The Morning after the night before.
So what to eat?
Funny right now I have no desire to eat.
Much as this was nothing to do with weight loss I am really enjoying seeing my hip bones again and definition in my face.
There is a lightness in my step and my energy levels are definitely creeping up. I expected to have much more energy by this time, but as I said in previous blogs, I have way more for the body to process now. The water fast will have brought stuff up too and the juice is helping the body to eliminate it all now.
I am getting a bit of an insight into food disorders too. 


SELF CONTROL
Control, this is all about control. 
Deciding when you will and will not put food into the body. She (the body) is becoming more alive, I dont want that to change.

The one big thing I have noticed is, if I have that hunger (or craving) feeling in my gut and its about the time I should eat, I dont actually need to eat, nothing happens and the feeling passes. Normally if it is a meal time, if I have that feeling we call hunger, I will eat something, especially if on the run.
But on wednesday I was in Glasgow, came home to my friends house and thought about making a juice, not because I was hungry but because it was that time.
I was tired and decided just to have water and go to bed. 
Again the next day I was going to stop in Byres Road and pick up a juice for breakfast, but there was no parking and I knew I could make one at home in 2 hours time, so I just drove down the road. Normally I would have stopped at a garage and told myself I needed a coffee to keep me going, or maybe even a shitty sandwich. Funny how we convince ourcellves stuff is true when it quite clearly is not.
So that is quite enlightening. Lust. That is one of the emotions we talk about in the Sedona Method. The idea that you really want something and the more you percieve you cannot have it the more you want it. That has really backed off for me. Let's see how long that lasts, or maybe I just get it now, I hope so!
Food is a drug to most of us in the Western cultures. 
More people are dying of overeating that of starvation now.
The way we have destroyed the top soil, the way we process and the very bacteria we need, the additives, preservatives, colourings, the way we store foods and the way we treat the animals that we eat, all goes to a very sad, cruel, depleted food chain.
Mother Nature is genius in its simplicity and we have come in with greed and fear and holy shit what a mess we have made.
CONFLICTING NUTRITION ADVICE
There is so much conflicting advice out there but it's actually simple. Eat food out the garden and off the trees. Take what you need from the sea and land, nothing more than you need on that day in a humane, deeply respectful way for all, and we will be fine.
Fruit is coming off the trees weeks before we see it, stored and packaged, sprayed and then set out in bright lights. Animals are put through hell to provide us with their meat and products. They are fed the wrong foods, all to feed our greed and need and subjected to intense fear and cruelty. The drive for cheap food has led us to create things that are quite literally poison for the body.
What you need to eat changes as you age. Different times, jobs, demands need different fuel. Where you live, your genes, your blood type, your ancestrol make up, all go towards dictating what your body needs. This is different for all of us depending on our individual situation. But there is a very simple rule of thumb.
Look at your plate and ask.......
How much has man altered it?
The closer it is to the way Mother Nature presented it, the better. 
Disease is rampant in our Countries. People are becoming disabled, suffering brutal treatments, quality of life and life force is diminishing and we are just ignoring it in the main, hoping the pharmaceutical companies will come up with some drug to fix it all.
Hippocrates said "Commit enough daily sins against Nature and disease will appear."
Look around, I think he was right.
This fast has caused a lot of interest, concern and the usual criticism from the less well informed. Criticism is just resistance and that is a common part of being human. Back in the day we never sat down to 3 meals a day, filled with processed, trans fats and sugars. Back in the day there were no meal times. We ate as and when to fuel ourcellves and when the boys came back with a kill. We ate what was in season, when it was in season, and we took only what we needed, and left the rest.
Humans are the only species to stock pile out of fear. The food we waste is immoral and disgraceful when you think that people are starving in the World. We kill in advance hoping someone will by the dead thing rather than killing for need and hunger. We have so lost the plot that not only is our entire species suffering so is every other one because of our actions.
Fasting makes you realise how much we overeat. 
It gives you a respect and understanding of the body that you may not have had before.  
It gives you deep appreciation for tastes, flavours and smells. 
It brings you in touch with your gluttony. 
It allows you to see others discomfort around you choosing not to eat and how it sparks the thought that perhaps they too should try it.
It allows you to see how our culture "feeds" as a social pastime and how others want to feed you and insist you need "something".
The hunger was not an issue for me these past 10 days, it was the detox symptoms. Having sinusitis at the same time threw me a bit as I was "trying to figure out what the body was doing"! I used my techniques for releasing pain, releasing old inherited frequencies and beliefs and for  attracting vibrant health. 
This suprised me a bit, normally I would crave something, this brings you in touch with your addiction, then you can use the techniques to release that belief. But none of that happened. Interesing. What an interesting 10 days it has been and will continue to be until the end of lent.
I am not a vegetarian. I eat a lot less meat but for enviromental and cruely reasons, not because I do not enjoy it. I endeavour to get grass fed organic meat when I can and fish that has lived a natural, wild life. I am blood group O which is traditional hunter, gatherer food. No wheat, sugar, caffeine and dairy.
So this is what I will stick to for the rest of lent. Clean veggies, fruit, nuts, seeds and the odd bit of protein primarily from fish.
This will still allow the healing to continue in my gut. I will keep on with releasing, affirming, asking, demanding, praying for all aches and pains to be healed.
I am healing.
I allow mycellf to heal
I am open to being free from all aches and pains
I am vibrant, joyful, healthy and happy

