When you eat determines your health?
Last year I let go of some boundaries that led to me gaining weight, losing energy and zest for life.
I had been nursing my mum, then she died and I was in the family home, grieving, alone, in bullshit lockdown and I really lost all interest and went into survival.
This is perfectly normal when you are sad, but at some point you know you are going to have to reign it in and get back in control. It is the first time in my life I felt alone, it was a powerful understanding of what it must be like to be stuck in your home, either caring or being cared for, and hoping other, kind, human beings will come visit you.
So I thought I'll go on the 18-6 intermittent fasting protocol, its stress free, easy and powerful then I put a challenge on facebook to see if anyone wanted to join me, far more to sort macells out though, than to help others.
Turns out a lot of people were in the same boat and on the 25th Jan we set off on a 2 week intermittent fasting challenge.
I knew those who stuck to it would lose weight, but I was not banging on about what to eat, just the fact that everything that you do eat, happens within the chosen window. I was normally doing 11am-5pm, that's easy for me at home during the week, and works without any stress.
Fat makes you full
I did a video on eating more fat, because that creates cellular expansion and satiety. Essential rule, choose a time frame that you can achieve without stress and eat good quality foods that ensure you will not be hungry.
Then success is guaranteed.
Time restricted eating (TRE) is a simple wee exercise that anyone can do without changing anything except the time you eat.
This takes the top 2 reasons/excuses for not taking care of ourcellves out of the equation
1. Im too tired
2. I dont have time
As a nutritionist who gave up practising due to the fact people do not change what they eat for very long, I was blown away by the responses!
Never have I heard so many testimonials for anything online regarding food andr dietary led behaviours, which are traditionally just not going to work long term.
Here are some of the testimonies I got, you can go into the events on the Heal Scotland facebook page and see them there for yourcellf, but I have picked them out to save you the time.
Some of these came in the first week and the rest within 4 weeks of intermittent fasting, some 18-6 and some
16-8 but you can do 12-12 and still get results, Just start somewhere.
Between eating, breathing and cold baths not to mention no alcohol, I am feeling fantastic, feel a lot calmer in everyday life, anxiety has fallen, no craving at all, weight going down, overall so much better.
When I eat I go for healthier food which is a complete mind change - I would normally go for something sweeter or junkier- the breathing exercises are making me feel calmer and I feel more energised.
Ah yes it does that's wonderful! I'm continuing this even after the challenge is over because I'm enjoying how good I feel. My clothes are fitting better and some have gotten a little baggy
My last eat at 6pm tonight, roasted veg and goats cheese pasta im enjoying my food sooo much more! A totally mindful experience. And hunger not called once. Cups of tea helping break the hand to mouth eating habbit!
Started the intermittent fasting challenge .Only doing 16 /8 but it works for me .Some weight loss ( very gradual but I don't have too much to lose ) but no more eating during the night ,if I'm up cup of tea only and only up if really can't stay in bed any longer .
No longer ruminating on what might happen in the future . Positive about future and exploring all the links etc that you send with great interest .
So a very big thank you Lilia .Heal Scotland really has made a big difference in my life and I'm encouraging others.to use it too .
Being protective of my diet I couldn’t lose weight until you introduced me to Intermittent Fasting - thank you. I’m telling you this story because I want you to know that your work is so very important- I suffered for 50 years and would be on all sorts of medication if I had left it to my Dr. Please keep going, especially to educate the children
I am completely blown away with all the facts from the “live session” yesterday. I think this is my new learning subject. Thank you for setting up this page.
Hi there I have just seen a live and omg I am blown away with the information. I have suffered with mental health for years and took in my own healing journey.
Doing great - loving this new way of eating and nose breathing has been something I’d never really thought about before. Feels good. Finding it all very easy. Feel so much healthier big thank you
Loving it! Its definitely a new way of life. I had last weekend off it, mostly due to alcohol and felt rubbish. So back on it all week the 18hrs been no problem, body happy!
Wish I started fasting years ago, before I began eating my emotions
PRETTY IMPRESSIVE EH?
More people die of overeating now than do of famine, and nobody does this deliberately.
Our lack of understanding over our own bodies is incredible, we need to be better educated AND take full responsability for it.
A great place to start is 12 -12 especially if you have never fasted before or it terrifies you.
Emotional eating due to bullying, abuse, trauma in the past is common.
Wanting to look a certain way and believing you are ugly if you don't is also common.
Believing you have tried everything, feeling overwhelmed and thinking you can never be your desired weight is also common.
Thinking even if you did lost weight you would never be able to keep it off is normal.
Feeling you have to give up all the things you love in order to be slim and healthy is also common.
But that is all subconscious beliefs, programming, inherited behaviours and limitation.
You can let go of all the emotional clap trap that keeps you stuck.
EFT is a simple way to do this.
But forget all of that for now and just focus on the time.
Golden rule, no food 3 hours before bed, only water or herbal tea.
Give it a few short weeks and FEEL the difference.
You are probably saying, I do that anyway?
Write everything you eat and drink down and the times. See if you are being 100% honest with yercells.
Oh I just had a wee biscuit, blah, blah, cheating blah, it will not work.
Time to own our power, be honest and sort our cells out.
Be the shining example in your family, your kids will mimic you eventually.
You got the power, you are the power.
Who decided some plants are out of bounds for us?
Think about it. They grow around us, and some old men decided we were not allowed to have them, stew them, dry them and eat them and if we did it would be a crime? I mean seriously?
3 years ago I set off for a 6 month trip round S America.
Nearly everyone I met had tried or were going to try the plant medicines there. Ayahuasca, San pedro the cacao leaf and plant along with the usual smoking stuff.
I had no intention of trying it because I had spoken to a lot of people who had done it over the years and it looked certain that one of your “journeys” would be to hell, and frankly I’ve been there enough, unintentionally, so I was not attracted.
Then sitting at the pool one day, this gorgeous young canadian, told me he had seen God and had a 6 hour orgasm when he did ayahuasca so I thought, why not give it a go. $80, on my doorstep, I thought well Ill try anything once.
It was a nice experience, no demons and I felt good for days after, but not a life changing experience and I thought I’d call it a day.
Then last year I had the opportunity to try changa.
Changa (/ˈtʃɑːŋɡɑː/) is a DMT/MAOI-infused smoking blend. Typically, extracts from DMT-containing plants are combined with a blend of different herbs and ayahuasca vine and/or leaf to create a mix that is 20–50% DMT, akin to a smokeable ayahuasca.
This is done through a bong, (a glass vase with a spout to draw the smoke in) which I was rubbish at because I dont smoke, and I was instructed to inhale it all at once to get the full effect.
I had about 5 mad drags on it to get as much smoke in as I could, then I heard a rush, saw some fractals and suddenly I arrived in an extremely bright place that was completely silent.
I was in some place far away, totally disorientated, had no idea where I was, it was so white and silent after the rushing sound, and there was a female being, asking me if I remembered things. Which I didnt. I was not sure if she was saying remember what we taught you, or remember what you have to teach,
I was trying to get my head around it when suddenly I became aware of the room, again, then into the matrix again, and back, slowly I landed back here, and I started laughing and laughing, it was truly incredible.
Again for days I felt blissful, my brainwaves clearly enjoying the medicine. I had made a clear intention that I wanted to leave my body, I had been trying to meditate and breathe my way out there for years, so I got my wish, wherever the hell I went, it was like no other place I could remember.
This was a wham, bam, thank you mam experience that was super cool, I loved the journey, but I did not come back wiser.
When it comes to dose, this is important to understand, it dictates how "far" you go. There would appear to be 3 stages, the fractals, the tunnel then the breakthrough, in to other realms. I broke through, which was what I had intended, but most would build up to that point.
Then recently I did an expanding consciousness ceremony which had a concoction of plant leaves in it.
This was done in a safe setting with experts. The stage was set and we were held, it was very special.
This was the biggy.
We did yoga, breath work, then paid our respects to the drink and set our intention for the journey.
My intention was, show me how to help improve our health picture, move people out of suffering and show me what I need to do to be the cleanest and most effective vehicle possible.
Then we drank it and had a chat with each other about what we all wanted out of the experience.
Lying down you wonder, what the hell is going to happen next, waiting to see what the medicine wanted to show us.
I know it is not always a pleasant process, so a healthy respect and an awareness that darker things can come up, is always there in the background.
This process can take 3-4 hours.
Bathed in unconditional love for hours
It is truly impossible to put into words what happened.
What I saw and how I felt, it is something you will never describe with mere words.
Beauty beyond belief, unconditional love, the Planet and the souls without the stories, my mum and dad, saying over and over, remember, remember, they were young and laughing, it was again, hilarious, like all the weight in the world has melted from your shoulders.
The message was clear, show them, teach them, same message from the changa.
This journey seemed gentle, loving, unfolding and guided, the past fell away and all stress dissolved.
Your brain is rewired. The medicine acts like neurotransmitters that overide the past, it is truly remarkable.
I had binged on plant medicine documentaries before and after, trying to get my head around what is actually happening and can we help people overcome horrific trauma, PTSD, drug resistant depression, anxiety, addiction and more, with the wonder of nature?
There is so much research, some of it over 100 years old.
This gift from nature, has to be respected and revered but when used wisely can be transformational for those who dare to go there.
Plants have been used for ever with indigenous people to help solve problems and heal the physical, emotional and spiritual.
It seems crazy to me that you would pop a pill or take a vaccine without a clue whats in it, yet eating or drinking a plant terrifies the living daylights out you, so that you will not even try.
We are so conditioned to the mainstream narrative, we will not even open our mind to 100 years of scientific evidence.
Herbal medicines are powerful, but we need to understand measurements and doses or we can get in trouble and end up feeling crap.
The research shows that 70% of people have positive to miraculous experiences and it lasts well over a year, while those who have more of a negative experience, it goes away after the session.
The other thing worth knowing is that it can take 1-3 sessions to be healed from the plants. No repeat prescriptions.
Tons of studies on all conditions here.
Being part of nature we know that there are no accidents here, she does not make mistakes or provide anything that is not meant to be here. I completely trust and respect what has been provided for us.
Then man comes in and processes and legislates our plants for huge money while lining the ludicrously fat pockets of Bill Gates, Fauci, pharmaceutical companies and the like.
A community medicine man, witch or shaman used to take care of everyone in the community regardless of wealth or standing. How things have changed.
Some people think that you should listen blindly to the "experts" as you are not as well educated as them, this is another power grab, and nothing could be further from the truth. Your body will guide you, and often the meds can make you worse. More and more of us are waking up to that, including doctors, but for now there is nothing much else on offer unless you are rich.
Nature or very rich, powerful men, who do you trust?
One of the top causes of death in the western world, is prescribed drugs.
The vaccine safety campaigners are ridiculed and vilified by pro vaxxers.
Despite the fact that big pharma has indemnity and there is a vaccine damage board, questioning the wisdom is socially unacceptable.
It is a known phenomena that people cling to their beliefs, and the one that is put in first, (vaccines make you healthier) is the one most of us will not even question, as we see reality as fixed, and questioning our beliefs opens all sorts of unknowns, and we do not want that, it makes us feel insecure.
Changing the narrative
To move the narrative on plant medicine from dangerous, hippy taking madness, to potentially powerful medicine is the same. Who is going to want to believe that when they have clung to the "drugs are bad" narrative their whole life, with great pride.
Thinking they are superior because they have refrained from partaking. Or even worse, lying about it and judging others.
Yet a plant or fungi that mother nature provides is hailed as dangerous as the devil and even worse criminalised and hidden from the masses.
Here is the science. It breaks my heart to think of all the suffering that could be alleviated, and maybe some of our loved ones would still be here if the power of these plants had been properly explored.
Here is the science if you want to do your own research.
Potentially helpful for depression,, quitting smoking, OCD, anxiety, trauma, alcohol addiction, cocaine addiction, and cancer-related or other end-of-life psychological distress.
See more science here
Once again I am waking up to the power all around us, when we open our eyes, hearts and minds.
And thanks to the internet we are now getting to the incredible research of our plants and fungi for treating anxiety, drug resistant depressions, PTSD, trauma and those diagnosed incurable and terminal.
Now THAT is an idea worth exploring.
My 2nd Kambo experience
The sacred frog
Frog, toad and plant medicines are having a huge surge in popularity right now, as many of us on this Planet look to nature for our healing and expansion of our consciousness.
Bufo, Ayuhuasca, psillocybin, marajuana to name a few of the famous ways to experience the other dimentions of life.
Kambo is different from the others as you do not lose yourcellf in the way you can with other medicines. You are aware of everything that is going on, there is nothing to fear, except feeling nausious and being sick, and it only last around 30 minutes at most.
So worst case scenario, its over before you know it.
But it is not just the purging that creates the healing effect, the excretion contains peptides, here is a bit about the science from Planet Kambo
Peptides bind to receptor sites on the outer surface of biological cells, and this binding serves a variety of functions in the body and brain. Often they act as a form of message or signal, causing the cell to change what it’s doing. For example to manufacture and release more of a particular hormone or neurotransmitter, or the opposite. In this way they can influence a variety of biological processes, ranging from moods and thought patterns in the brain to muscle contractions and digestion in the body.
Now with our understanding of the gut biome and how it makes us feel, it seems obvious that a clean up of the inners is going to make you feel better, plus the signalling system works with the bodys intelligence and heals on many levels.
