple.



   I am going to have a body free from pain and high in energy no         matter what it takes.
  I will fast again if I need to. I met a guy once who is a fruitarian. He   said it was only when he ate fruit exclusively the pain in his joints      went away. He ate crates of bananas. I have not tried that yet. 
  I am kinda hoping I don't need to.

My self stabbing wound has healed well, a little bit of stiffness but all pain gone, really hoping that is the end of that.
I am feeling creative and strong again which a is really important sign that I am healing too. 
Determined to do what I need to do to help others heal.
There are so many people healing naturally now its awesome.
Thank god for the internet or this new healing paradigm shift would have taken so much longer to get out.
People are awakening and dropping fear and taking their power and responsibility seriously.

Healing is an inside job. We are the creators.

We are hugely powerful creative beings but if we are tired and running on a low energy and immune system we forget and let's face it don't care. It's too much like hard work, easier to go through the paces we went before, that we can do without thinking because we have done them so many times.

When our energy goes up we get brave, we get courageous, we get inspired and we get motivated.
This is when we can make changes not just within our cellves but for our community, Town, City, Country and Planet.

Here is to your health and happiness, World Peace and saving Mother Earth.

Last night I went out to see some live music with my sister in law and a friend.
We had a fun night but by 10.45 when the band took a break I felt a deep desire for my bed, a large very comfy one up at my mate Susies house.
What is wrong with me I was asking mycellf. It's saturday night and you want to go to bed, you are getting old and embarrassing. Then I remembered when you do not drink alcohol that's when you go to bed.
When you drink alcohol you are just warming up at this time, its the booze that gets you going and keeps you awake. (well it used to anyway!)
Every time I have been in Stonehaven it has been sunny. I love it up here, fresh sea air, great beach with amazing stones and stunning countryside.
When we woke up this morning the sun was shining and we went out for a walk.
I am feeling a few aches and pains in the body again. Trying not to judge it or get raging at it but the other thing I noticed is my achillies tendon feeling a bit sore.
What is that all about? Essential fatty acids? It cannot be dehydration but it could be I am not absorbing the water well enough.

Add that on the the wee tweak in my elbow the big tweak in my shoulder and the ache in my lower back being back, 
you can imagine I am not really happy with how this body is responding to all this tlc and juice.


And another thing. My gums. They are sensitive and slightly swollen like I had just flossed too hard. Its no big deal but when you have to eat apples instead of cheesecake you really feel it. Googled that too but nothing that resonates came up.
I have had that before when I have put too much fruit in my juices, especially oranges and pineapple but never just on mainly veggie juice.
Again I need to release on trying to figure it all out. The body is doing whatever the hell it is doing and as Byron Katie says, it is none of my business.


Its not even 4 weeks since I started this, so again I remind mycellf that I need patience and faith.
What do I tell all my clients? Trust and surrender. But oh no, I am wanting to control it all, trying to figure it all out, wishing it was different and waiting for the day I would happily take on an 11 hour hike in Uganda again.

So again my lesson is patience. I then remembered the other advice I regularly give out. 
We are part of something much, much bigger and you maybe experiencing things because we are changing in consciousness..... so of course I googled and here is what I found.
ALL of my symptoms right here.

I am healing and here is to your health, happiness and awakening.

The hand that I so stupidly stabbed has gone mental. Hot, agony, swollen and throbbing so bad I took some anti inflammatory. Now I know this is the body healing, what I did not know was that is was cellulitis. Until my friend in Malta who is a doctor told me and advised me to take the anti biotics.

Now I don't want to take drugs ever but especially when I have been fasting and detoxing and replacing the bacteria in my gut. But I am also not stupid, I knew I had to take this seriously. It was getting worse not better. I am not prepared to be a dead drug free super hero.
I had the prescription still in my pocket so I knew I could go get it if and when the time came.