In order to keep healing and stay full of life, I need to eat things that are full of life.

So 2 nights ago I felt like I had flu. My neck, back, shoulders were all aching. I honestly thought I was getting the flu lol.
The most classic of major detox symptoms and I did not realise.
We know that on a heat scanner these areas show up inflammed, its a great way to see where the problems are. This fast is to douse all that inflammation and alkalise the diet.
Disease cannot exist in an alkaline enviroment.
Negative trapped emotions contribute massively too. More work on that level today.


Then I woke up feeling fine?
The body was clearly processing the toxicity in my gut, breaking down the candida, eliminating whatever other garbage that has been stored in there.
Assistance was called for.
I decided I needed a body treatment so called my private therapist and she told me to come over to her house she could fit me in, sooooo grateful.
My head still weighed a ton, my energy was low, and the thought of just lying getting my feet massaged was blissful.

The meridians points are in the feet and they clear energy all the way up the body. They directly stimulate all areas of the body. I kinda dosed as she was doing it and asked her at the end what she found.
Lower back stuff, thats a given, even although I was sleeping my body told her thatt!
I am not going to be that person with back problems, NOOOOOO WAY! This too will heal.

Starvation! Hahahahaha apparently she could tell my entire digestive system was flat, there was no sponginess like in normal healthy people. 
Low energy, well I knew that too but still love it when they tell you all of that from your feet.
Mairi stirred it all up for me and this morning when I woke up it was almost completely gone.
But the taste in my mouth was like I had 10 tequilas last night.
So water for a bit then I will go out and get some veggies and get on my juices.
My appetite has gone, I feel totally fine although driving through Glasgow last night I was seeing all the restaurants and thinking about the delicious things to eat in there.

One of my friends did a 10 day detox and has never eaten meat since, not sure if it will be like that for me. But lets see, I am going to eat only clean food till the end of lent. No dairy, no wheat, grains or refined sugars, no caffeine, will see about game and meat. Being a blood group O I digest it well but it is the quality and history of the meat that is the problem now.

I will have fish and shell fish though. 
Well thats what I am thinking now, 2 days of starvation to go.

My brother lovingly told me I am dying hahahahahahaha. 
Defo feel better today, its been hard to say what has been what with my sinus pain, so on the homeward straight now.
Joints feel fine, back still niggling, lets see.

Well it is here, the last day.
A few more waking hours and I can have food.
It's funny but you usually think when you are doing a fast that it will get easier as the time goes on and sometimes for a few days in between it does. Then you just get hungrier! Kind of obvious really, but the minds a funny old thing.
What to eat?
I have been obsessed with nice smells of food in the last week and now I am thinking spices, tasty, garlic, onions, lamb fat!

I am going to make some soup later with all the root veggies. Then thinking about a veggie curry. Will start off the day with a bumper smoothie made with fresh juice then decide what is next.

Coming out a fast you should gently wake the digestive system up.
Think a curry maybe more of a loud alarm clock.