First time I had 3 gateways put on my arm, a beginners dose which was the perfect way to start.
This time I had 5 put on my leg. Jinty did one test spot and watched me before she administed the full dose.
Before we started I had to drink 2 litres of water. I had to get her to put some warm in it as I struggle drinking ice cold water unless its 30 degrees. This made it way easier for me to get that amount down.
Then the medicine was put on top of the gateways (burned skin) and it tingled a bit more from the burn than the medicine I think.
Then I got this warm glow all over like before, but it was stronger this time.
After a few short minutes I started to purge, it happened spontaneously, and it was good to get that 2 litres of water out tbh. I got a bit of cramp in my abs but it wore off quickly as I got the water up.
It sounds disgusting, but you are going for bile, and we got it. It came from my boots, I could feel it working perfectly. Then I drank some more water, Jinty did something at the gateways and I purged again.
I dont mind being sick but obviously feeling sick aint great. But as it is such a short process you know it will be over soon and you will feel better immediately it wears off.
Jintys cabin is a fab place to do it, you are looking out onto the hills, she played music and sang and played her drum, it was wonderful, the words and the thanks to the frog.
I was fully supported and loved her passion for this ceremony. Watching people throwing up, well it would not be my preferred job. But as with Jennifer that I did my first one with, they know that deep healing is taking place and it feels like a sacred process and they are happy to be of service.
When it passed I lay down beside the log burner, the peace with a bit of tiredness set in. She gave me tea, some snacks and a delicious plate of vegetable soup and I was back in the game.
I came home and chilled the rest of the day, then had a magic sleep and woke up with clarity and purpose today.
Huge thanks to the frog and Jinty for this experience, I will definitely be doing it again.
Not only is it great to have this in Scotland, but in Argyll in this beautiful setting, we are blessed.
This is Jintys facebook page with her contact details here, she also does a clinic in Edinburgh.
Why would you take this medicine?
Inidgenous people have been using it forever and now we are catching on.
Awaken the Witch/Shaman
Scotland's wild medicine retreat
For decades now I have been bleating on like an old sheep about our power to heal.
Some try for a short time, then end up back at the old habits, beating themselves up, not really understanding why.
If we want things to change, we have to change things.
Whether you want your body to be slimmer, less toxic, more vital and alive, that very thought insinuates right away, a need for change.
Then to the neuroscience. We wire our brains by repetition and practise. Good and bad behaviours have come from this process.
Thinking the same crap over and over and over, day after day after day, and then wondering why we are the way we are. Nobody thought to point this out to us.
Did you know that most days we think exactly the same things as the day before, and the day before?
For lasting change we need to do the good stuff and eventually the bad stuff literally disolves and disappears, the neurals pathways unglue and fall off. Don't use it, lose it.
You want to be an olympic athlete or concert pianist, you need to decide, create a plan, then practise over and over, even when you cannot be arsed. If you dont, you will not reach your goal, if you do, you will.
This aint rocket science, it's something we have all done and continue to do, albeit often mindlessly.
My point is, knowledge of what to do does not heal you, action does.
Embodying and truly having the experience is the new black
Know how to reconnect to nature, then do it, over and over.
Clare Holohan Clare is a qualified medical herbalist, massage therapist and clinical aromatherapist
A few months ago I went to Lochaline to stay with Clare Holohan a medical herbalist, intuitive healer, massage therapist and all round incredible human being, who actually walks her walk AND talk. We had decided to collaborate on a book, which we now know is called "Scotland's Wild Medicine"
She pretty much lives off the land, grows, not just her food but her medicine too.
Goats, sheep, chickens, herbs, flowers, plants, vegetables and a huge shed for drying, fermenting and creating the magical potions that help her clients to heal.
I have met Clare a few times and loved every second of my time with her, I bullldozed her first course with so many questions I had to force mycellf to shut up to give others a chance to speak.
She is a walking, talking encyclopedia. If you are in interested in the power of plants, trees, mushrooms, herbs and all other Mother Natures offerings, then you have to get on one of her courses.
She looks at the ground, which seems like a bit of grass and weeds, then she picks something up and explains it's incredible powers. I watched her explain the science, emotional and spiritual aspects of plants to a variety of people at the Heal Scotland community, a french doctor and armed forces soldier, old, young and the rest, each intrigued to learn how the plants affect the body.
3 day in Lochaline to brainstorm the book
3 days with her and SUDDENLY I have been awakened to the magic and power all around my feet.
How did I get to 60 and not know this stuff?
The big companies have taken our mothers bounties, processed them and now sold them back to us for HUGE profit.
Time to cut out the middle man.
Watching Clare, seeing her embodied, living it, working with nature and its medicinal power, defo awoke the witch in me.
You can get the opportunity to be with her too, let her bring the forest alive for you.
In the ancient oak forest at Portavadie we will forage, reconnect, intuit, bathe, meditate and then you will learn how to make food and remedies.
How to let go of everyting that no longer serves you, and how to utilise the 5 elements for higher levels of vitality and joy.
We have launched a kickstarter campaign to get the ebook, book and retreat out to our brothers and sisters who love nature.
Please share if you are intrigued.
Due to the crazy virus we are unable to gather in the stunning location of Portavadie this year for our annual Goddess Gathering.
Our theme and intention is Radical Heart Opening.
What does that mean, lets sort it out rather than thinking is some hippy dippy nonsensical notion.
Our body is an energy field, this is science this is quantum physics. Everything in the Universe is energy, including us, our thoughts, feelings, beliefs, perceptions, emotions and action are all just energy.
We have energy centres all over the body that were made known to us initially by the chinese. And when we eventually managed to photograph them, we then could no longer deny their exsistence and announced them real. Good old western philosophy.
Meridians and chakras as they are called are used in acupuncture, acupressure, EFT, reflexology, reiki, access consciousness, I could go on but you get the idea. These energy lines run from the feet up through the body, invisible to the naked eye. The major chakras run up the middle of the body from the root to the crown, and there are minor ones in the hands, and other areas.
This energy fileds draws information in and sends it out. Disease is in the energy field long before it manifests physically, in the organs underneath the centres. Different emotional experiences are drawn in through different energy centres, affecting different organs. Partical and wave. We can see the particle, ie matter, material and the wave is invisible to the eye.
Dr Joe Dispenzas work is focussed on changing material by affecting the wave, sometimes instantly or over time, if you repeat this, you will change the body, simply because you affected the wave, with your mind in meditation, using intention, attention and trust.
Our heart is one of the most fascinationg organs in the body. We used to think, and some still do, its main function was to pump blood.
Wow the understory of the century. This magnificent pulsing organ is sending out and receiving waves all day long. It sends information to the brain and the gut. It takes information from them too. It feels the information often long before the event and scientific studies have shown this, it knows whats coming, its intuitive.
It also strives to protect us from danger and this is what we are going to be working on at the gathering.
If you have been hurt, maybe over and over, you may have a heart wall. Metaphorically speaking we put up a wall to keep danger/hurt out, but the polarity of that is the wall stops the energetic flow and our connection to the Divine. (use your own word here) the Field.
So we have a blocked drain. Things cannot “flow”.
It takes courage to open your heart. Especially if you feel betrayed by life and other humans and maybe God.
To understand clear, clean connection we need to remove the blockages.
Letting go and moving into higher states of being, feeling and doing helps us connect but it takes courage, sometimes a lot of it.
But greater levels of joy and unconditional love are available to us all, its just your heart has to be open to connect.
If we want to experience these frequencies then we MUST let go of the story, the past,old wounds and rise up like the divine feminine beings we are to stand and bathe in the love that is there for all of us if we have the ovaries to go there.
Of ourcellves and others is essential.
We are living in extraordinary times. We can go with trepidation, fear, expeciting the worst, or we can go with courage and peace and forge a new way to be.
Its a good idea to get some of your friends together for the saturday and sunday so that you can really immerse yourcellf in the process. Come and join us at the New Lanark hotel they have great rates and it looks stunning, this will give you the space and time away, but you will still need to join us via zoom. We may have a bigger room, we will keep you posted.
Lilia will kick off on the Saturday at 10am. Breathing, letting go, into the heart wall with the emotion codes, tapping and the sedona method, get ready to fly.
Then Julia will take over with kundalini yoga followed by a phenomenal gong bath.
Sunday kicks off with Alina who will dive deep into the principals and core of amazing relationships, reclaiming your sexuality and self-mastery, introducing you to her unique program - “ Return to Innocence”
Finishing off is Jennifer who has been facilitating Initiation Ceremonies over the past few years, assisting incredible beings to step into power and potential, igniting ancient power and modern understanding. She will hold hold ceremony on Sunday afternoon, initiating goddesses into a new realm of understanding and growth.
Are you ready and willing to radically open your heart?
Get your ticket here, early bird finishes 15th September.
I did my first kambo session
What is Kambo?
Its an ancient indigenous medicine taken from the venomous amazonian sapo tree frog.
When applied onto the skin kambo activates a radical physical, emotionial and mental cleansing process.
How does it work?
You have 3-5 tiny burns from incense on your skin, just enough to take the top layer off so that the body can absorb the medicine through the skin. This can be done on the arm or ankle and it can leave a slight scar so be mindful of that if it bothers you, when you are deciding where to have it. This is one of the things you decide before you start.
If you have any heart, stroke, major health issues you will probably not be able to try this healing ritual.
So the medicine is administered on top of the 3 areas of skin exposed, you can feel it fairly quickly, it was pleasant for me as my upper body heated up.
It can take up to 10 mins to feel nauseaous.
I never got the sick feeling so I just started drinking pints of water so that you have something to purge when the time comes.
Drink the water, then throw it back up along with anything that is in there.
You do this over and over for maybe 8-10+ pints the idea is to get down to the bile, which can happen quickly or slowly, no right or wrongs there. Like most things, every experience is different with quite a few variables.
If you dont like being sick then this is not for you, but if you are happy to purge then it can be very powerful, a bit like putting your digestive tract in a washing machine.
It felt to me like I was giving my insides the best clean they have ever had. I wouldnt say I like being sick, but I do like the feeling of peace afterwards. I actually never really felt nauseous at all, I had to use my fingers to stimulate the gag reflex, guided and encouraged by Jen just to keep going until you got the water back up, you need to be prepared to just get on with it. Pour water in, regurgitate it out, repeat until the medicine wears off, around 30 minutes.
There is a dosage to be considered. How much? Jen made this decision for me, it was perfect for the first time. There was no suffering involved just the idea being sick infront of your mate, but funnily enough because it is just water, there is no smell (I had fasted from the night before) or revolting stuff, a bit of bile eventually but water in water out, simples.
Before we started the frog medicine I had rappe.
A tobacco that gets blown up your nose into your sinuses. I have done this several times in S America, but this was wayyyyyyy better.
Jen administered the rappe which stings initially, I had a mild to medium dose of a brand you can get here.
Top quality gear, always the best idea when putting it into your body.Then she read a prayer, it was the nicest prayer I have ever heard, calling in all the energies we need to assist in the healing. We had already discussed my intention for the ceremony, which was simply guide me through this madness and show me clearly what my purpose here is, and please heal all the aches in my body.
I have a strong faith, which has been tested, but I know its the only place I can go to be free. Trust in the process and stay alert for instructions how to navigate these mental waters.
After the prayer I could feel tears running down my face, she played some beautiful music and I just sat with the feeling, putting out my clear intention to heal anything in my body that needed it, Jen talked me through intentions and goals/dreams, it was beautiful.
I was sitting on the sofa for this part, then went down on the floor on a yoga mat to start the frog medicine.
Incense is used to make the marks on the skin, its a tiny sting of no consequence in terms of pain, then that gets wiped off, the medicine was scraped off a stick and 3 wee dots of it were put on top of the areas of prepared skin.
There was a slight stinging and very quickly I started to feel it. I was thinking who the hell thought this one up? Expecting to feel sick I sat, waiting for whatever was going to happen, but only warm nice feelings came. Jen kept checking in with me.
I was a bit surprised that it was pleasant, still expecting to feel sick any moment. But it never happened, I drank the pints of water as directed then purged up, no drama, just an inner cleanse of pretty monumental size.
The frog part took around 25 mins and I was done, when I drank my last pint, it just would not come back up, the body wanted to keep it, so that was it.
Jen is uber intuitive and connected so she was tuning in and letting me know things were releasing. I then felt a bit cold and a tiny bit shaky, no big deal, but I was aware of it.
Jen held the space beautifully, it is very important to do this with someone you completely trust and who can keep you on track.
Aftewards I was tired but calm and very zen. My friends had told me they felt very alert and clear afterwards, but right then I just wanted to lie down and have a gong bath, which is something you will be able to do in the not to distant future.
The morning after I am flying to Malta and writing about this experience.
Would I do it again, most definitely. There are many benefits to it, and unlike other plant medicines there are no trips or hallucinations, it's over and done with before you know it, and the worst thing that can happen is nothing and the best thing can be untold revelations and healing.
Like every protocol that is availble to us on the healing, evolutionary journey, you need to tune in to your intuition and feel if its right for you. Its all about timing, it could be the time or not, only you know.
If like me you like to try everything then this is definitely one for you.
It obviously has an effect on your digestive tract, cleaning, clearing and stimulating bile.
This can kick all the organs into life, reminding them of the jobs they have to do.
So many bodies are stagnant due to our lifestyle, so a reset is the gentle reminder it needs.