I drove up to Stonehaven and when I arrived another friend said, get the antibiotics, just incase.
By this time the chemist was shut and I defo had a bit more movement in my hand. And I thought back in the day, surely you did not die from and avocado incident? But maybe you did.
I decided to wait another day and googled natural alternatives.
Coconut oil compress. So I sat with that pressed on to it and did some of my own healing techniques and focussed on healing.

This morning it is much better. More definition in the back of my hand, more movement, still a headache though I was not sure if it was the stabbing or the sulphur rich eggs I ate. So confusing all of this! I let go on trying to figure it all out, and just let the body do the job.

My daughter said she was going to tell my mum who was quite concerned but I told her if she did I would not be babysitting next weekend.
If my mum thought I was being pig headed and not taking the meds I would never hear the end of it.
Luckily by the time I spoke to her today I could tell her hand on heart it was much better.

It is interesting to be in that position, I know taking the meds would have worked and possibly much quicker than it is healing now, but I was also so protective of my gut after all the work I have been doing restoring its health. 

I had to go with my gut, pardon the pun.

More coconut oil compressed and some turmeric tea, that should keep the inflammation at bay and fight the infection.

Let's hope so anyway! Still there a bit, by no means better, but I am typing with 2 hands now and I could not do that yesterday. Progress indeed.

KEEP THE FAITH
Faith, it's funny how your faith wobbles when fear comes in. There is no right or wrong choice, it is just the one that feels right for you.

So unbelievably annoying to stab yourcellf, what an eejit. Just getting my body back into shape and then I stab it and make myself sick again. Aye quite the dummy.

Thankfully for now, I am healing.....again.
Keep the faith Lilia.

Here is to your health and happiness.

Last night I was on my way to the hospital to visit my friend and I stopped in a little supermarket to pick up some fruit.

There was no fruit to be seen. I said to the friendly guy, where is your fruit and he laughed and said I dont have any. I dont buy any fresh stuff he said because it goes off. I have plenty of unhealthy stuff, sweets, crisps, alcolhol, he is laughing. So instead of getting back into the car and going to another shop I bought my old favourite, plain golden wonder.

Rule number one. Never shop when you are hungry. I had a bit of a chat with myself then ate them anyway. Remembering my own advice, whatever you eat, enjoy it.
Can't say that I did. Would rather have had an alive thing, but I ate it so lets not greet over it.

The other thing I have noticed since fasting is that I am happy to skip a meal as I realise the 3 meal a day thing is just another learned behaviour. Back in the day we ate as and when, and its well documented the less you eat the longer you live, not the other way round as some feeders would make you believe.

Its so funny when you fast and people tell you it;s not good for you, and you glance at their lifestyle, smiling to yourcellf.

I stabbed my hand the other day and it is agony. Tiny wee deep stab below my ring finger. I got anti inflammatories and anti biotics in a prescription but I decided to see if it would heal itscellf.
I figured with all the nutrition I have been piling in, the body should handle it.
Bur ofcourse another lesson. Will it heal, will it get infected? My finger has swollen super tight, its red, hot, painful all of which I know is the healing response, but its waking me up and I have been having some negative thoughts about the healing....patience lesson again. Fools rush in. So for now I am trusting and doing reiki and all the other techniques on it.
More juice and live medicine..

I believe in let food by thy medicine, but interesting how I ran to the doc when I stabbed myself. I thought I had cut through something and I clearly have. But the body is dealing with it, my finger is curling over, very painful, protecting itself, stopping me using it until it heals.
Keep your focus there Lilia, I am healing.
Let go on the judgement of yourcellf for being so stupid. An avocado injury, I should know better!
Just as my body is starting to feel so much better the mind is taken over with this. Partially disabled for a few days again gives me massive appreciation for my healing.
I am healing. I allow mycellf to heal. I am letting go of any doubt that I am healing.

I am in 7th Heaven with access to the far infra red sauna again.
This morning I decided to go for a workout followed by a sauna before heading to Glasgow for my workshop.
The sauna is a meditation room for me. I love it in there. The heat, listening to Hale Dwoskin helping people to release and doing my own tapping, codes and visualisation. Just a wee oasis of tropical paradise in the midst of an Argyll Winter.