So how has it been? 
Well this one was very different from the others because normally I want to kick start my immune system, drop a few pounds and gain higher energy.
This time I have health issues that MUST be addressed or they could lead to far more serious conditions.
This time I did not really think much about the food instead it was the detox symptoms.
The water only part I felt decidedly strange, not unpleasant but strange and a bit out there. This week on the juice I had major symptoms on day 2 which I also had on day 2 on water. 

During this fast I have been watching lots of vids to keep mycellf motivated and to remind mycellf why I am doing it.
My body feels light and it seems the longer that you can stay on water the more incredible the benefits can be.
I need to change the information in the cells and I do that by connecting back to Nature and releasing all negative, old, limiting beliefs, information and behaviours.
This morning I tapped, rewiring the brain and cleaning the drains that are our meridians.
Check here if you would like to know more about how it works. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsEoc0o6Mrc

I am healing, I allow myself to let go of all inherited negative energy.
You basically focus on what you want, affirm it and ask for whatever you want to leave to do so too.
You might be thinking bullshit, so did I when I first heard about it, but do not let your ego keep you away from this powerful non invasive, safe healing tool.

Then I released some trapped emotions using the Emotion codes. Today helplessness, hopelessness, self esteem and grief came up. I asked "do I have any trapped emotions contributing to the pain in my back?"
That was what came up, so let's see how the back feels later.

I have not done much exercise this fast and that's unusual too. Why? Because I just have not felt like it. Staying warm is enough for my body at the moment, I have been freezing!

Next FAST

Now looking at going to Costa Rica to do a longer one in the next year or so.

High inflammation, leaky gut, aches in my body all signs that things need to change, big time.
I am still detoxing I know. Have a taste in my mouth, my neck still feels heavy, sinuses are a million times better but still filling up so the healing has not finished yet.

This morning I feel hungry, first time all week at this time, usually nights are the hardest. 
My entire focus has been different this time. I know at this age you have to redress a lot of the imbalances that have occurred over the last half century and more, so that does not all change in 10 days. 
But it does fill me with wonder how the body will rebalance and heal for us when we allow it. Incredible healing power.

I miss hot food and tastes so soup for me and maybe some roasted veg or the curry, I will decide tomorrow.

I will continue to blog this until the end of lent as I am staying super strict until then.

I know I can get this body back to full power, I just need to be patient and follow my own advice :)

I am healing, I allow mycellf to heal.

FULL BLOWN FLU SYMPTOMS= MASSIVE DETOX

Well last night was rough.
The hunger and cravings are zero issue here, it is the symptoms.
I felt great yesterday morning, had  such a good sleep. My sleep has been much lighter and broken this entire fast.
It has not been a problem except at the weekend I was up at 4.30  2 days in a row so by night time I was tired, ready for bed but not really feeling I was getting 100% rejuvinated.
I have had a bit of a cold since I started and on monday at the Retreat it was a pain as it affected my breathing when I was doing the Ashtanga yoga. During Ashtanga you breathe deeply in and out through the nose, and I could not do this, it was like having some sponge inside my head that was full of water. There was no pain though, just annoying and a runny nose.
I know it will heal and go but I am a bit impatient! Would like to feel amazing now, and this is taking the edge off,

Yesterday I drove to Glasgow then sat in a course for 3 hours, it was brilliant but not sure sitting in a room full of people at this stage of the detox was the smartest idea anyway.
Then I went to the hospital to visit my friend and got infuriated and incredulous at the lack of real health that is in our hospitals, had to release on that. But putting someone in a room and drugging them up is not my idea of helping someone to heal.

All in all by the time I got home I felt I was getting full blown flu.
My neck and back were aching, my head the sorest it has been for years, I came and lay on the bed and to make matters even worse I had to get up to the toilet about 3 times during this crisis, to pee. Dam water and juice!

So I wake up this morning at 5.45. That's ok its the before 5 stuff that I object to. Part of my healing plan is quality sleep. If we sleep between 10 and 2pm we engage the most powerful time for healing, the hormones flood in and rejuvinate and replenish us, So I am definitely ticking that box.
It's a great idea to go to bed early when you are detoxing as you need the sleep and it keeps you away from food.