Mentally I really enjoyed the process, logically it just made sense, and as always I thought of all the people who could benefit.
One problem people have, even with cold water and coffee enemas, is that they will not even try it. Too far out the comfort zone and possibly no real understanding of the power of these protocols to help our bodies heal, to take the weight off the burden we have put on them, putting our disgust and resistance to the side and just feeling into the fear and letting it go.
Is Kambo for you, I have no idea, but what I do know it almost all of us need healing, if you do not pay attention to your eco system it will stagnate and die. This can take decades but it will happen.
Death, I believe is not to be feared, but having a toxic overburdened body is.
If you do not look after your body, then someone else will have to.
Who is that going to be?
Today 2 days later I feel great and have definitely had clarity and made clean, clear decisions.
I wrote 3 blogs on the plane, stuff was just flowing.
I will be doing this again for sure.
Contact Jen here https://www.withjennifer.com/kambo-ceremonies
Check out what others are saying.
Huge love and gratitude to the frog, and to all the animals, plants and medicines here to help us wake up.
The Bubble Festival of Change - what a week!
How it all began in Malta for me
Its now over 8 years since I first moved to Malta, saw the phrase on a menu “Why Not, helping to raise the vibration of the Planet.”
Why was that significant? I had written down that goal a few years before.
When you let go, your vibration goes up. I figured if I can teach enough people to let go, their vibration would go up and that would raise the vibration of the Planet. Seemed logical to me.
Why Not is an NGO run by a crowd of spiritual, young entrepreneurial thinking Maltese who wanted to help instigate change through events, education, workshops and festivals.
I emailed them, saying I have no idea what you are up to, but I have to connect due to our shared “Mission.” The following week I was at a meeting withou a dozen young Maltese at crystal rock near surfside for my first introduction to their vision and passions.
This is where my journey in the exciting new metaphysical world truly began.
Someone in the UK said to me, you are very out the closet with your spirituality, its because I spent 6 years here learning, experiencing and being.
My belief that Malta was an old folks island where people came to stay warm in the winter, could not have been further off the mark.
Since that time where we spent a lot of time meditating, hanging on the beach, at the Why Not shop, and living on a shoe string, everyones lives have taken different turns, but its clear after spending a week with most of these people again, we are still all on the same page when it comes to other humans and the Planet.
Im not sure I have ever felt so much common love in one place, sounds uber corny I know, but it really had such an incredible vibe.
The peace grove had workshops that started at 8am everyday until aroun 11 at night, even with a couple of slumber parties!
At the beginning of the there was one other stage, then come Thursday another 2 stages, food stalls, eco market and many, many more people.
I chose the glamping option, 7 nights in a teepee with mattreSs and fairy lights, plus full festival ticket for 140 euros. To say it is the bargain of the century is an understatement.
I know glamping or camping is not for everyone, you have to be able to sleep through a certain amount of noise, but that is no problem for me. After travelling in S America, this was still luxury for me, plus you have nice beaches and restaurants on either side if you need a proper toilet and some animal protein.
It got a bit colder at night so perfect for sleeping, but after sunrise forget it, like a sauna.
There were individual artists and bands from all over the World along with top dj's and acts.
I did around 4 workshops a day, usually in the am when my brain works best, then off to the beach for a couple of hours and back up for music and dance, 7 days of that, meeting and sharing with loads of new people, it was truly magic.
Not a cop or bouncer in sight. Obviously a bit of acid and weed around, but no agro, loads of cuddling, loving, laughing, lots of very gorgeous peeps and all this under the sea air and sun.
Its lovely to see people really let go, be in the moment, with the music, the festival, not giving a shit about the stresses of the “real world” outside.
Duncan F the creator of this festival, the heart behind it, is a humble gorgeous man, who uses this medium to help charities. He told me years ago, this is his giving back.
Volunteering and giving back was not something I saw a lot of in Scotland way back, especially in the young communities, its so nice to be brought up with that belief of everything being for the benefit of all.
It has got me really excited about the Goddess Gathering which is like a festival, bunch of girls, workshops, seminars, laughs all under one roof for 4 days, its really is the best way to relight your fire for life. Www.goddessgatheringportavadie.com
We are planning a festival for Heal Scotland next year, hopefully last week in August at Kilburn Castle, I am buzzing with the potential for this, we plan to have 2000 people breathing together.
Imagine what can be achieved when egos are dropped and a common purpose and vision is shared.
There was an enormous amount of work involved in pulling the Bubble together, that takes commitment, skills, experience, teamwork, dedication and patience.
Festivals are the way ahead to teach, inspire, connect and create a World that encourages love
Not an easy mission it turns out, haha or is that bo-hoo.
WFT did I sign up to? An out the blue opportunity to go away and spend 3 months to see if I could be better, healthier. ‘Heal yourself! Let go of the old patterns of pain and dramas.
A 3 month intensive healing retreat deep in the heart of Scotland’s ancient Kilmartin Glen Lands. A pilot programme opportunity using all my fav writers, scientists, nutritionists, speakers, innovators, in their specific fields for well over twenty years and here was an opportunity to steep in it and see if after 40 years of working on myself I could at last make a breakthrough. Possibly at age 63 the last change by hearing those influenced by my favs!
I feel I’ve been stuck for many years after reading all, researching this, trying that and the other new ways of healing, being, releasing and although many helped and I trained and practiced a few therapies, I stopped since my second son was born and other physical and emotional infringements gathered momentum. I feel I gave up on any real change from where I was and really had consigned myself to old age and limiting mobility, no money for eating out, treats and holidays. Being on benefits was the way it was and is.
So after a message of an opportunity to go and 4/5 days to get ready/cancel all I was doing. Volunteering at Galgael Glasgow and local hospice charity shop, plus my constant sanity of Philosophy Class once a week for past 6/7 years. All had to be dropped to go.
What can I say now we’re 7 weeks, nearly 8 weeks in, apart from ‘This is not an easy mission’, this taking responsibility for our thoughts, words and actions. This being accountable to our own soul for the trickery and distractions we used to justify and validate our perceptions, our reality. How we will fight and kick, huff and puff to hold it tight. How we think we’re sorted and it’s everyone else that has the problems. Our ‘this is just the way I am and nothing much can change that’ or the only if something or somebody will change and everything will be better. What a crock of shit that has turned out to be for not just me but for most of us.
This experience has been intense, amazing, magical, exasperating, hurtful, a bloody nightmare, a beautiful sacred blessing, a Test to the core, a synchronistic, timeless journey that words can’t really express and the knee jerks of living with others are bloody incredible reflections.
If I’d known the extent of buttons it would press I most probably would have said No but then again there’s a strong part of me that’s aware of the world’s dramas and my own and know it’s now time for all of it to be brought out to be addressed and healed.
My history is one of trauma and retreating away to concentrate on bring up my second son as a single parent again and now he’s sailing happily along it’s been time for me to dig down these past few years. So now we’re half way into Heal Scotland Helpyourcell and I’ve not ran away (been very near it many times though) but I have to finish and focus these last 4 weeks on finding my willpower and discipline to leave here with the knowledge needed to make real changes through integrating what we know to be an absolute truth now. That we can alter how we think, feel and act out in our reality. I knew but couldn’t do it by myself it seems. We need support and community back for sure. I’ve know for many years we are infinite and consciousness having our different dimensional experiences and science proves without doubt now that’s trust, but putting it into practice is a different story when our reality is set up to prove the exact opposite (but that’s a different story indeed).
Can I go from this experience with more confidence, strength, compassion, understanding, less stress, clearer mind, more control and less pain, fatigue and discomfort. YES for sure is the answer because I’m already experiencing all of this. Can I make major life changes knowing what I’m integrating and know from scarcity and exclusion, from no real self worth or idea of why I’m here? ‘Yes’ because I already see my worth for the first time in my life.
I’m open minded but although still can’t hold a vision of my magnificence and my creative potential, I’m willing to trust it’s showing it’s face. My face that craves more light now. Who knows really but something is shifting for sure, ‘I feel it in me Water’.
So many stories, so much pain and hurt in our Beautiful Scotland (and everywhere) and yes it’s crucial to be heard but even more so it’s crucial to ditch the repeated patterns of pain, sadness, grief, anger, regret, it onlys and it’s ifs, buts and maybes, from identifying our reality. We are so much more than our PAINS and we have forgot who we really are inside. Ancient Sacred Beings waking up now. Who knows what will happen when we finish here but all I know right now is Lilia Sinclair is one helluva woman and her patience, love, trust, vision and unending focus is astounding to behold and an absolute opportunity and I with all my heart and soul hope she is proven right. ‘We can Heal’ and Scotland could be one glorious inspiration for the rest of the world.
If it can happen with us apathetic but brilliant Scots it can happen anywhere.
Thank you Lilia and Hilary for your support and kindness. I can only hope and trust at the end of this I can live and be the best version of me and help others to ripple it out so that all your incredible hard work can be put into practice.
PS At home my shed is my sanctuary and my compromise here is to have my car here in place of my shed. That’s where I go to have my one joint (small) and listen to my audio book (plus the view without midgies). My me time has been essential for my Scottish compromises of keeping it real and human.
Healing from Chronic fatigue
I came across a FB live that Lilia did to promote the Heal Scotland idea in November 2018. I was really taken by her enthusiasm for all the types of protocols that I was already using on my own to help deal with my symptoms of CFS/ME (diagnosed 1991). I knew doctors were not the answer, or any kind of answer for me. I contacted Lilia because I was interested in seeing how I could be involved from an ‘offering help’ point of view and also ‘what am I missing?’.
After decades of ups and downs, slight remissions where I could work or study and had my family, I was at a place of knowing that I was doing a lot of the right things. Yet my energy levels were so low that I didn’t get out of bed from January to March 2019. My aches and pains could no longer be tolerated. However, in myself, I felt like I was in a place of great self understanding after a year of quite intense energy work, regression and work on my ACEs (Adverse Childhood Experiences). I had found out that my very ‘normal’ upbringing, with no big TRAUMA had actually felt continually unsafe and traumatic from the viewpoint of a 1/2/3/4/5 year old. These patterns of coping set up in my brain at these early stages were a huge part of what was stopping me healing.
I did the taster session of the Wim Hof Method at Loch Lomond on 23 March 2019. It was a fundraiser for Heal Scotland opening weekend. I had a pretty exhiliarting experience but was not 100% convinced it would help me given that I had been practically bed bound, I decided to give it a go anyway. What did I have to lose? For the next week or so I did the breathing and started working up my cold shower time. I even went into the sea twice while at a very chilly Isle of Skye.
I did find it difficult at this point. I was having strong detox reactions and I knew I needed to get back to clean eating and keep up my daily meditations but I was struggling on my own.
I was watching the Heal Scotland pilot group on FaceBook and I knew what I needed most was the support of a community who were on the same track as me. So I contacted Lilia again and she agreed that I could come to stay for the 10 days that I wanted.
My first few days at Barmolloch were interesting. It was a very varied group and everyone had their own issues. However, this was not the focus. These were our old ‘stories’ and we were ready to write new ones! (I was anyway! With Lilia’s help).
I had also missed the part about the scheme where each person had to help out on the organic farm. This terrified me! I had been unable to do anything much at all since the beginning of the year and PEM (post exercisonal malaise) is the hardest symptom of CFS/ME to avoid because it is hard to tell that you are doing too much until after the fact. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to do anything and, worse, that I wouldn’t be able to judge my limitsand do too much. This proved to be a very big learning experience for me, starting out, not being able to say ‘no’ or ‘I’ve done enough’ and causing myself to crash out for hours at a time. By the end of the 10 days I had worked that participating at the pace my body was able to rather than pushing hard to get things done was the way to go and stopping when I needed to and not pushing until the job was done. I also learned that I love planting things, cleaning out a chicken coop is horrible but bearable and collecting your own eggs is totally amazing.
The breathing and cold water got easier every day. The vegan diet was tasty and nutritious. We had various sound based therapists share their skills with us. I found I had a better voice than I thought. Even though I am still far from being a singer, the noise in a group setting is beautiful and the freedom of making noise on your own is releasing. OM!! I picked up various other useful tools. I go to bed by 10pm and up by 6am, avoiding unnatural light sources and my sleep in generally improving. I got advise on making changes to the supplements I was using and we learned lots of relaxation and releasing techniques.
I kept up a good regime when I got home and a few weeks later I had lost 5kg, managing to drive myself for my daily dook, went to the supermarket on my own and now I can drive longer distances and have a couple of hours in the day where I am actually OK!
I still have a long way to go! I noticed that if I slip out of routine or miss the cold water then my pain and fatigue gets much worse. So I decided that I will just do it every day.
It really has taken doing everything, every day to get this far and this has been done from a place of peace and compassion. Pushing is not the way for me to heal.
I am enough. I accept myself 100%. I am a peace-centred warrior!
Thank you Lilia, Hilary, Helen, Stewart and all the other amazing contributors.
Up a long and winding glen, in the wilds of Argyll, where few people ever venture, an experiment is taking place. It’s a human experiment – a band of courageous beings have come together on a biodynamic farm for 12 weeks to see if it is possible to heal themselves (spoiler alert – it is possible!). With just the help of one truly phenomenal woman who has a vision for a healed Scotland (and beyond) – Lilia Letigo Sinclair and a beautiful couple – Helen and Stewart Wright - who have created and hold the a truly magical space for our healing to take place.