While making the juice this morning I was attempting to stab the stone out of the avocado when the knife slipped and it wen right into my hand. Owwwwwwww.

Joni started crying when she saw the blood and I was furious ar myself for being such an idiot.

I packed it with some kitchen roll for a bit and it seemed to be fine. So much for getting healthy with raw food lol.

Then I went, did my workout and went into the sauna, here is a picture I took of myself.

While I was in is there it started to throb.
It was just a silly wee cut, nothing to see but the pain got worse and worse.
My hand stiffened up and I could not concentrate on anything.

I showed my daughter who picked up her phone and made me an appointment to see a doc.

Driving became impossible and I realised I would not be able to drive to Glasgow plus was not in a good way for inspiring people. Had to cancel my workshop and was feeling quite sorry for myself.


I went to the surgery which is also the local hospital, and went to visit my uncle and another friend who is in there. My uncle had a stroke 10 years ago but is failing now, our other friend is suffering from chemo and radiation.

That puts it back in perspective. 
I also met one of my dads oldest friends he was visiting my uncle, so nice to see him and he was  so grateful for his health too. He still drives and plays golf twice a week down at Machrihanish. 

In the last 18 months we have lost so many friends and family. We were lucky to have them as long as we did but it makes you think about this aging process and the care that may or may not be available in the future.

You value your health much more when it gets even a little bit compromised and you become a little restricted.
None of us know whats ahead but we need to start taking better care of ourselves to minimise the risks.

This whole getting old malarky does not look that great, best take better care of our bods.

Here is to your health and happiness.

So yesterday I was happy as a pig in shit. I dug my way into the far infra red sauna in the salon as I had a sneaking suspicion it still worked....and it did.
I crave the heat that is mine on a daily basis in Malta and I have actually been thinking about saunas... a lot!
On this discovery I was sooooo happy to sit in there and allow the sweat to flow, knowing that this turbo charges my detox, will make my skin feel amazing and really assist the body with stubborn toxins and heavy metals.
I had another headache last night going to bed, another sign the body is still eliminating toxins.

The food thing has become pretty easy now, even the coffee, I am having no cravings and little to no desire to eat any simple carbs.

I took the kids to a fab music club in our local church hall this morning. They always have the most incredible home baking. I have no idea how they do it as it is £2 per family and a great 2 hours entertainment for all of us. They had a delicious looking cheese cake which I had to refuse but I got peppermint tea and 2 tangerines so I was happy with that.

It's breaking the habits that's the tough part, and a bit like smoking often you are the odd one out and you don't really want to be. It's easier to go with the crowd and can be a pain to do the opposite sometimes.

It seems like far longer than 3 weeks since I started this in earnest. I have been anazed at how many people have been rooting for me and genuinely interested, plus the people who have been inspired to join in.
Boy do you need patience too. 3 weeks is nothing, but I can see why you can get impatient now, I was wanting results in 10 days, and it took really the 3 weeks for me to truly feel the improvement. And I know I am not fully healed yet.
I also know I did not become unwell in 3 weeks, this has crept up on me over the last 4 years of lying on the beach sipping cold beer.
My friend Jacqui in Malta has been with me all the way and we are going to go 100% raw for the last week of Lent. 26th March -2nd April.
If you would like to join us on this fun journey to more energy, pm me as we are going to make a group and swap recipes and ideas plus the shopping list you will need to manage this week and eat delicious food at the same time.

You will need a juicer and a blender, nutribullet , food processor or vitamix, this will make it much easier for you.
If you have a dehydrator and spiraliser then happy days but we can do a week without these, but will be great for you if you have them.

I am not saying everyone should go raw, but everyone should have a lot more raw food in their diet.
This is a fun way to start. See what comes up for you. See what your food addictions are.
Then I help you let them go.
Boom.
Here is to your health and happiness.