BROCCOLI
There is always controversy over broccoli. Raw broccoli does not work for everyone, it is a cruciferous veg and often we cannot digest them easily, plus they are high in sulphur.  My other friend had bloating after her juice yesterday and then so did I so today we are leaving the brocolli out. 
Because it is green I always want to put it in, and its in the shops, but its out for rest of fast.

Today I woke up completely fine. It's mental. My sinuses are still blocked and cleansing but all the pain has gone. 
The one good thing about a sore head is it takes the focus away from eating.

I have had a leaky gut. Your gut is directly attached to your head. If you have allergy symptoms in your head, eyes, nose, throat then there is a good chance the problem is in your gut.

So I knew that the process of healing could be harder detox wise than for those who do not have this.
There is or was a fungus in there that when it breaks down will make you feel crap on the way out.There are 2 ways you can do this
1. You can do it fast with more discomfort or 
2. Slow with less.discomfort
I chose option A.


I actually find that no eating is less hassle than trying to cut certain things out, especially when you are not living in your own house. You do not have to think, you do not have to explain, you just carry your bag of veg around, tell everyone you are juicing and you get no hassle.


So lets see what today brings. Feeling happier, lighter and excited to see how the body responds to the  tons of easy to digest nutrition it gets in this week.


Here is to your health and happiness.

Whats the body and mind saying now? Well I still have the desire to smell things. Water is bland so I am enjoying the different smells of foods and especially Basil ? Go figure.
Had a great sleep last night and woke up on full power this morning but as the day has gone on my sinuses have started throbbing. 
They have not been this bad for years. I am wondering if it is old information leaving, whatever I will have to go lie down and hope its gone in the morning.
It could be that I am still detoxing now that I have had 2 days on the juice. The juice really batters you into a detox too, so it could just be another stage of that.
I am not going to try and figure it out, just have another early one and do some emotions codes, EFT and Reiki.
My friend in the Med is totally buzzing now and I hope to feel like that tomorrow.
My clothes are all super loose and this belt cannot do the job of keeping my jeans up now, need to do a trade with someone for a bit.
Healing wise my aches were much better today, but now my head has taken over lol.
3 more days to go.
Will still keep on taking pints of juice until this is completely healed.

From water to juice.
Short blog today as not much to tell.
So now we move to juice, what a dawdle after a 5 day water fast and the blandness of water!
This was the day of my Retreat in Balinakill so to make sure I had full energy I drank a pint of juice before bed.
I had been suffering a little bit from ketosis, when the body starts to burn fat.
Its fine but I felt light headed and a bit unreliable, plus had a taste in my mouth and had to be careful doing things fast.

I woke up at 4.30 again! Around 5 I thought I might as well get up, light the fires etc for everyone arriving.
The weather was wild and I thought maybe no one would get there, but it turned out fab.

We had a fab, fun day and I had zero symptons and actually forgot that I was still fasting.
Ate some cooked veggies at night as did not want to waste them and they tasted sooooo good.
Dozed on the sofa from 8pm on then slept till 7am solid, ahhhhh bliss, felt great to wake up to daylight.
I dreamt of helping people with incurable disease turn it around to healing.

Last day on water, excited about juice tomorrow.
What has been the hardest thing?
Because I have fasted many times although only once on water I know its a mindset. But this time I definitely had some very light headed moments that would not have been good if I was at work or doing something that needed attention, driving for example.
Day 2 was when I had the symptoms and day 3 was easy then last night day 4 evening I really thought about food, and this morning day 5 I know it's all but over wooohooooooo.
Last night day 4 I really started to think about avocados and loads of raw food which I can have tomorrow.
My last food was 5.30 on tuesday so if I need a juice tonight I may have one as I am running a day Retreat in Balinakill Country House tomorrow and need to make sure I am on my bestest form.

I have always had a very determined mindset and when I decided I am truly going to do something not much will stop me, especially when others tell you not too.

I have had nothing but support this time, my mum of course wanted to put food in me but when I explained this is my job, my life, everything that I study and believe in she backed off.
It always amuses me when people with no experience want to tell you what NOT to do.
Food is one of the biggest drugs on our planet, sugar and simple, processed carbohydrate.
It is more addictive than heroin for some.
It kills more people than starvation does, or any other thing on the planet......but because it is legal, we ignore it.