We’re almost 8 weeks in and it’s been an interesting journey so far. For me it’s been a bit like a cross between Groundhog Day and Big Brother. Each day there are new insights into how we can become better, healthier and happier human beings. We have cameras (look out for the documentary), we are living together in confined spaces, cut off for the most part from goings on in the outside world. We are learning how it is possible to heal ourselves from a number of different illnesses and diseases. We’ve discovered the magic of letting go, though some of us are still holding on. We’ve endured cold water immersion, some of us daily, some of us less so. We’ve seen improvements in each other and ourselves. We’ve been told that unless we feel in a headspace where we can make love to the soil, we shouldn’t be working on the land. We’ve let go of our need for technology, some more than others. We’re seeing the power of gratitude, of being thankful for this truly amazing opportunity. We’re raising our frequency to a higher level and moving into a space of acceptance and peace. We’re humming our way to a higher vibration, singing from our souls and evolving away from a world that no longer serves us to a world of possibilities and magic. We’re rediscovering so many things that we’d forgotten, reconnecting with what’s important, disconnecting from what we used to think was important and realizing that we are woven right through the fabric of the universe just as it is woven through us.
It’s a slow, gradual process. The days pass slowly yet the weeks are whizzing by. I often wonder where I will go, what I will do, who will I become when my time here is done but for now I’m living in the moment, enjoying the sunshine, fresh air and biodynamic veggies. I’m also loving learning more about myself and my place in this world, how my thoughts impact every aspect of my being, how other people and their shit are the best teachers in recognizing what I need to heal, showing me what I need to look at inside myself. Healing is not an easy process, nor is it linear, it can be messy and is often uncomfortable, sometimes very uncomfortable. Be prepared to have tears and snot running down your face or find yourself yelling at someone out of nowhere. Then when you think you’ve made headway and you’re feeling better - wham, something else pops up which sends you staggering 10 feet backwards - but there is a wisdom in the backwards steps that we would never discover if we didn’t experience the pain.
There is magic in healing and discovering the inner world of ourselves that we’ve ignored, suppressed and been fearful of for so long. It is hard looking at parts of ourselves that are difficult to look at, having conversations we don’t want to have, being truthful when it would be easier to lie, but once you let go and get a taste of the bliss on the other side of the pain, you wonder why you didn’t just let go years ago. It also gets easier to work through your shit when it comes up next time round, and it will keep coming up, we can’t escape it, it’s part of the deal of being human, but our experience here in the wilds of Scotland is putting us in a good position to deal better with it when it does happens!
I think we are underestimating the power of what we are doing here, it’s a gradual process and often I don’t recognize that I have changed until I’m in a similar situation where previously I would have reacted from a place of anger or fear and now, automatically, I’m reacting from a place of love or acceptance. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t come from this space every time, but I’m getting better at not getting upset or angry with other people’s actions and becoming much more aware of the impact that my words, actions, moods and emotions may have on both myself and others.
I feel truly blessed to be part of this ‘experiment’, to be spending time with amazing people in a beautiful location and very excited to see where this vision takes us once the 12 weeks are over.
Heal Scotland, Barmolloch, Kilmichael Glen
I came to the Saturday taster and again on Sunday taster. Two days that began the rest of my life, I have been coming to Heal Scotland seven days a week for seven weeks ever since with five more weeks to go.
I had just moved to Cairnbaan, Lochgilphead for my health. Enjoying slower pace, the canal yards from my door, life had taken a very different turn.
Never did I dream or think in a few short months it would turn around completely as I embraced Lilia Letigo Sinclair’s Heal Scotland – 12 weeks immersed in wonderful therapies, Lilia’s vegetarian, detoxing diet, Wim Hof Breathing technique, rewiring the brain, ???? profound deep meditations challenging out of date beliefs I held. Could I let go? For my health’s sake I had to! Questionning issues held. Could I let go?
Questionning choices, small choices, big choices, choices so powerful was I terrified to make a decision? I was overwhelmed? Lilia had techniques, choice of words, the right words – blame – no longer serves; deserve this? – is that true? Entitled to? Lilia had other techniques.
Instead I could choose to reset my circadian clock, getting up after a good nights sleep and bless the day. This day of my life nothing will ever come agin! A brand new day every day.
The big choice is ‘letting go’, allowing healing energy in empowering myself to be the best I could be. How could I resist?
The best me I can be?
To fulfill the prophecy I join the Heal Scotland movement every morning at 7.00am.
7.00 – 8.30am Wim Hof power breating
Then some go in the river beside the farm. I have been immersed several times but plan more.
Fresh juices made by Lilia
10 – 12 On the land giving back to Stewart and Helen Wright who so generously have made the farm available to us.
Lunch of Lilia’s soup, usually two soups. We’re greedy, certainly I am.
6.00pm Wonderful vegetarian detoxing food. I have magically with my greed lost almost 15lbs. Sometimes we have videos or meditations on different healing techniques in the evenings.
I am totally committed to this wonder gift that Lilia has brought to our group and though not a joiner of groups I can’t believe my luck at finding and being included in this miracle occurring daily.
We are certainly an interesting mix of people but there are techniques for that too
A new way to see, be and heal?
For 4 decades I have been fascinated by health and by motivation. A fitness instructor since I was 20 with an innate knowing about nutrition, and understanding that we can impact our health and happiness, but no real understanding of why I would go down this road, there is no obvious reason.
Being in a salon, washing hair and listening to women for 50 years now, I have observed every kind of personality, life paths, worries and ideas. Watching how people deal with their lives is something I do without thinking, its so interesting.
When my aunt was dying of cancer, I was 26, I tried to get her to eat different things, but I was too young and had no idea how hard it was for us to change at that time.
6 years later Jo was diagnosed and once again I observed the way we deal with the body, diagnosis, prognosis, treatment happening to you not with you, then the appointment to appointment waiting for someone to tell you your fate. Watching from the grass outside the hospital as she barely made it through a bone marrow transplant, I hated all of it.
There must be a better way?
Even if these treatments truly are necessary and they maybe for some people, more support and undestanding of the things that we can do to lessen the fear, maximise the healing, and create love and hope for the inner circle.
A drastic prognosis does not only affect the “patient”.
So I ask these 2 questions over and over.
1. Is there a better way, there must be?
2. Why does your immune system let you down like that?
That's been my journey now for decades.
What have I found?
1. We all know what to do, but we don't do it. (including me)
What is that about?
We know the things we do that damage our health, we know the things to do to improve it, it is not the knowledge, its the behaviours, and 95% of them are unconscious programmes ie habits that run without us being fully aware and engaged.
Basically we really have no idea what we are doing in terms of the chemistry we are creating in the body.
We either created the habits and programmes or we inherited them from our peers. We are creatures of habits, and we do not like change or any challenge to our belief systems.
2. Our immune system is not overthrown by one action, but a serious of actions usually over a long period of time. Hippocrates said “Commit enough daily sins against Nature and you will experience disease.”
Challenging the status quo takes energy. In vast amounts. It also takes balls because people will hate and judge you. Nobody likes to have their beliefs challenged, people kill each other because their beliefs clash, still to this day, right now as you read this.
And here's the hilarious part, a belief is just a thought you have had, over and over.
We are clinging to the past like a bunch of limpets, wanting to be reassured by what we believe to be true, when we now fully understand that our reality is subjective, not objective and our body is responding to our perceptions.
We are moving from Victim of the body and idea we are at the fate of chemistry and biology, to the new understanding that we are electro magnetic in Nature.
That turns healing on its head, and gives the power back to you.
Not just the power, but the responsibility too, thats the caveat.
This paradigm is like the change from flat Earth to the Global viewpoint.
We are not solid victims, we are energetic Masters.
Your perception and understanding of this will take time usually, we need to be open, and perhaps want to feel differently about life.
Instead of allowing other people to tell us our fate, we can change our destiny with the power of our minds.
This is a game changer, but it does not usually happen overnight.
Rarely do we see a new idea and embrace it wholeheartedly. Usually we resist, defend our point of view, scream to be right, and often dismiss the new beliefs and ideas out of hand.
This is normal, human and common.
We used to think our body and brains could not change, they just got older and sicker.
NOTHING could be further from the truth.
The crazy thing is if you believe that, then you will go ahead and follow that story.
If you open your mind to a new way to see the body, a much more liberating, exciting, fascinating,hopeful story, everything and anything can change, and your imagination and determination will take you there.
But again there is a caveat.
Its up to you, no other person can do this for you. It is 100% your responsibility, and you may not be ready for that.
I used to think it was all about nutrition and exercise, but the latest quantum physics is showing us that we can overide anything and everything using the incredible power of our minds and hearts.
You can use nutrition for sure, I would for mycellf, but you do not need to.
Moving from the old beliefs around chemistry and biology to the understanding of the energy fields changes everything.
And we have the science to back that. Scientists like Dr Bruce Lipton, Dr Joe Dispenza and researchers like Lynne McTaggart are demonstating healings previously thought to have been impossible.
So what do you do if a scary diagnosis comes to your door?
Do you have a full overview of holistic healing to add to the Dotors solutions of drugs and surgery?
Are you willing to take part in your journey no matter how scared you are?
My cousin, who is like my big sister told me when she was going through treatment that we need to learn all these things before we get sick.
When you are in fear, overwhelmed and terrified of your diagnosis, trying to juggle all the balls in your life, that is not usually the time to embark on an educational degree of holstic understanding of who and what you are.
Often knowing there are other ways can add more stress, more confusion and more fear.
When Jo was dying I asked mycellf why it was so terribly painful to watch?
1.I didn't want her to suffer through the treatments and appointments
2. I didn't want her to die.
I have not got my head round the death thing, I researched and studied and changed my beliefs about it, plus I cannot control it, it is not my job to say how and when it should happen.
I believe now it can be pretty cool, I am excited about what happens next, but not ready to go just yet, still got a lot to learn.
But lets look at the suffering.
But from what I see the suffering is still going on.
I believe a terminal and or incurable prognosis causes PTSD, I am not sure it is ever helpful to the body, and we now have thousands of people defying the odds.
I think it is way beyond time to revise the language we use to describe what the body is doing beyond the pharmaceutical model and its fear based ways.
When scientist discover incredible new, better ways it can take 17 years to get out to you, are you really going to wait for science?
Heal Scotland is an educational Community that will provide 3 levels of support for those who need help healing.
Remember this is not about not dying, it is about being empowered and living everyday without fear.
Feeling joy, faith and freedom from the past, whatever that may be.
Instead of treating the symptoms of the body, learning why your immune systems is down and how you can get it back onto full power.
Our body has recorded everything that we have ever perceived.
We are unable to remember a lot of that, but it still affects our health and happiness. Trauma from the past does not get erased with drugs, but with a genuine understanding of the genius of the body and how we can release, resolve and be free from the past. Inherited or otherwise.
As our consciousness rises we are able to see, hear, feel, sense our inner intelligence much louder than ever before.
Our body is a loving, intelligent, energy field, when you learn to speak and understand its language you will experience untold joy from Source.
Heal Scotland is bringing the latest science to you, for you, for your children and grandchildren.
Learn how to live from Faith instead of Fear.
Learn all the different healing diets, meditations, releasing, dancing, visualisation and exercising ways available.
Whether you want to prevent, heal your body, mind, soul, this Retreat will open you to
empowerment and hope, on a stunning biodynamic farm in Kilmichael Glen.
Dr Kelly Turners 9 steps to defying the odds
Below are the 7 areas we will be teaching and practising at the Community.
Community & Collaboration
Lynne McaTaggarts latest research shows us clearly how community and altruism heals. We are all connected at the quantum level and we affect and infect each other whether we are aware of it or not.
Being part of a strong, loving, supportive community is essential for longevity.
We are one. When we pull together we are exponentially stronger, life gets easier and we have way more fun.
Communal goals and full support to help us achieve them, propels us forward.
Bruce Lipton is also a huge advocate of communities with his research on cellular biology.
Letting Go and the science of change
The latest neuroscience clearly demonstrates our supernatural abilities to heal, create and manifest what we want in life, once we let go of the past.
Dr Joe Dispenza is forging the way in his advanced workshops with real time healing using meditation and letting go. In his words he is seeing things of “biblical proportions”.
Stored negative emotions depresses the immune system, distorts our thinking and daunts our confidence.
To be free from all concepts and labels is the goal, trust and surrender to something higher.
New perception and expanding awareness
The story we have chosen to believe can be unexciting and probably not even true.
Expanding our awareness, realising the illusional nature of reality, how a shift in perception can and will change your world.
We are now learning a new story, a new way to see life, the fact that we live in a multi dimensional Universe with multi dimensional realities and even the scientific community are agreeing now.
But our systems are still based in the old doctrine.
We need to understand the quantum world in order for us to realise our potential and our
Altruism & giving back
Heart math have measured that we have a stronger resonance when we give rather than get. In our I want, I want culture, a culture of sickness, could this be adding to the stress for our bodies?
We are social beings designed to live together and look after each other. We cannot truly be happy when others are suffering so much, our soul feels this.
Lynne, Bruce, Greg and Joe have all recorded the enormous benefits of altruism.
Passion and Purpose
When you do something you love, you can lose yourcellf for hours. Your body gets peace because there is not stress hormones getting pumped through it, no monkey mind to cause contraction and discomfort
Taking time to find the things you love, follow your heart and take steps out of your comfort zone sets your soul alight and you move into alignment with your life purpose.