It feels so good to have my energy creeping up.
Still got a few  minor aches and pains which to be honest come and go by the days, not really sure what the hell is going on but I know I feel better and thats good enough for now.

Still tired about 10pm and sleeping right through till 6am which gives me a good 8 hours and also utilises the healing hormones between 10-2am so its all good there. The devastating slump in the afternoon seems to have gone. I am still detoxing because I am still aware of sensations in my head, a taste in my mouth when I wake up and the itching in my throat.

Going to get some probiotics and enzymes to put in today, boost the healing.

I am doing a lot of raw food and it makes your realise that even when you think you are eating a lot of veg, you are not really. Only when you go raw do you start to really eat a ton of veg and feel the results.

When you think about it I have only been doing this for 3 weeks which is nothing! Although I have to say it feels like a lot longer.

The coffee urge has gone . Wow. Did a bit of tapping on that but it just disappeared, the urge that is, actually looking for lemon
 and ginger in the morning and a ton of water through the day.


Such an interesting journey this is, great for me to see it from my clients perspective. Its teaching me patience, its teaching me mindfullness on an entirely different level (much needed) not eating like I am the race for life anymore. 
I am much more mindful of my chewing and have actually taken things out of my mouth that I know do not heal the body. (A lump of Nickys pasta bake)

Fasting is fascinating and I am reading more and more about it.
Think I will run a 3 day fast Retreat for those who want to try it, really cool how the body feels.


I have lost quite a bit of weight, wish I had weighed mycellf and measured just out of curiosity, but I never. I just know by the hole in my belt and the fact my skinny jeans are no longer clinging. Maybe even treat mycellf to some new swimwear for hitting the beach for the summer. I cannot wait!

I am healing I allow mycellf to heal I have boundless energy and joy for life
Here's to your health and happiness too.

Driving from Glasgow back to Argyll yesterday and I realised I was feeling better, much better.

My energy was good, I had no desire to sleep, the ache and stuffiness from my sinuses is marginal now.

I felt my mood lift, thank god for that. It has only been 3 weeks since I got super serious about this, but I wanted to get some good old satisfaction. 

I had a Vibrogym workout on wednesday and did some yoga yesterday, that felt good too, actually wanted to do it instead of forcing myself through the paces. This is progress indeed.

My thinking had been a bit unhelpful and indecisive which is unlike me. I normally vaguely know what I am doing in terms of months but for now I feel I can make no plans I just need to wait and see what happens. After dad getting sick 2 years ago I like to stay flexible to be around my family if need be and this has been a time for that too. 

Then the mind wants to kick in and get some form of security. People ask in genuine kindness and concern when I am going, what am I doing and I cannot really say for sure about anything......is that a good or a bad thing? 
Neither, but it's funny how the mind wants some security, control and approval.

Well it's not getting it for now. Staying open, doing what needs to be done, healing and spending time with my family and friends.

I went for an aromatherapy massage today. Wow. What bliss. I was away in another place, cool colours, saw some people I didn't know, it was awesome. She did some acupressure round my sacrum and my back feels brilliant now, the best if has for at least a year.
I think we vastly under rate the value of massage in our culture, it terms of healing. It really assists the body to get the job done plus it feels downright amazing. I love smells too so aromatherapy is the biz for me!

I AM Healing, I actually am healing.

Loving the healing, wooohooooo this new energy will keep me on track.

I have always loved soup even from a young kid.
So easy to make, delicious, nutritious, warm and nourishing winter food.
For the Retreat I made a pot of root veg soup. Took all the root veggies, mixed with water, sea salt and pepper and in 30 mins you have a hearty stick to your ribs soup.
It was a great hit, no stock, just pure veg, so easy and cheap to make.
Just rustled up a pot for my friend to come home to.
Still drinking my juice around 2 pints per day plus some fish and salad at night.
Hit the Vibrogym large on wednesday, did some one legged squats to trash my quads and glutes and boy did I succeed.

I was helping my friend with her fashion show yesterday as the pain of moving started to kick in.
Not the cleverest thing to do when you have a busy few days ahead!