Sugar feeds most cancers and should be avoided at all costs if you are sick.
This can be more easily said than done if you are addicted.
A bit like a smoker who continues to smoke when they have lung cancer, its the same thing, addiction.

We all do things we know are not good for us and that seems to be part of our humanism. But when these behaviours are driving us to the grave we need to find a way to release them, if we choose to, and preferably without suffering.

The techniques I teach are to release addictions.
We are born in with addictions, we inherit stuff then we learn stuff then we do stuff and all of this is stored in the subconscious. 
I have actually not craved anything this time. I look forward to a big creamy raw juice but as for the old stuff my main weakness is coffee with coo juice and I have not had any craving at all.
I have done a lot of releasing on the inherited crap I may have involving arthritis as that is what the body was starting to do. I have watched my dads family for decades and pain is something they accepted, but not me. I want to practise yoga, climb mountains, board down them free from aches and pains. That is my goal, that is where my focus, attention, intention and faith is going.

When I work one to one with people who are so called incurably ill I ask them to say "I am healing" and see how it feels. 
Then I work on that belief. 
You see you get what you believe you will.
This is critically important in healing. 
If you accept the death sentence and take no action, the inevitable will follow.
So I am following my own advice and healing this arthritis potential now before it gets a grip.

I am healing. What about you?

1 more days on water.

My jeans are hanging off, amazes my how quickly the body shrinks when you allow it.

I am not doing this for weight loss although getting rid of the menopausal middle will be a bonus!
Feels good to be nearing the end of water and just realised that it was 5.30pm on tuesday when I last ate so I can have a juice tomorrow night if I need one.

Yesterday was easy and I did not feel hungry. Had plenty water in the morning but did not even feel the need to drink much later.

Was awake a bit through the night as I was sleeping in with my grandson and he was not that well. So was aware of him being there plus kept thinking about the sensations in my body, it feels really light.
Then just before 6am I was up with both kids so really tired now and a bit stoned feeling.
Want to lie and watch the Voice and just snooze on the sofa.

Was hungry this avo, made dinner for the kids coming back, first time I actually cooked since I started. But I know the body is healing and I have been watching loads of inspirational things on you tube, the enormous benefits of fasting and the miraculous healings that occur when you give the body the chance.

One thing that is not that nice to talk about but is interesting. I ate a ton of veggies and some grilled chicken on the tuesday night, then nothing after that since. My bowels did not move and I figured I must have used up the energy. Then last night (friday) I took some bicarbonate of soda which is good for healing the gut and getting rid of fungus, and my bowels moved. That meal had been in my body 3 days! I suppose it had nothing to push it through, but its quite a thought.

Another of our 4 man team cracked yesterday and had a roll and ham and cup of tea. This is not for the faint hearted and if you do not have a clean diet you can get some severe detox symptoms, so you need to go easy.

If you are interested in fasting do some research. Juicing is a good way to start, then you can get into the way of feeling that empty stomach and ignoring it anyway.

Choose a time when you can lie down and soothe your symptoms. But understand they pass and usually quickly as in a day or so. It depends what the body has to release. It is the perfect time to see what your addictions are.
I had a headache first couple of days but day 3 an 4 its been fine. Bit of sinus pressure due to a cold but nothing to stop me. But hunger is defo here today. Early to bed then I am on the last day wooohoooo. I am not actually thinking juicing is a fast after this!

80% of you daily energy is used to digest your food, so my body has been given all that energy for the healing process.

Our health truly is our wealth, if you need any help with your nutrition, health and happiness give me a call.

Day 3 and what's occuring?
Well last night the end of day 2 I stood up fast then felt that low blood pressure feeling when you have to steady yourself for a bit before you do anything.
I decided to go and lie down as it was my last opportunity to do that for a few days!
I drank a gallon of hot water and lemon last night. That feeling in your stomach only goes away for me with hot water
not with cold.
This morning I still had a weak feeling but know that is classic detox and if I have some candida in my gut it can be harder for the body to process, so I was expecting that.
When I did a water fast many moons ago, none of this happened!
Even typing this I am aware of a slight effort in my hands, going to put a bit of sea salt in my water this avo.
There is no doubt this is a massive challenge, I have literally done maybe 20 fasts or more so I know what happens, and I know its good to go to bed early as the evening is the hardest.