You know it because you feel it, and only you can do it.
Life becomes effortless, you are quite literally in da flow.
In the Community we will focus on the following
Sense of Humour
One of our major health strengths in Scotland is our sense of humour.
Laughing instantly boosts your energy, but most of us lose that carefree attitude as we get older.
When we are with our friends and just laughing this is one of the most important activities you can
do, the body loves it and gets all the feel good love chemicals.
Faith, Trust & Surrender
Understanding that healing is a possibility, a potential in everyones field.
Educating yourcellf on how others have done it and learning how to trust the body as it moves you
towards the people and protocols that can help you heal.
How to live a life in joy and faith rather than fear and stress.
A new story, for healing, for purpose and for each one of us.
If you would love to “start again” rewiring and firing your brain for more vitality, health, joy, love, abundance in anything you choose, please send an email to email@example.com
If 80% of our disease is fixable and preventable then lets get on it.
Think of what that would mean to the Doctors and Hospitals that are overburdened and worked.
There are literally an infinite number of ways to heal, some thing we can measure, others we maybe never will.
Our thoughts, emotions, past, beliefs and perceptions are all affecting our energy field. You can measure what people eat, but not what they think or perceive when they are eating. This changes the chemistry and the field around us. Never taken into account in the Western World.
We are intelligent emotional beings who know how we feel, but we have lost our trust.
Maybe this journey here is about that?
No matter what happens out there, we can choose Faith.
Imagine a life without Fear?
We together can change the suffering levels of our Scottish Community, we know what needs to be done, now we have to take that knowledge through to action and change it.
Learning the new way to see the body is the beginning.
Education for transformation, then practise and repetition along with a strong, altruistic team of believers.
Thats Heal Scotland.
Henry Ford said it “ Whether you think you can or cannot, you are right”.
Newsflash - we are seeded from stars
Are you ready for a massive shift in perception?
We did not evolve from apes?
Maybe pretty much everything we have believed is not true, that our history is way more exciting than we could ever imagine.
Or are your cells contracting and your mind resisting this thought?
Let me go back to Ecuador and my ayahuasca experience.
I met a Shaman there and he guided me to a new story, very gently, very wisely, but I was still a bit turned upside down.
I am not going to go into what the new story is as you will probably stop reading right now, but I felt initial resistance along with a sense of fascination and wonder at the “what if?”
What if we arrived here on a mission, and every single special, amazing one of us had a purpose?
Then I volunteered on a biodynamic farm isolated in the Mountains of Southern Ecuador, spectacular place to be and what do you suppose happened there? I met a guy who had lived with the Kogi tribe in Northern Columbia, and guess what, their story was different too, the same as the one from the Shaman. Im intrigued, you can watch the documentary on them here. www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tq0kWs1q3hI
Then I leave S America to fly up to Vancouver Island for the Science and Spirituality Conference.
And you guessed it, they were all talking about it, the new story.
Dr Bruce Lipton, Dr Joe Dispenza, Greg Braden, Lynne MacTaggart and Lee Carroll.
Now I'm spooked, but also now I'm a bit used to the idea, also I am more excited about it than scared.
As someone who teaches people to let go of their personal story I was amazed I had not truly thought to question where I had come from, what story did I believe about that?
We now understand that Darwin and Newton opened up ideas that are now proven to be false.
Sadly we are still functioning from their beliefs and it is causing us untold harm.
Would people take their lives if they had a more empowering, purposeful story?
Would we dream of destroying our Planet if we undestood she is a sentient being like us?
Would we compete, disrespect, lie, betray and kill each other if we realised the interconnectedness that ties everything in the Universe together?
Would we work in jobs we hate, with people who drive us insane to pay a corrupt government full of egotistical maniacs.
This is worth visiting dont your think?
Could this new story stop the slow destruction of our species and that of all the other beings on Earth?
I will leave the global story to Greg, Bruce and Lee, they are the experts, they are the witnesses to the evidence and information and they are the bright shining lights bringing it through for us.
My interest is the body, our health, our suffering.
How does this new information help us with that?
It changes everything, and for the better, and that is the understatement of the century.
We are not solid, unconnected, separate individuals, victims of our genes, family, fate and body.
Nothing could be further from the truth.
Turns out that we do not do the healing. Our main job is to get the hell out the way and allow the body and Source energy to realign the cells.
The blue print for health is already there, when we allow the past to wash away, connect back to the blueprint, healing occurs.
This may sound bonkers to you, but the evidence is now irrefutable.
Trust and Surrender is the best advice you will ever get.
Dr Joe Dispenza is getting real time healings every single advanced workshop, go here for the proof.
I will say that again.
Real time, instant healings.
And Lynne MacTaggart is demonstrating the power of group intention, community and altruism for healing. www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FYGRztyR24&t=60s
This is actually nothing new. People have talked about the power of prayer and faith healings for ever.
Probably because of the bullshit of religion most of us did not believe it thinking they were all crazy and brainwashed.
Whats different now is that we have the science to back this up.
A totally new understanding of exactly what is happening for us to experience these “miracles”.
In uber simple terms we can change the frequency of our brains, let go and tune into different data streams of information that allows the cells to rearrange themcellves back to homeostasis, balance.
This work is still in its infancy, we are learning more literally everyday so we need to keep our minds open, the veil is lifting and we are now able to see and experience our Supernatural abilities.
Information coming in through the heartfield means we feel changes long before our brain gets the signal, but we have been taught the other way round.
This is science, so we have no choice but to believe it?
Is that not the mantra? Where is the data?
Well you have it now, but you will not find it at your local NHS provider.
Your body and health is your responsibility.
NEVER blindly accept someone elses point of view without checking in with your inuition. Their opinion is just that, and could be based on outdated information.
We MUST own our power and take control of our health back.
We get sick because of our past, our enviroments internal and external.
We have a disease pandemic, our health system will soon be unable to cope, there is evidence of that already.
Do you seriously still believe that surgery and drugs are the best option for the body?
Are you going to wait till you get sick and hope for the best, or are you going to learn about that incredible energy system you have the honour of living in, and soar into this new reality like an ecstatic bird?
How open is your mind?
How resistant are you to new beliefs and perceptions?
Listen in right now to what your intuition is saying......
We are emotional energetic beings, we can even measure that now.
Everyone of us has the power to heal, has the potential for a “miralce” not matter what our diagnosis and prognosis.
I believe using the words terminal, aggressive, incurable, inoperable is causing untold suffering and death.
There is not doubt that some bodies are screaming for help, toxic, acidic, overloaded, running on adrenalin, but to take a snapshot of that second in time and then predict the future is at best misguided and worst abuse.
There are many things that you can do to help the body.
Why are we not being given that information? Great Britain does not look so great to me on the health front.
Heal Scotland is a movement to bring that education to my Scottish family.
We cannot wait on Theresa May or Nicola Sturgeon?
Lets change this ourcellves because we can.
Laughing is one of the best things you can do to boost your immune system and the Scots and brilliant at that.
But are you laughing enough?
Are you using your magical creative powers enough?
Are you happy enough to keep your immune system up?
On April 1st 2019 we will launch Scotlands first ever healing community.
12 weeks of Education & Support for Transformation.
Taking this exciting new scientific evidence, sharing it with you on this idylic bio dynamic farm in Argyll.
Using pracise and patience along with repetition to refire and rewire your brain for much greater love and joy.
This is not about avoiding death, this is about leaving suffering behind and learning to trust and surrender.
This is not wishful thinking, this is physics.
Here is the website www.helpyourcell.com/
Want to learn more from a Scientist?
What an incredible place and experience
I wanted to volunteer on a farm and had been browsing on helpx looking for the right place, but it takes time, you need to work out where you will be etc and I had not made it happen yet.
One of the girls I met at Hostal Izychuluma said she was going to one and the owners were coming up to the hostel to pick her up. She showed me the spec, and biodynamic stuck out, it was convenient, close by, would be super handy and save me any more research I thought.
I went with her to meet the owners and see if they needed any more volunteers and if it felt right it could fit perfectly with the end of my visa.
I met them, Walter and Susan, and we agreed I would go there the following Monday,. Perfect.
We met in the village there was one other volunteer there, a guy and we piled all the stuff into the jeep, Walters wife was staying in town for an extra few days so it was just the 3 of us.
The drive was stunning through the Mountains then onto a rough track where we literally drove over the River 3 times, its clearly a road that is not passable in heavy rain.
About 50 mins later we arrive at the Finca. It is jaw dropping.
In the middle of nowhere, 360 view of the Mountains, green, trees, cows, goats, chickens, donkeys and a dog.
Yunis, the other volunteer (a young attractive, and hilarious French Algerian guy) and I looked at each other in obvious agreement, this was a great move.
I had no idea what I was going to be asked to do, we arrived later in the afternoon and got shown our rooms. I got the best one, upstairs a proper built room and Yunis took one of the huts in the garden. They looked pretty dusty and mosquitoey to me, but he seemed cool
By the time we did this then reconvened to discuss dinner and the next days itineray, I had started to sneeze.
I asked if they had a cat, that's what it felt like, but they didn't, not in the house. I had also taken out some blankets in the room, so I thought it could be that, its not unusual for me to have minor allergies to cats and house dust, I did not realise at the time I was going to have the worst hay fever I have ever experienced.
The spectacular setting of the farm was worth it though. What a place for a Retreat I thought, that's how I see stunning settings.
We met with Christian a local farmer who had been there for 7 years, him and Walter got the place going, planting, organising, building and all the incredible amount of work it takes to organise the land. And Jose, he has only been there a few months, but big into the land and keeping it pristine, he was a wealth of knowledge and happy, open disposition.
Yunis and I go with Jose to weed the vegetable beds. Perfectly nice work, and an ok temperature, a bit hazy so we did not get the full pelt of the sun.
Jose has no english, which was good for me, he just chatted away and I think I understood most of it. I was happy just to be hearing spanish as I didn't really hear any at the hostel.
In the afternoon we had a lesson on biodynamic farming and what it actually means, with Walter. I smiled when I noticed the clock, the Power of Now. Me and Jose above.
I knew Biodynamic worked by the moon, but I did not know it also went with the Astrological signs and Elemental beings.
This was a true mind and eye opener.
"Each farm or garden is viewed as an integrated whole, as a living organism in its own right. Like a human being, a farm is made up of many different organs and systems. When these are managed and brought together in a dynamic way, they interact positively with one another to support the health and well-being of the whole. And like a human being, each farm is unique, with its own personality and identity. The holistic expression of a farm’s unique potential is referred to as the “farm individuality.”
Harnessing the energy of the Cosmos, through the land, into the food and then through our bodies. How do you like the sound of that.
Didn't take Yunis and I long to overuse the word Cosmic to our great hilarity for 2 weeks.
If we do not harness this powerful energy, we may not be able to take our thoughts through to actions. Hmmmm food for thought, this is what I deal with daily with my clients and mycellf.
It was a luxury for me to prepare nutritious food again, I have not done this since I left home. Going to the greenhouse and picking the greens, pulling the carrots, beets, sweet potatoes and eating the oranges, lemons, papayas and mangoes straight from the trees. We just missed avocado season, bummer.
I was in Cosmic nutrition Heaven.
We had a lovely week, I pruned tomatoes, weeded, and just enjoyed good food and the stunning setting. The hayfever came and went, annoying but ignorable, I tapped and tried to let the body deal with it.
There is another fantastic feature in this farm, at the bottom of the garden there are 2 rivers, one that provides Mother Natures jacuzzi.
The most amazing thing to do when you are hot after your weeding and digging.
There are also cows on the farm which is invaluable when you are self sufficient, they make so many worthwhile products from manure through to cheese.
One had a baby calf when we were there, that blew me away, seeing this gorgeous little thing stoat about the field, from the darkness of his mamas womb to this incredible Finca, wow, ma nature.
Yunis got on with the milking, he was up early everyday doing the do, and then they separated the animals at night, which seemed weird to us, and when it was just us at the weekend, that caused us more hilarity.
Yunis made cheese, yogurt, sour cream, condensed milk, kefir and jam, it was so amazing to see all this, and the different things that you could do.
Everything was alive and fresh and full of Cosmic energy.
We also did a healing swap, I did some energy work with him and he gave me an abdominal, painful massage. He was really good, but it was not a go to sleep affair.
He is multi talented, wine exporting, ex trendy wine bar owner, yoga teacher, masseuse, free dive teacher, speaks Korean, French, Arabic, English and Spanish. And he is only 30!
And he is a dancer. I was drumming one night and he just started dancing round the kitchen, sooooooo cool! A force to be reckoned with in the best possible way.
His Scottish is not that good mind you, he looked at me blankly daily.
Walter has been making cheese for 45 years, so he was a pro, and we could get the milk then have cheese the next day. He is a fascinating, lovely, quiet, humble man who has farmed all his life and is now enjoying learning new things, healing, drumming, spirtual practises and a load of other things, super impressive to see my generation and older still taking on the World.
His wife Susan is vivacious and bright and has an amazingly altruistic project called Kins innovation. www.kinsinnovation.org
KINS networks practice “heart-mind” collaboration to achieve the most daunting of global sustainability goals working without pay. See the science behind “heart-mind” athttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=237WCALmJXQ
They are a powerful pair and have a place in Vilcabamba where they go there every Friday and come back on Monday afternoon. That left us on the farm just chilling for the weekend, it was beautiful. But for some reason my hayfever went into overdrive. Sneezing, nose running, and mad mental itching in my nose, throat and ears, which affected my sleep and much as I tapped, my energy was defo dulled.