However a bit of yoga and a headstand mixed it all up this morning. Going to do some Emotion Codes now, always fascinating what old emotions are lurking around and holding you back, it is not usually what you think it will be.

My friend Ellie Emmanuel has been teaching 14-16 year olds on styling for success. Teaching them meditation, law of attraction, how to present yourself and how to communicate not just with words but with style.
Her training company has been having outstanding success, especially with kids who are not in alignment with the system.
She quite literally inspires them to be all they can be and her infectious enthusiasm for fashion, clothes and our young people is catching.
I spent the day with her yesterday, picking up the most incredible clothes.
The trust that the shop owners and dressmakers put in her was fab to see, she was given basically anything she wanted.

She called in some very talented friends for hair and make up and although she had about 100 different outfits and 25 models the entire thing went without a hitch.

These young girls got to experience a real life backstage adventure. They were nervous but marvelous. They did hair and make up and it took the entire day of dedication to put on the 2 hour show. And that was just yesterday. The rehearsals before, the choosing of the clothes, then of course today, everything has to be returned. An enormous amount of work that Ellie did smiling like a kid in a candy shop the whole day.
There was about 150 people there and one family spoke to my other friend saying that Ellie is the best thing that ever happened to their daughter. 
Well you don't get a better testimony than that.

Here is to Ellie, leading the way, cutting edge education through Maxxell Training.
Happy teenagers, surely that should be our goal.

So the last few days I was noticing my thinking was not particularly helpful.
I have also been thinking of food far more than I have for years, like since back in the day when I used to think I needed to go on a diet. Before I realised that you make healthy eating a way to be and do.
Then last night I realised it was the Full Moon. This powerful entity that moves the seas in and out often affects me.
But back to thinking about food.

This is interesting for me as it again highlights how much food is emotional and psychological.
The idea of a "treat".
I go mental at my mum constantly sneaking junk food to Joni who is 2 and very slight. She keeps telling her the sugar and trans fats she wants to give her are a "wee treat." And she does it over and over, even sneaks it to her when she thinks we are not looking and it makes my blood boil. 
Now she is not a bad person, she loves the kids with all of her big heart and she never gave us food like she gives Joni.
Ice lollies at breakfast, defrosted potato scones put in the microwave then fried with vegetable oil, so toxic and carcinogenic I actually can feel my body rage just writing this.


What is that about? Why is it sooooo oppressive. Everyone laughs and thinks it's funny except me and Nicky. Everywhere you go people want to put stuff into their mouths that will spike their blood sugar and change their body functions.
It makes no sense to me.


But here I am too thinking of a wee treat. A wee coffee lol. Its the same thing. We talk about wee treats and it gives us a nice feeling, and its part of the play of the mind to justify that we should have it.
Whatever it is we are craving, be it a cigarette, a glass of wine, a pile of sugar, its the same deal, we are chasing the feeling.


Now don't get me wrong I am a big fan of the 80/20 rule. Do it right 80% and the body will manage.
But sometimes when you are sick or unwell or if you have a child then you are disciplined and stick to 100% rulle, until such times as it is relevant to change.


The problem is when you start giving kids processed foods, they will start to prefer the taste. If they dont have it they dont miss it. If everyone just stuck together and stopped lying about wee treats we would be fine.


McDonalds actually have a marketing strategy called the pester factor. Parents are tired now and when kids go on and on about something they often get it just for peace. I of course have done this. It does not make it right.


The kids eyes light up cause they want the drug that will set of the reaction in their brains.


It is not a treat for the body, it is a drug for the mind. 
When my mum said to Joni yesterday "it is just a wee treat" I said actually it is poison for your wee body.
I know I sound like a freak and you probably think it does not matter, but unfortunately it does.
It was fine back in the day when the wee treat only happened 2 or 3 times a month, but now we are talking everyday and often more than that.
Refined, processed sugar is a drug and it kills a lot of people and makes even more very miserable.
We need to change our language around it for the sake of our health and maybe more importantly our kids health.