Different times of your life can make it easier and harder, and if you have stuff to heal which I have, this can make the process more intense.

As a healer I need to try everything I can on mycellf then I come from a true place of knowing and from the heart when I recommend things, especially nutrition wise.

Good time to take stock and pay attention to how you treat the body. Nice hot baths, loving healing intentions, staying connected to why I am doing this, and using EFT, Sedona, affirmations, questions, healing codes, emotion codes along with sun salutes and headstands to gently assist the body in this massive cleanse.

We were a team of 4 one crashed out yesterday another struggling with detox symptoms due to a heavy workload and is moving to the juice fast. I am not ruling out juice or almond milk, simply because I need to look after the kids for 2 days, but I am taking it hour by hour. All good so far although will be ecstatic on monday for fresh juice! Right now juicing does not even seem like a fast, but it is and a deep one too.

Why I am doing this has to be my main focus. I have been working consciously on my healing for about 6 months but I decided to do this turbo boost.
Run it through my own advice. I am letting go of all inherited memories around arthritis.
What would it take for me to feel light, energetic, vibrant with crystal clarity on a daily basis.?
What else is possible for me as a healer?


AFFIRMATIONS
I am completely free from any stiffness, bloating, discomfort, aches and pains and my body feels light, vibrant and energetic. 
That is my affirmation, that is where I am going, not matter what it takes wooohoooooo.

I took a break of about an hour there while writing this and had a shower did a few things and I feel better again, everything speeding up, Nicky and Steesh about to leave me with the two wee ones so lets see how today goes, need to be free from fainting spells!

Here is a good little video of what to expect on a water fast.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FT2fpJKzTqE

So what is the mind saying today?
What is the body saying?
Today I drove for over 7 hours and went for a big shop so that took up most of my day.
My head has been a bit sore but I have also had a head cold and sinus pain, so not sure which is which.

I have 3 team mates on this with me and we are supporting and laughing with each other. One of them crashed
this afternoon, went to the fridge and then blacked out! It is tough, there is not doubt about it.

The only reason I am finding it fine is because I have done it so many times before and I know exactly what to expect.

Ofcourse you are hungry, ofcourse you would love to eat and ofcourse the mind will come up with all sorts of shit to get you to give in, that's the ego at work. You need to switch off and just know that's how it will be for the next 10 days. Plain and simple decision.

Drinking cold water does not ease the hunger for me it is a constant flow of hot water, occasionally with some lime or lemon.

I am looking after my grandchildren for the next 2 days and then I head down to Balinakill on sunday to prepare for my Retreat on Monday, That is the day I start on the juice and I am looking forward to that!
Doing a water fast makes a juice fast not feel like a fast!

I have felt a bit light this afternoon, not bad but just wanting to sit and not do much, but so far so good.

You just go to bed super early and then its the next day before you know it.
Its funny the things you crave, my friend is talking about crusty bread and lurpack butter!
For me its oranges and avocados!
Always the same for me, I go straight for an avocado when I eat again.

Luckily the time is flying for me right now, so I know this will be over before I know it :)

So todays the first day of the fast.
I usually fast a few times a year but on juice.
Years ago I did a water a fast, I had planned to do 2 days then it was easy to I did 6.
Everyone noticed my eyes although I never told anyone I was doing it, people noticed.
Back then I always wonted to be thinner and I liked changing my diet around to see what made me more
energetic and slim.
Now I don't like being to thin as it makes me look even older.
Now I care only about my health and how my body will cope on my last 30-40 years on the planet, if I live that long.

I have been aware of my joints, even had pain in them last year, I have alkalised my diet and most f that is gone but there is still the stiffness, actually more the awareness that they are there, which I have never had before.

Also my digestive system. I am healing my gut, there is still a bit of acid reflux which I want completely gone.
I had cut out high sulphur foods in an attempt to heal my gut and see if that was the trigger but to be honest it was so restrictive of the foods I normally ate, when I did not see a difference in a week I gave up.