On the Monday they arrived back with 2x18 year old German girl volunteers.
And another family with 2 young kids.
They were here on a mission for the land, a Spirit house is being built an area that the Kogi tribe from Colombia had recommended. I will do another blog on this story because it is fascinating and mind expanding and too long to fit in here.
Where was everyone going to sleep, I assumed the girls would come with me, but it looked like I was getting put out for the family, which made sense, but not when you have hayfever. More itching and mosquitos could push me over the edge.
However Sylvie, the mama picked up straight away on my thoughts which impressed me hugely, she said no to putting me out and that they could sleep anywhere. Unfortunately for Yunis the only other feasible option was his pad.
I had 4 beds in my nice, mozzie free place and said he could come in with us, but he decided to go for the tent. After a night of no sleep, cats and bugs he moved into the girls dorm and we all lived happily ever after.
Sylvie, a healer and expert on all indigenous plants, brought me a pile of herbs, grasses and flowers to boil up for 20 mins and shower with. It smelt amazing, I loved it. Plus a nettle to make tea with to hopefully knock the hayfever on the head.
Sylvie and Jorge have 7 kids between them, and they brought the youngest 2 with them, an 18 month and 5 year old. Beautiful boys and always magic to have kids energy around and it so fascinating to see other cultures and how they raise their children. The oldest one chatted away to me in Spanish which was actually really helpful, I picked up a few phrases from him.
On the second week my energy levels were down with not sleeping right and constantly blowing my nose and itching the unitchable. I was tapping and constantly trying to ignore what the body was doing, letting it work it out, but boy was it annoying.
Christian had bought 30 or so medicinal plants and they had to be labelled and named so I took on this task as it saved me being right in among the farm. I started working on all the medicinal benefits, still not finished, but it is my area of passion and I loved it. Having Sylvie there too was awesome with her huge knowledge and love of the land and the plant kingdom.
These are people with deep spiritual connection to the Planet and see it as alive and sentient. This change in narrative from our one, means they treat it with a reverence and respect. I am now fully appreciating the power of our Story culturally as well as personally. If we fully understood the Planet is alive would we behave differently?
My pot of herbs above, the inca garden and me and my greens.
We had a lovely week, 18 year old German girls, 57 year old Scottish granny, 30 and 40 year old Ecuadorian farmers, 30 year old French Algerian, the American owners and the Colombian family who are the translators and coordinators for the rare Colombian Kogi tribe. We had super interesting chats.
On the last night we took the drums down by the river under the moon then did a meditation under the Ceiba tree, it was magic.
Volunteers and Opportunity.
Walter and Susan are getting older, their words, they dont have time to look after the farm and develop the opportunities there and look after the volunteers, so they really need someone or a couple who could take that role on.
Clearly this would be the perfect job for me, but I have a big project in Scotland next year, and cannot commit at this time, plus the hayfever thing could be a problem long term.
I am setting up a 12 week healing community in Scotland, to bring the latest, proven scientific methods and protocols to the people in the hope to help us see our incredible power, when we learn how to operate the body. The body is genius, we just have an untrue narrative about it.
But what a fantastic opportunity for the right people. Such exciting potential there, and plenty of huts that would be fine for staying in with a little bit of tlc, soft furnishings, animal proofing and mozzie nets.
It truly is a magical place, I will return, I dream of Retreats there, the most perfect place to heal and connect to raise your vibration.
They even have a pedal powered smoothie maker.
Yunis and I are talking about the possiblities of pulling our skills and passions and running some Retreats here in the next year or so.
Watch this beautiful space.
The best education ever may not come at school
I have been amazed at the number of young people travelling. 18-25s make up a huge amount of the people I am meeting and often it is young girls on their own.
What a set of balls they have, not only to travel alone, but to come to South America on their own, or with a young friend.
They seem totally confident, cutting about like pros. Facing the fears, because they have some, but doing it anyway, Goddessing it right up.
The last time I travelled we had internet for email, but no smart phones.
They makes a huge difference.
You can be contacted, and you can keep in contact daily, just to soothe worried minds, especially if its your first time away from home.
Uber, Hostel World, Booking, Workaway, Help X, Maps me, Google translate, Spanish apps, to name but a few of the brilliant ways to book ahead, find out how much it costs to get places and generally leave an online trail.
But none the less it is still a big step.
Moving out of your Country and your Continent.
Its tough for Guys too, but females have added fears and perhaps not the physical strength that some guys have.
Its easier if you speak Spanish, no doubt about that, but not everyone does, certainly not on arrival.
The Hostels are the best way to meet others, especially travelling alone, and I am sure for couples too.
Some Hostels really nail it, great social areas, meals together, roof top hang outs, tours in the area, all go to create another Community within the travelling Community, an opportunity to meet like minded peeps.
The camaraderie is truly remarkable.
My age never stops me getting invited out to join the young uns, even travelling with them for days at a time, and having a real laugh.
It is like one big family, with others more than happy to help you if you ever need it.
Really brings out the best in humans.
When I was on Finca Sagrada we had two young girls from Germany who have come right out of school at 18. They talked their parents into letting them travel before they start to study.
They have been using Workaway and been all over Chile, Boliva, Peru, Ecuador and are on their way to Colombia.
They picked up trash in the desert, worked at reception, in a Hostel in another one making breakfast and cleaning and flyering in one place, the only thing they did not really enjoy.
They are now on their way to a Vegan Restaurant in Montanita.
They have come to this farm in the middle of nowhere, moved out their beds to accommodate us, pitched right in with all the chores, happy to be helpful and useful even outside volunteering hours.
I asked them a few questions as I had a captive audience.
Here is what they said.
What made you decide to travel?
They did a student exchange when they were 15 to Chile and they wanted to come back.
They had Spanish in school plus on the exchange, so they are fluent and can communicate easily.
No boyfriends back home to hold them back and ruin their lives lol.
Did your parents, family and friends have any concerns?
One of the girls is an identical twin, her sister chose to go straight to Uni, while she decided to come to South America. Her mum and dad have been split for years and she had never had a run in with Dad, until she told him about the travel plans.
They argued it out and she held her ground, and now he is seeing how strong and brave she is, and is proud and supportive. The other girls parents travelled a lot but were not keen on the South America idea, suggesting Australia, but she too was determined.
They made it happen, despite all the fear. Awesome.
It seems that everyone who comes here gets concern from those who have never been.
But here they are, travelling, volunteering, learning, bonding, its incredible.
What do you like most about travelling?
Meeting and getting to know a lot of other people, cultures, Countries. Really enjoying the bus and seeing the different landscapes, which are incredible here.
What is the biggest thing you have learned?
To be open and dont judge.
Wow that is what they said.
To respect other cultures, they do it differently here, and to respect that too. And to be patient, now that is a biggy. Remember these girls are 18!
Life is good even when things are going wrong, because you dont have much else to think about. And you cannot plan, things change all the time, so be spontaneous.
Sounds like a great life lesson.
What do you appreciate more about home now?
Washing machines, bread, peace, going out without worrying about getting robbed. To be able to go out in the dark without being scared.
To get back to a life structure.
And the kitchen at home, not having to go shopping for every ingredient you need.
And to be able to eat your parents food.
And the pets and family ofcourse.
Will you do it again?
And we will tell everyone about it
They would encourage all young ones to travel and to volunteer too.
It gives you a sense of purpose through the days and you learn and meet interesting people.
Its a journey just for you.
Another super intelligent perception I have never thought about.
Not for anyone else. You have a lot of time to think and get to know yourself, finding solutions for problems. Even when you feel lost you find your way out of it.
It feels like living, like really living.
Huge thanks to the girls for indulging and sharing with me, I look forward to following their life adventures over the next decade or so.
Plant based medicine
I have heard a lot about Ayuhuasca, most of my friends have done it, but I have never been drawn, because I was a bit scared.
It seems that it can be a pretty mental and not so pleasant experience, telling you things about yourcellf that you might not want to know and I never really saw anyone getting amazing results, so I thought I would give it a miss.
If I could guarantee coming out the other side as a fully enlightened being, I would take the risk of hours of hell, but there are no guarantees, either way.
You have no idea what the hell will happen.
I have got Joe Dispenza, he teaches people to get to that place simply using your heart, brain and mind. For free, if you are prepared to practise. He has tons of videos on youtube you can watch and learn and see the incredible results his disciples are getting.
Changing from the inside out, which is what we all have to do.
But there I am sitting at the swimming pool in the incredible Izychuluma hostel in Vilcabamba, Ecuador.
I start chatting to this very attractive young guy who I am sharing a dorm with.
He is going to do Ayuhuasca the next night, so I start asking all the same questions I ask of everyone, because I am intrigued and also terrified.
He tells me of his amazing experiences and how it is his mission to help people experience the growth and insights he has had on his journey.
He seems incredibly wise for 20.
He came out the modelling World and has had a few experiences that have set him on a totally different path, the spiritual one.
His passion shines clear and I find mycellf once again contemplating it.
He cajoles and says I should try. I can go with him and his friend the next night, its fairly close by, he has done it with this Shaman before, its $80 so it all seems very convenient, if I fancy giving it a bash.
Nicho emailed the Shaman and he said he wanted to meet me, so with butterflies in my stomach I agreed to go the following morning, I would see what my gut said and take it from there.
This is the gorgeous Nicho, it was all his fault.
After I decided to go, the nerves left and I felt a bit excited, it was strange.
We wandered down the hill to meet the Shaman and I was intrigued to learn more.
Nicho had told me his place was immense but I had no idea how startling it was going to be.
Because Izychuluma is pretty off the scale stunning I thought it would be hard to beat, but this place is quite unlike any other I have ever seen.
As we walked along the River towards the place we were just chatting and must have mentioned Shaman, when a voice came from behind saying "quack shaman".
I started laughing, this is all the chat you get here. It has to be the real deal, and I am not sure anyone knows exactly the criteria for this.
I said to the guy, ahh so this guy is not a real Shaman, he said no. You need to go down deep into the jungle to get one.
He was pretty mean, and it felt immediately to me like jealousy and not deep concern for our welfare.
I was more amused than perturbed and was still happy to go with my gut when I met Miguel.
I walked into his garden and was spellbound.
It was like walking into a Disney movie, or as Julia, the other girl who joined us later said, it was like going into Alice in Wonderland.
Miguel was charming, warm, permanently amused and I liked him immediately.
There was no airs and graces here, he showed us around, we saw the ceremony site, he spent a couple of hours with us, so I decided it felt right.
I asked him if he drank it too and he laughed saying, ofcourse, it would be too boring if I never.
Fair enough, like going out with your friends when you are not drinking, no fun at all.
We were to go down there at 10pm then drink the medicine at 11pm. It goes on most of the night then you get fruit for brekkers around 7am.
We fasted all day to get the full experience.
About 6pm a young girl came to the dorm and was in the bed beside me. I told her that I was going and she on the spur of the moment decided to join.
So that made 4 of us.
Off we went, arrived there, we all had a mattress each, we sat around the fire, chatted, then the Plant medicine was given out.
It was green and tasted pretty gross, but I have drunk plenty of gross things in my day so it was no biggy.
Then you sit there, its in, and you have no idea what is going to happen.
As I am a letting go expert I consoled mycellf with the fact that I could let anything go, but also knew that it might not be that simple, you can be overwhelmed and lose all control, infact that could be what it is about.
You get a bowl to vomit in and there was an outside toilet near by for when your bowel empties.
You can see why I have avoided it for years lol.
I dont want to expose others stories but one of the others got up and was clearly distressed. I was still sitting waiting, and knew it could be me next.
Anyway the others dealt with it, as I had no idea really what was going on and was just waiting for the hammer to fall.
I felt the nausea coming on strong, then vomitted and knew that would possibly kick it all off, which it did.
I then went into a fairly pleasant psychedelic experience.
I was still expecting shit to happen, but I kept releasing and just enjoyed the sacred geometry show.
Miguel came over to see if I wanted more, but it was all good and I did not want to push my luck. I could hear the singing and drumming in the distance but I was in another world.
I opened my eyes a few times but could not grasp peoples faces so just kept them closed and observed.
Next thing Nicho was by my side and I came to and we discussed our experiences.
It had worn off, everyone was quiet, and it felt nice just to lie and listen to the rain and the river.
I cannot say I got a message or anything profound.
But I felt great for days after, and it was a real bonding experience for the 4 of us that did it.
Not everyone had the pleasant experience, but when it was over they seemed to come out the other side, maybe more relieved than anything.
Doing "plant medicine" here is huge, really big business.
Money always changes things. It used to just be the Shaman that did it, now its open to everyone, which I agree with, but it leaves it open to greed.
People are paying thousands to do the Retreats.
It fascinates me that we are willing to put ourcellves through that, because make no mistake it can be awful.
We are chasing the dream?
The dream of understanding ourcellves and what the hell this is all about?
You can get insights for sure, but you can get them in other ways too.
But are you prepared to do the work afterwards, the personal, eternal, journey of discovery that we all have to take in order to be free.
Free from the mind.
The Shaman says all illness starts in the mind.
Even in the West we are starting to understand that now.
Most of the stories we have been told are simply not true and it is time for us to open our minds to how powerful and destructive we are.