We are a bundle of energy. Our thoughts are electrical in nature and our feelings are magnetic in nature. We inherit feelings and beliefs around foods and everything else in our lives. We learn from our parents, caregivers and peers how to be in this world.
Live nutrition is essential for long term brain and body health.
Our foods affect our moods, our chemistry, electrical and magnetic field, it is our fuel.

When we are looking for optimum health and happiness we need to take this into consideration.
I know from doing the fast that I can do it. Never even entered my head to have one.  

I am listening to my mind telling me all the reasons why I can "just have one.". That is the trap.
The difference between need and want.
Be interesting to see how it feels by the end of the 6 weeks.
We can release that charge. I am letting go of the belief I need coffee. I allow myself to release all addictive behaviours and wants.
I am eating only  healthy, healing foods that will nourish and feed my body.
I am healing, I am healing.

So 2 weeks in to my turbo healing plan.
I feel so much better. Yesterday I was reversing in and out of places as I am chauffeuring my mum and relatives around and my body is so much freer, hardly any pain and little stiffness.
I can stand on one foot and put my boots on, something I was not doing for weeks now.

The pain in my joints has gone, my back still has a little sensation or two going on but it is much better too and is not wakening me up through the night, my shoulder and back were before.

Wow do I have to work on patience. Its only been 2 weeks since I started this plan and already I have made so much progress. 2 things are still bugging me though. 
My energy levels.
My sinuses.
And of course I was doing what I always tell my clients not too, I was trying to figure it all out, wanting to control it and forgetting to keep my focus on all the fab things that are happening in the body.
Here are a list of amazing natural things you can do for sinusitis.
http://www.peacefulmind.com/sinusitis.htm

Healing takes patience, time and faith....belief. Believe that it is happening because if you do not you will feel bad, the cells will contract and you make healing even harder for the body.

Sinuses are related to beliefs and the truth. What am I believing at a subconscious level about myself and the rest of the World?
I need to release any outdated programmes from my sub conscious, I may feel positive and light now, but I never used to, and its likely that old frequency is still in my energy body, blocking my healing.
More Sedona, Emotion codes, Healing codes and EFT.
Affirmations. I am healing, I allow mycellf to heal.
I am letting to go of any destructive cellular memories, inherited negative frequencies and limiting beliefs around my healing.

Here is what Dr Robert Ivker has to say about the emotional side

Treat the Emotional Cause: Most sinus infections are triggered by repressed anger or unshed tears. I recommend the safe release of anger (punching a punching bag or pillows as you yell for a minute or two is a quick and highly effective method), as well as reflecting on whether or not you're feeling grief or some sense of loss. The feeling of grief or loss is typically not as obvious as the anger, but it's probably there, just a bit deeper. Journaling is another excellent method for releasing either or both of these painful emotions.

"As you can see," continues Dr. Ivker, "treating a sinus 'infection' is typically not a quick fix, whether it's done holistically or, as many millions of sinus sufferers have learned, taking an antibiotic. That's because we now know that acute sinusitis is no longer always synonymous with a sinus infection.

"However, if you can apply at least a few of the above recommendations, you can usually shorten the course of the acute inflammation well beyond what an antibiotic is capable of doing. As you've just seen, the holistic treatment program addresses far more than simply killing bacteria (which is often not even the cause of the problem). In addition to treating infection, this natural approach reduces the inflammation of the mucous membrane, eliminates possible food allergy, strengthens the immune system, and addresses the emotional cause of the infection.

He also recommends various essential fatty acids, vitamin C echinaccea, zinc, magnesium, selenium all the things we need for healthy cell membranes along with effective transportation between the cells.

My diet is packed with all of that right now, still juicing but powering it into a smoothie with nuts, seeds avocado, probiotics.
The stuffiness still suggests leakiness in the gut but I am sure that will disappear as I follow this clean eating till end of lent.