I get a bloating in the abdomen that can be uncomfortable, this is high inflammation, I plan to heal this on the fast too.

I now understand that we have a place in the Universe and what the planets, moon and seasons are doing affect us. Lent is actually a great time to start this from an astrological perspective and I fully expect my intuition and connection to the Universe to be clearer and I am very excited about this part.

Also when you deprive yourself of the drugs (simple carbs, grains and sugars) your ego will come out for attention. Information will start to leave the cells, literally pinging itcellf in front of you whether you like it want it or not.

My cousin just asked me if I minded going a sitting in a Thai restaurant tonight with them, hmmmmmm dont think so, not sure how I will feel by that time, I know its all in the mind but not sure I want to smell thai food day one!

I still have this fatigue lingering over me, plus slight sinus sensations and dull headache with a little bit of the cold.

My immune system needs this, it needs to be rested and powered up.
Yoga, EFT, Healing codes, Emotion codes, Sedona, the full bhoona for me the next few weeks.

I know the body can heal itself and I feel I have been limping a bit recently.

Time for action. I have 3 other friends doing this with me, great to have the support and it will be really interesting to see what comes up.

Watch this space........I am healing 

So I want to go from this

To this!

Every now and again you need to pay more attention to the body and its needs.
About 18 years ago I changed a lot of things in my life and healed from chronic fatigue.
I still have to be careful as I can feel the tiredness creeping in if I misbehave and ignore the signs.
I take stock, clean up my act, review my life and release on all negatives while setting clear intentions and affirmations.
Over the years I have done many fasts, all but one have been on juice.
I have only ever done 1 water fast and it was a long time ago. I remember someone saying to me after 5 days that my eyes were sparkling. My eyes have not been sparkling for a while, they have been struggling to stay open most evenings.

The last few months I have been alkalising my diet, eating foods low in sulphur to avoid anything that could be kicking off an allergic response in the gut.
I have still been experiencing some reflux and have been reading and seeing reminders of fasting everywhere I turn.
So I have decided, lets do it on lent, the timing is perfect and there is not time like 3 days time. You need to have 3 run in and out days for a 10 day fast.

So water only and 2 caps of aloe vera, thats all I will have for 5 days starting wednesday. Then starting monday when I am on the Retreat I will start my juice fast. 4 pints of juice a day for 5 days that will take me nicely to friday, then on saturday morning I can move back onto fruits, maybe something tasty like roasted veggies and some hummous.

80% of your daily energy goes on digesting your food.
So no food for 10 days gives your body all that energy to power up. It gives the immune system a well deserved rest and boost.
When you deprive yourcellf of food your mind can start giving you jip. This is where my techniques will come in. I will tap and release on this being a spiritual, cleansing, enlightening, joyful experience! Lets see.
I allow this to be easy.
I am healing on every level.
What else is possible for me.

I will do yoga, I will meditate, I will release like a maniac, I will use the Healing and Emotion codes and I will also stay of all processed foods, carbs and sugar for another 30 days.

I have not challenged mycellf like this for a while, I used to always test and try different ways to eat, I enjoy the buzz and love to see the results.

You hear a lot of women talking about the menopause and to be honest I have escaped scott free really, but high inflammation has put me on the high risk category, I need to heal this to prevent any other crap from happening.

Watch this space.

 














The clinical path of disease

My dad got diagnosed with lung cancer.
He had been failing, we could see that, but he had very painful arthritis in his joints so we assumed thats what was slowing him down.
Then he had an really annoying cough. My mum nagged until he went to the doctor. 
He got an xray, they saw something dodgy, he got called up to "get the results."

We all know what that means. By chance or divine intervention I flew into Glasgow the night before the news was to be delivered. I surprised him at the hospital when he arrived with my brother and the 3 of us lined up in chairs in the doctors office to await the news.

Now it is no secret I despise the pharmaceutical companies and their drug pushing, their lies, how they get away with what they do and that people die because the other safe options are kept from them.