The only person who can conquer your mind is you.
No Doctor, no pill, no operation.
I am learning so much here, especially on this biodynamic farm, where the land is natural, the farmers understand the moon and the stars and how to grow food without harming the Earth.
It could not be further from the developed World and the way we live in the West.
The reverence for the plant and spirit World is part of life here.
Vilcabamba used to be famous because the people lived to be really old.
In communities, and harmony.
One of the farmers guessed my age exactly. HIs mother in law is 100, still works the fields, can thread a needle without glasses.
Wow how far we have moved out of harmony.
And we are paying the price.
Do I recommend Ayuhuasca?
If you are drawn to it then go right ahead.
It is definitely helping people, how much of it is placebo I do not know.
Or are we still looking outside of ourcellves for the answer?
I believe we all have the capacity to heal, and it should be free and available to anyone no matter what Country they are in and how much money they have.
I believe its an inside job.
But external things can help, listen to your heart, see if it calls you.
The ceremony etc around it is powerful, the community, the power of group intention, then the plant. Who knows what is doing what?
In Scotland we would take these "drugs" and get wasted.
Here they call it medicine, they treat it in a special way, they hold intention and community, and they get results.
We could maybe learn a thing or two?
There is huge hype round these islands.
And there is no doubt they are a stunning, magical piece of Volcanic action.
People say its the most amazing place they have ever been.
So your expectation level can go wayyyyyy up and then you get there and think, yeah its nice, but I have been to other nice places.
There are two kinds of holiday maker there.
The I am on vacation for 2 weeks and have a years spending money escaping the rat race, or the Backpacker working on a budget which happened to be me this trip.
It is $20 to get out of Quito, and the $100 when you arrive at Baltra, nice surprise.
That pissed me off to start with, why 2 payments.
Then there is all the palava about conservation, bug sprays in the overhead cabins in the aircraft, and checking the mud on your boots when you leave and go to another islands.
Seriously guys? We know that makes zero difference to anything.
When you arrive in the airport its another big palava where all the bags are put together and the dog walks over the top of them all. I assume thats for drugs, but they do it in a very formal, important way.
It was much more like US approach, they are doing a lot but actually doing nothing.
Airport security etc brings out the worst in me, and humans, moving your perfume into a see through bag and kidding ourcellves on that we are tackling terrorism. They kid on they are tackling conservation, or something Im not sure, its bollocks anyway.
In Scotland we have off the scale wildlife. No palalva going there, no unseen charges, no fee to get on our islands, no spraying of foreigners, or kidding on that we are checking their shoes, it all seems like a bit of a brand exercise.
And if you sail in they want your hull scrubbed 2 miles off. Really, what exactly is that going to achieve. More rules for rules sake if you ask me.
I met a film maker from the USEG US enviromnental group. He was there to film a beach clean up, to talk to the locals about conservation etc, but it turns out one of the big pollutants here are the Asian boats who dump everything and anything from their boats way out at sea, that affects the islands. The plastic pollution is an issue in all our waters now and Galapagos is no different. Not the mud from my boots or yours for that matter.
We are all in this together, no point in one Country doing everything if others are blatantly disregarding Nature and our wildlife.
Now dont get me wrong it is beautiful, barren, green, volcanic and stunning all at the same time, but for me the main attraction here is the diving and snorkelling.
And I was a bit underwhelmed.
Coming from Mompiche which has the cleanest beach I have ever seen,and the stunning jungle all around, I was already high on the beauty of the Planet.
I have been blessed to dive round the World, and it was not the best by a long shot for me.
The visibility was poor and again it was super expensive to dive. $250 US for a try dive and 2 dives at Kicker Rock. One with no air lol.
The best 2 days I had was snorkelling close to the island in a bay where the visibility was a bit better. I got to swim with the giant turtles and it was magical.
Kicker Rock was immense, a huge challenge and a world famous dive, but really you could not see much. Apart from the massive shoal of fish we danced with, that was awesome.
I saw white tipped and hammer head sharks but they were shadows with the low viz.
Not what I expected, but thats Nature for you, there is a bit of luck involved.
The people were super nice and friendly, but I spent a lot of time on my own due to me not speaking Spanish and not being in a dorm, where all the other lone travellers are.
And there is a feeling that because you are white the price goes up.
In Isabella there are some really cool beach bars, and in Santa Marta the main island there are some really good restaurants, so that made me happy.
The other thing that you should know is the ferries are not really ferries. They are big cruise boats, around maybe 30ft with 3 x 200 horsepower engines behind them.
This makes them fast but super uncomfortable in big weather.
I had someone spewing on both sides of me, and it can be a 2.5 hour trip. Its your luck if you get to be in the fresh air outside the boat, but only a 1/3 of people can fit there, the rest are inside, in the hot, smelly, boat.
Some boats are better than others, so if you were there with kids, or anyone who gets sea sick, really bear this in mind, it is not pleasant.
On the dive day, an older lady, even older than me, came on to snorkel with her son.
She should NEVER have been sold that trip, the boat was tiny, rocking all over the place, 8 divers getting their kit on and off 3 times, and she was stuck out ther all day vomiting. Her poor son just sat with his arm over her, a shit day for both of them and I could have told you it would be, so these guys should have known. There is no land or shelter out there and it was shit for snotkelling too due to huge swell.
Running out of air 12 metres down
It is still not clear why I ran out of air on my second dive at the famous Kicker Rock.
The Dive Master wanted me to believe I drank it all, but no way. The first dive was 48 mins we came back up with 600. I ran out after around 25 mins at a much shallower depth and was totally relaxed, until I realised what had happened.
There are different reasons it could happen, it was never discussed.
He immediately gave me his spare, but we had to surface a bit early bobbing about in huge swell, no boat in sight, I had to practise letting go, big time.
There was chaos on the boat, changing the cylinders for the second dive and I did think hmmmm potential for mix up here, and the crew fixed you all up, helped you get on the ledge, turned on air, did half assed check, but 8 divers is a lot on a small boat.
I actually felt sorry for the guy, what an enormous responsibility.
And the crazy thing is I did not question the safety, not at booking, not on the boat, which was stupid, and after speaking to others after the event, they had had issues with this company.
He was cool though, the second I showed him my reading, he grabbed his spare, and the dive continued for another 10 mins or so. He was clearly very experienced and really made me and Paulina the other female feel very safe despite this situation,
I had a similar safetly experience later on back on the mainland when I went zip lining.
I just assumed it would be safe, and the guy handed me 2 metal blocks and sent me up to the wire which stretched across the canyon.
I just assumed someone would be there to help me, then had to shout the guy up to help.
I realised after that my life was in the hands of these two young guys who actuallly worked the braking system by hand.
Anyway,still here telling all the tales, then it was the Ayuhuasca story,
Watch this space lol
Kicker Rock dive below.
Radical Remissions 9 steps reversed
If we reverse the 9 steps for healing, do we have the protocal for getting sick?
If we know that the 9 major factors that led to healing are as below, can we assume if doing that makes us well, does doing the opposite make us sick?
The overwhelming surprises in the healing factors for me were that exercise played no part (they were too sick to exercise in the initial stages but it came in later as healing and energy happened) and that only 2 of the steps are to do with the physical, diet and herbs and supplements, the rest is all about the Mind.
So lets have a look and use the polarities of the factors so see if it helps us get an insight to why we get sick?
We know how powerful our minds are, we know that people heal spontaneously, we know that people defy the odds, we fully understand that people who do not give a proverbial shit have a jollier ride in life.
We talk about diet and exercise all the time, and people are trying to fit that into their already overburdened lives.
Maybe our focus needs to change.
Lynne MacTaggarts new book catagorically proves that Community and Altruism heals us and the Community.
We are interconnected, literally all in it together, and the only way we can survive and heal is to fully understand this. Competition can lead us on to greater things but Collaboration, when we all pull together for the greater good of all, led from the heart, we are literally unstoppable.
Bruce Liptons book Biology of Belief tells us how our beliefs change genetic expression.
Dr Joe teaches us to heal by thought alone and proves it time and time again that we all have an innate healing capacity when we let go and connect to the Unified Field.
Greg Braden explains the Matrix and our place in it and the Supernatural powers that he has witnessed in the East that we all have access to.
So are we looking at this the wrong way?
Your food can be perfect but if you
There is NO pharmaceutical pill, treatment or surgery that can fix that.
This is the official, proverbial inside job.
Can you believe that you are protected and never alone, that you have are meant to be here, that your voice counts, that you can speak your truth, believe in your Supernatural powers and be with your Community serving your purpose and feeling part of the Collective?
Can you stand strong, Let go of the past completely, trust and surrender using your incredible IMAGINATION to help yourcellf, your Community and the Planet?
Dr Kelly Turner is beaming in live to the Goddess Gathering on 2nd November 2018.
She will be there to answer all your questions. Get your ticket here.
What are your thoughts?
Are you healing or harming?
The Placebo is you.
Hear from the Master.
Alone and unlimited
Travelling alone is a no no for some of us, and years ago I am sure I would never have had the balls to do it either.
But there are many benefits and very few draw backs, especially with smart phones, (as long as you dont swim with them) as you always know exactly where you are and are always contactable.
On my phone I have maps me, tracker finder for my kids peace of mind, Uber for the cheapest taxis which is hugely handy when you have no idea where you are and to get a ball park figure of how long it takes to get places and how much it costs.
Then you have my spanish apps, music, messaging, it really is a piece of cake compared to the last time I did this, when the only communication happened through email.
But take the phone out the equation and things change.
My daily spanish lessons stopped, which was a big miss, keeping the language in my head over and over has been brilliant.
No maps, fine in the Galapagos but a totall pain in the ass getting back into Quito and finding my way around. No idea about this city, where to go, how long it takes, blah, blah, blah.
I got on a trole bus yesterday on a mission to buy a phone, managed to ask for the centro de la ciudad and headed into the every large city centre, jammed in with another 3000 peeps swinging and holding on for dear life.
I had no idea where to get off, but when I had been on for about 45 mins and I started to see a lot of shops, I just got off. Found the nearest hostel, cranked up my lap top to make sense of where I was. So much easier if you have your phone.
I can understand what people say now if it is in context, but I a completely isolated by the language here, the speed they talk and the accents, it's an interesting experience.
I am glad I took the lap top but obviously is not ideal on the bus, or airport, or street corner.
I had to find wifi, then hope it would connect, then try and remember details or write them in my notepad, very old school and a pain in the ass.
No music or meditations when I am on bus or plane, and no way to send my nieces stupid photos of my trip.
I love the freedom, where will I go today, what time, where am I headed, there is a real excitement getting up and wondering what amazingly, beautiful place to go to next.
I am going to write a separate blog on the Galapaogos, but as I became phoneless there it was in interesting experience.
The hostels there and a few places on mainland have no kitchens and private bedrooms more like a hotel, which may sound nice, and is occasionally, but not if you want to socialise.
For me, travelling alone, the main way you meet people is in the bostels, sharing dorms or eating in the kitchen.
So I had a few days where I really spoke to no one, and having no phone I was not talking to any of my friends or family around the World. When I could get online the internet was not strong or fast enough for me to really communicate happily in any way, but there were positives too.
With regards to my Spanish it has hugely improved but only to ask for things and understand directions etc, not have meaningful get to know you, what are you all about converstations.
Kind of like a silent retreat as I joked to my sister, but it was an interesting experience.
For a kick off I made huge inroads into a project I am working on. Got right back into reading and ordered 3 new books which I have not done to a while. Had time to reflect on what I truly want to do.
Still not sure btw except I know I love the travelling life and thanks to another couple of apps, I can volunteer, learn new skills, meet new people and pay practically nothing to be here.
The internet has truly opened us up as a Global community and I love it.
But my obsession continues
My mind is still obsessed with healing.
How can we bring the latest, scientifically proven techniques to the Scottish and Maltese communities? I care about everyone else but these 2 places are my backyard, were I will be living and visiting, where my heart is.
How can we change the terrifying language that is currently used, and create an environment of love and hope, with access to the latest info on how people defied the odds, as thousands are doing.
How can we create a Global support network for those on the healing path, to ensure that no one feels cutt off , terrified and alone, and can access the good stuff? The data as my darling friend Sondra Barret would say.
I even met and chatted to a Scottish lady who has lived here for 21 years, who had a radical remission!
I am working on a mission, travel gives me time to plan, meditate, release, visualise and ask for guidance and support.
I have met so many interesting people on route, most travellers have got a great story and a fascinating attitude. They have moved out of the system for a few months, years and that is invaluable for your soul. Nobody is judging you on your past, you only need to share what you want, and you can really be yourcellf.
I am amazed at how many really young girls are travelling alone, 18 and up, wow have they got some courage and strength.
With the work I do, the new undestanding of totally changing your external environment has been a real insight to me.
Most of us are living in the past, dragging it around, projecting it into the future, and depressing our immune system with it and running out of energy in the process.
Most of us feel liberated and refreshed when we go on holiday, then its back, we even call it back to the grind.
Does it have to be that way?
Since I moved to Malta my life is much more holiday vibe than grind and I know a lot of my friends there find that too.
I know living in the sun is not for everyone, but I think its powerful to look around and see if you can find your place.
I met a girl who had come from Mexico and she said it was her place. She felt it there, its an interesting thing, we know, not with the 5 senses, but with the heart.
I get that.