The morning coffee is the thing plus coo juice. I have been drinking lemon water and not enjoying it the same, but I realise again this is all in my mind.
I used to hate coffee, but made it into a ritual, I like the feeling first thing in the morning as I don't like to eat to early.
So I have changed my perception on it and used EFT to change my lustful, ridiculous beliefs around it.

Had fish last night with some mashed root veg and cabbage, totally delicious.

Onwards and upwards I am healing. I allow mycellf to stop thinking about food all day!

Healer heal thyself.
So that is what I am doing.
For the last few months I have been alkalising my diet, releasing and affirming on letting go of all aches and pains along with all inherited frequencies that can and will impact my long term health.

Then I decided to do a water fast.
One of the things I teach at my workshops and private sessions is to ask. Ask, it is the first step to the Law of Attraction and is the first step to all goal setting techniques. Decide what you want and put it out there.

So I was asking "what will it take to have a totally pain, ache and stiffness free body?"

I do a juice fast at least once a year sometimes more. I always return to that when my energy dips. But the health stuff going on for me now seems to be inherited stuff along with post menopausal. So this is a new one for me too.

After my dad died and I had spent 5 months in the UK winter my body was not how it used to be. Stiffness and aches, lack of drive, fatigue and a Scottish dark, wet, cold winter all took its toll.

I was interested they way I got used to it, and actually had kind of accepted it. Then it got a bit worse and I thought holy shit it's not going to stay like this if I dont intervene, its going to get worse. Haha how stupid of course if your dont intervene it will get worse. So it went from being slightly annoying to a bit debilitating. 


Then my friend Dr Lydia in Malta put me on a bio resonance machine and up it came for me to see with 2 eyes.
Red alert, high inflammation, urgent action required now!


Fasting came back into my awareness, everywhere I turned there were articles on it, so I decided very lethergically that I had to do it. I was also reading about the metaphysical reasons for Lent so thought that was a good time frame to make a difference.


Water for 5 days, which is actually easy as long as you do not need to do anything that requires concentration or danger :)
Juice for 5 days then a clean paleo diet for the next 4 weeks. That means not grains, sugar, caffeine, dairy, alcohol, potatoes, simple carbs.
My body is definitely lighter but I still have energy issues plus my sinuses filling up. 
This indicates emotional and gut issues which are still clearly healing. I am still detoxing I can feel it.
An anti candida diet would usually last at least 6 weeks so I still have 4 to go.


When we look at the body as an energy system that gets overloaded with negative frequencies from our internal and external enviroments then we can easily see what needs to be done.


But the biggest challenge is patience. Patience and faith.
Yesterday I went for a workout, I wanted one. That is a great feeling. That means my energy is up because if I have done one before it was only because I had to, not because I wanted to.


So the healing is happening, giving up is not in the equation, I am healing all of this as I want my healthy, energetic body back and I KNOW I can get it, I just need to take the relevant action.


I am healing. I allow mycellf to heal. I am open to being totally pain and stiffness free. I have optimum health.


Here is to your health and happiness....

Its a well know phrase that the best things in life are free.
A stunning sunrise or sunset.
So if that's the case why are we all stressed with life, with lack of time and with trying to get a lot of things that are not free.
It is definitely a part of growing older that you start to realise what is truly important in your life.
The 9-5 treadmill loses it's thrill, even if the money in the bank is good. The bills and taxes for this that and the next thing seem to get bigger every year. The two things that you love, time off and disposable income become more difficult to achieve and enjoy. 
You realise that you are not going to be here for ever and are in the latter part of your life and you think, "what the hell am I doing?".
What are we doing?
The state of the planet, the state of everyones health, the turmoil outside and in. It is time to rethink our strategy.