But I have also had to accept that most people like it and feel safe in it, and that is their absolute right.
I had already watched my mum being poisoned nearly to death by chemo, and my cousin. The two of them bald as coots hugging each other gave me severe chest pains, but this is the system, this is what most of us trust and believe in, so I have learned to competely detach from it and just watch.

BIZARRE
How bizarre it was the 3 of us sitting in a line, this doctor a complete stranger actually knowing what the shadow was before us and now about to tell us our family fate.
Dad walked in there, no sticks, pain in his ankles but apart from that looking pretty great for his age.
The Doctor arrived and although you already knew, you really knew when she looked at him, the pity, head to the side and delivered the shot "it's bad news...it's lung cancer."
She did the "clinical chat" then she tried to soften the blow in a genuinely loving and kind manner. She knows I thought, she knows that telling him will kill him, but she had to explain what that Xray showed, that is her job.

"We know people with a good positive attitude can live for a long time with something like this. If your wife had not made you come for the Xray then you would not even know you had it."
All true, but coming straight after the bullet, it washed right over my dads head. Except on the way home in the car he asked me "What exactly is a good positive attitude"? Bloody scientists, always wanting to know the facts.
I thought about it for quite a few minutes then explained, "its when you don't believe them"
That did not wash with him, obviously, he 100% believed them and from that minute on he visually started dying.

BELIEFS
 Beliefs. We now understand how they can kill or cure us. The placebo and the nocebo effect are a well known phenomena, even Henry Ford said it, "Whether you think you can or you can't you're right".. 
If the mind believes it truly deep down in the subconscious, so it will be. But we can change that.

5 weeks later I had intervened as much as I could, Fresh juice daily, earthing sheet for anti inflammatory energy, oxygenated water, hands on healing from me, small steps that I did more for me than him. 
He still ate food that was NOT medicine but I saw that I could only inflict small changes or I would make a bad situation worse

We went back for his next scan to target the area for radiation. I wholeheartedly disagreed with this but also knew it was a lifeline for him, the very fact that they were giving him treatment meant there was hope of some sort. (In his mind, well that's what I hoped)
Imagine my astonishment when they saw changes in his lungs. The photo that had been a snapshot of his energy system on that second of that day was different to the photo of the snapshot of his energy system today. 


They were confused. It did not look as bad. I wasn't. I was over the moon. 
"Can you see now dad! You can change this? In only 5 weeks with these small changes it has improved?" 
The result of this ironically was that they were able (with the best intentions in the world) to give him stronger radiation.


He asked the Doctor how long he had. He refused to tell him, again kindly saying he genuinely could not say. If it follows the clinical path then, I would say go out and do all the things that you want to do, but I tell everyone that.

That got me thinking. Never at any stage had anyone mentioned nutrition, daylight, emotional release, fear control, NOTHING. Not one thing that is on my healing plan got mentioned. The only thing that got talked about was radiation. 
Plus my dad never went outside again after the radiation, this is a death sentence itself, we NEED fresh air.
IF IT FOLLOWS THE CLINICAL PATH..........

Do you see what that means? 

It means if you do nothing, then they can tell you roughly what will happen. 
But more and more now people are taking action themselves and avoiding and body swerving the clinical path, at least for a while. 
We are all going to die?
The clinical path is the path of doing nothing. Allow the disease to progress, do nothing, believe, accept then die. 
That's it. 
That's what my dad chose to do and I knew that is what he would do. 
Maybe you would choose something different if you were ever in this position.
Your thoughts, feelings, emotions, BELIEFS, nutrition, connection with Nature, the Planet and others all affect your health.
FAITH AND BELIEF affect your healing. 
Taking away hope kills people, especially older, weaker, traditional ones.
Would my dad have lived longer had he understood he could have changed it?
Maybe not, this is not about living forever, I believe we all have our time.

FEAR KILLS
This is about fear. 
Killing people with fear. 
Fear of the clinical path, which is only one of the roads out of here. 
He chose that one, maybe without knowing, maybe he was tired, a bit of both I think.
You can choose another path but it takes as much dedication and faith as turning up for chemo or radiation.
You have to make the right choices. That can be challenging if you do not understand your programming, beliefs and subconscious mind. 
I can help you and guide you with that, but you need to do the rest.
Are you up for it?
Which path will you take?