BASIC NEEDS
What do we need. Shelter, water, food,education and health care.
Whether you live in London, New York, Uganda, India or Malta these are the basic requirements.
Most people now have access to these things in varying degrees. But the harmony has gone, we are way out of balance and mainly down to our inabliltiy to see ourselves as part of a much bigger, intelligent World.
When you look around at the magical, immense beauty of this planet, you cannot fail to feel grateful to be lucky enough to be here. Unfortunately we are not all seeing the same thing.
Our drive for more stuff, less cost, bigger, better, faster has taken us far away from Nature and how we were always designed to live.
Down to the basics of how we build and insulate our homes, our heating systems, our drive for things to "look" great has again caused us to disconnect from the Earths energy and life giving vibes.
The need to hold down a job no matter how unhappy it makes us, stuck in an airless negative enviroment with zero time outside for 8 hours a day.
The stress of paying all the bills that have slowly risen thanks to the banks and the government, until like the boiling frog your start to feel the life draining out of you along with the money draining out your account.

Then you think....what do I really want?
More time with family and friends.
More peace.
More time in Nature.
To love your "job"
To enjoy your hobbies whatever they may be.
To afford a nice home for your family on one wage so that our children can experience family values.
Time to help others and give back to the planet.
I mean there are enough of us to pull together and get all of this done with time left over surely?
If it was a bit more evenly distributed.....

Is any of that too much to ask?
Sitting watching the sunset and feeling blessed and connected.
Watching the kids get to know the planet and themselves safely.
Swimming in the sea and feeling the velvet of the water on your skin as you bask in the natural colours and beauty.

As I become aware that my life is well more than half over, and who knows what time any of us have left, you evaluate your time and energy.
Where will it go and how will everyone, not just me, benefit from that?

Time with family, friends and others.
Time with Mother Nature.
Time to give back.

Well interesting old stuff coming up for me now.
I decided to only eat fruit and veg for 3 days coming out of the fast.
Should be no problem but because it is sunday there have been roasts and frys going on around me and I have been craving meat and fat. The fat from the chicken, bacon, sausages, the fat from the lamb and I have also wanted coffee.

I made a delicious Indian curry last night to try and give my taste buds a treat while making me feel like I was having a treat plus a real meal.
When I was vegetarian before a few times I over ate carbs, breads, pasta and rice because I found when I just eat fruit and veg I am permanently hungry.

Being a blood group O I digest meat well and I find when I eat it I never think about my next meal until the time comes. Being veggie I am kind of thinking about what I will eat next.....now I know a lot of this is in my head.

I am not hungry but it is really interesting psychology as when I was on the fast I was happy with that, there is much more lust and gluttony coming up now that I have started eating again, albeit very clean.

I am going to do this for lent, no matter what, so I need to tap on cravings and beliefs that I need or want things I should not have and coffee.

Coffee is a funny one because no one likes it when they first try it. We teach ourcellves to like it, so I need to release this and go back to what I used to believe when I was 15, I thought it was awful.

The paleo diet will work well for me so that is what I am planning to stick to for the next month, cutting out all wheat and dairy plus sugars and caffeine. I am determined to heal all aches and pains in my body and will experiment with food and releasing till it is all gone. I am feeling much, much better a bit more exercise into my routine and I will be back on full power.

I need to tell you the recipe I used, kind of half made up with the sauce on a recipe on the internet.
So easy, quick and orgasmically delicious.
4 tomatoes chopped into a pan. 
2 cloves
garlic
a fresh chilli
12 or more almonds.
Soften them off in a pot. Cool it down a bit then put in blender. This creates a creamy delicious sauce that you then add to
1 small finely chopped onion gently fried in butter till golden and soft.
Add in the mixture and add 1/2 tsp of fenugreek, coriander, cumin, 2 cardomon pods, red chilli powder, garam masala, juice of 1 lime, tbsp of coconut oil, rock salt and pepper.

This gives you a delicious sauce to which I added roasted butternut squash, sweet potato and aubergine.
A handful or freshly chopped coriander.....OMG delicious!

You can also use paneer, more nuts, spinach, okra, beans, anything you like. Truly nutritious and delicious.

Tomorrow is monday a great day to start exercising, let me get my ass onto the Vibrogym!