I am having a ball travelling through all these places, seeing this incredible Planet but as yet I know for now this is not "my place". I knew Malta was the minute I arrived there.
Finding your place helps you align with greater everything.
If you are unbappy or just living for the weekends, maybe you need to find a new place.
Doesnt have to be in a different Country, it might not be your home it could be your job.
Stress and wishing things were different are simply a sign that something needs to change.
Its your boot up the arse, come on, release the fear and see what else you could be doing that could make your heart sing.
I am a traveller, I have known that since I was a kid, always dreamt of sunny places, being on the sea, meeting all different cultures.
Now thanks to the internet we can travel pretty much forever if we want.
I am also driven from something I do not understand, to help create a better "health and happiness" picture in my 2 beloved Countries.
Sometimes I get downhearted thinking it is too big a job, and people do not want to change. Then I kick my own ass. Where is the hope in that thinking?
That makes my heart sing.
Casa De Sirena
When I left to come to South America on my own, I had no idea really where I would go, what I would do and how I would pass my days.
Seems crazy, but I just did not think about it.
I flew into Bogota and had a lot of fun meeting other travellers in hostels, sightseeing, chatting and moving on to the next fascinating place.
I decided I wanted to stay put for a while, so went onto the HelpX website to find somewhere to volunteer. I wanted to learn about living out here, give back and immerse mycellf in one of the villages.
At this point my Spanish was nada and this is important, I could understand Jack shit.
I saw this American woman had moved to this fishing village and set up her dream home, and was looking for volunteers. I messaged her, she facetimed me, and a few weeks later I arrived here.
I was blown away by the house. It is still a work in progress but for me it is like a dream from a kid.
I always dreamt of living on a forest or a raft? Go figure, the nomad has been in my since forever.
I had no idea what I was going to be doing either lol.
There were already 4 others here helping when I arrived. 2 were curing the bamboo and varnishing, 2 were doing something downstairs with wood and seemed to be able to fix things, which I clearly could not be part of, so I got a brush and started curing and varnishing.
I did not bring old clothes, so note to cellf, be a bit more prepared.
Turns out it was so hot that I was in my bikini or swimsuit anyway, so it was all good.
And strangely rewarding.
Sirena is a character of monumental proportions, I just loved her, we hit it off immediately.
The fact that she moved Continent at 50 is so inspiring to me, most of us never move out our town. It is a huge thing to do, especially when you do not know the language, or the culture.
She had seen this place in a dream when she was 21 and has been here for 12 years.
There is another story behind it, but that is hers to tell. It has not been easy, and she ran out of money, but not Spirit and drive.
So the workaway and helpx sites have allowed her to utilise this incredible space to further her dream and give people like me an opportunity to live her for next to nothing.
Mompiche is a step back in time, where literally no one speaks English. The fishing boats go out, but stay in sight of shore, they bring in enough food for today.
There is good surf here too with a large safe beach, and that is the thing that I believe will blow this place up, tourists are finding it, and it will inevitably change, as everywhere does.
My friends have recently been to Costa Rica, beautiful, but full of expats and tourists, everyone speaking English, its a different experience.
I have been going along to help at some English classes which is fun, some of the locals, plus a 70 year old tuc tuc driver who want to communicate with the tourists and understand how valuable that will be for them.
I have even had my own private yoga studio!
I have helped Sirena with a website, blog, some marketing ideas and I suppose refreshed her enthusiasm of the vision for this magnificent Tree House.
She knows everyone and has a friend, the local Tarzan and jungle expert Ramone who will take you on an amazingly education and inspriational tour for only $12.
Her cooking is delicious, breakfast and dinners can be part of the deal, I highly recommend you take this up, you will be fed fresh, delicious and nutritious meals.
I have spent nearly 3 weeks here and already feel a bit sad about leaving.
I 100% recommend coming here if you are open minded, love nature and want to experience this form of Glamping.
I loved it.
March 01st, 2018
Living in a Tree House and Who do you trust?
I have been in Casa de Sirena, this incredible tree house for a few days and settling into life in this awesome little fishing/surf village.
It is rustic and cool, fairly untouched by the outside World, although I doubt that will last when people really discover it.
There is no bank, the nearest one is 2 hours away, you can buy a pair of flip flops (still smarting ove the loss of mine) but thats about it, kit wise.
There are restaurants, cafes and hostels dotted around, a couple of surf shops, fruit juice bars and that's about it.
It is very laid back, you can get ignored for a good half hour when you go in a place, could be annoying if you let it, but there is no rush to make money or create a good impression, which is refreshing in a way.
The other 4 Volunteers have all left so it is just me and Mermaid Sirena.
She was given that name by the locals because she body surfs with one fin, not seen that yet but sounds pretty cool.
She has created this incredible house through a fair amount of adversity and challenge, but she has persevered and her vision gets closer.
She was never destined to have children, so she wants to leave this mansion as a place in the Village for education, inspiration and Community.
She has an amazing vision for this fabulous space.
She was 50 when she decided to opt out the rat race, move to another Continent and live a completely different way of life from the Californian one.
She sees a place where people can come to the Village, learn, have fun, hang out, eat the amazing food, all fresh, organic, all Mother Natures way.
It is a simple, non consumer way to live that steeps you in Nature and a full blown Zen experience.
I so a few light chores here like curing the bamboo, varnishing and general cleaning up. The leaves and dust are daily due to the open plan of the house.
I went for a walk to Playa Negro, that famous black beach that some people were intent on destroying for the monetary value, and thankfully the locals managed to stop them, a big step against the machine, but one they won.
I never took any water so when I was walking back in the intense heat I stopped at a little bar for water. They didnt have any, only beer, so I sat with an ice cold beer and just enjoyed the vista.
There were 3 local guys shooting the breeze, laughing and also drinking beer. They smiled and waved over, and eventually one came over to chat. He had no English, my Spanish is getting better, but my ears arent.
I showed them my Babbel app on my phone, they were intrigued and tried to fill in the missing phrases and got it wrong every time.
This amused me, they don't speak or spell the way this app does, I have no idea what level of education they have.
The young boy was brilliant with me, he talked slowly, knew a few words in English, and listened intently.
He was so tiny behind the bar, but so switched on. Except I had given him 2 columbian coins and he was too polite to say!
Then an old English man appeared, started chatting, came over and joined us, me, Fabrizio and the 11 year old barman.
He told me not to trust them, great people but dont trust them.
That seemed like an oxymoron to me?
I avoid people I dont trust, so how does that work I asked him?
He just kept repeating the same thing, great, great people but dont trust them.
I decided to ignore it.
Are there more thieves here % wise, I have no idea, but I know enough about quantum physics to focus on the good.
There was a young girl (turns out she was 16) breast feeding her baby, standing by the guy who was sitting with the 2 others also enjoying a beer. He completely ignored her, and she just stood, the baby feeding, and I watched.
He had to be the father, boy I could feel for her, just a bit of attention, love, thought?
When the baby falls of her nipple I went over and gestured could I take her for a cuddle. She handed mye the gorgeous little girl and ran to the water for a swim.
The babies uncle Fabrizio managed to communicate to me that the baby always cried unless she was with her mum.
Fabrizio is my new Mompiche friend. He is very cute, super smiley, great surfer and keen to learn English, and it is his brothers child.
He is 18. He seems to have a very happy disposition.
So I walked the baby around for maybe 30-40 mins until she started griping again. The dad was watching me, I have no idea what he was thinking, but he started interacting with the mum, they laughed and clowned around and she seemed happier.
I handed her back, no words were exchanged.
Having little language is interesting, because you are guessing a lot of the time, what they are thinking and communicating.
Then before she left she came to me, held the baby out for a kiss, then she kissed me. I knew what she was saying, she appreciated the time.
It seems like you have gone back a hundred or so years here.
The women do the housework, get pregnant and that is their destiny.
They all have huge televisions, but I have no idea how much education that brings. It is defo a mans World here, the way it is in most places even to this day.
Lucky the Rise of the Divine Feminine is on.
Food fear and fear in general
Feel the fear and do it anyway
I decided to make a diversion to my orignial plans, to save me having to go in and out a city I really had no interest in visiting anyway, it was time for the beach. That meant that I was going to end up in a place called Esmeraldas, I reckoned I could get there in daylight, simply because everything you read said, don't go there, its dangerous.
I wake up at 7am desperate to get to the sea, and as I am heading out with my phone to take pics, the owner comes after me and tells me to hide it.
But he was actually looking after me.
Later on I am going to catch my bus to Mompiche, the owner takes his car out and takes me to the bus stop. Another gesture of kindness.
Im standing at the bus stop and this guy rocks up. Starts to chat, my best sentence now is I dont speak Spanish, that is my get out of jail free card. I do understand a bit, but when they speak fast, I am lost.
Then he buys me an ice lolly. Aww how nice as it is very hot. I look at the label horrified. But dont want to offend him, but I can clearly see the list of additives on the packet, arghhhh my cells contract lol.
Not for the first time this trip, I ate non food, willing my body to move it through and let it go.
He managed to explain to me he was one of the people who jump on and off the buses selling things.
He got on the bus that I was on. I then felt obliged to buy the thing he was selling. Fat free, sugar free and something else free wtf! It was a butterfly........
There are a ton of sweetie shops and things here, I saw about 15 stands all in a row in one village all selling exact same sweetie things. All beautifully laid out, I am not sure what the diabetes rate is here, but the additives are bonkers. I watched a guy in a previous hostel eat fluorescent pink yoghurt.
My food fear continues, need to do more tapping.
February 22nd, 2018
5 Story Bamboo Mansion
I had been looking into volunteering for a few reasons.
I wanted to stay in one place for a bit longer, I want to learn, give back and live cheaply to ensure I get the maximum time out of my trip.
I applied for a few places and got word back from and American woman who had built her dream bamboo house in a little fishing village on the Coast of Ecuador.
I liked the sound of it, so decided on a whim to go there. I then got other responses from cool places, I had to turn them down for now.
This continent is enormous, you meet so many fascinating people, who tell you their route, but its impossible to do it all in 6 months or so.
So you have to choose.
I decided I needed the beach, and I liked the sound of Sirena when she face timed me to tell me of her plans.
I was on a bus going to Quito with some friends I had met along the way, when I decided just to keep going and get as far as I could to the Coast.
Its so interesting here, you go up and down at altitude and the climate changes accordingly.
It was a long time on the bus, but for some reason its not bothering me at all, I did not expect to bus so much here, but the scenery is spectacular. And there is something about going over the land, you really see the Countryside and feel the distances under you..
I arrived in Mompiche, her directions were, get the bus here and then ask for Sirenas house. Hahaha and thats what I did.
Its a small town, a few cool bars and hostels along the beach and up the one main street. Its a surf town, I had not realised, I thought of my last surf lessons in Oz, the waves were much less scary here.
The tide comes right into the sea front and there are large sandy areas to each side, its uber cool.
I asked someone at a small cafe, and sure enough I got the directions to the biggest bamboo mansion I have ever seen. They told me you can miss it, its huge. It is, all five floors of it.
Sirena was there to welcome me, then we went on to a cocktail and dominoes and it felt like we had known each other for years.
She told me how she had dreamed this house when she was 21. It is totally amazing.
There are no windows or walls really, its like living in a giant tree house, and I have a platform on the 3rd floor where I wake up in the trees to the sounds of the birds and other things I have no idea what.
The house is still a work in progress, but that does not take away from its magnificence.
It may not be everyones cup of tea, its al fresco with Nature, but it is my idea of paradise.
It overlooks the river, and has high trees, some laden with fruit, all around. The dusk time is just jaw dropping, the colours, the noises, always been a favourite time of day for me, it is just wonderful here.
Sirenas longer term vision is that it will get used for Retreats.
Imagine that coiincidence.
Hiking and the power of the Mind
How far can I realistically expect to hike?
Tbh I had not really thought much about hiking until I got here.
Sounds mental I know, but I was more transfixed on the beach.
I knew I was going to do Machu Pichu but just had not considered the altitude and my current fitness level and health.
For the last 5 years I have had aches and pains in my body that have curtailed and changed how I felt about fitness.
Everything was more of an effort.
I had attempted the Kintyre way and was stopped by an intense buring in my hips.
Nearly 7 years ago I had hiked for 11 hours up Muhavura an elevation of 4127 metres and much as it was gruelling, I had sharp agonising pains in my knees on the descent, for about the last 2 hours.
Both of these experiences came back to my mind as I looked at the volcanoes here, yearning to be at the top, but remembering that this old body might not make it now.
Nothing to do with my strength and cardio fitness, just body parts complaining, when they never used to.
Oh to be post menopausal, what a joy. Not.
I have been meditating on healing my body, and it is defo way better than it was, but to do a 7-8 hour hike at high altitude, I was not that confident.
Holly found a lake we could do. Around 4-5 hours, and foolishly I thought, well round a lake, it will be pretty flat, hahahaha it wasnt.
A 4-5 hour hike was the perfect "test" for my body, which it passed with flying colours.
Usually it is my lower back that gives me the most gyp, but not now. It is miles better.
The mind is an old bugger though, it was casting up all sorts of stories as to why I should not go, making me doubt mycellf, almost telling me to give up.
I was doing the exact thing that Hale Dwoskin and Dr Joe Dispenza tell you NOT to do.
I was dragging the past and throwing it into a perceived future.
Our trillions of cells regenerate on a moment to moment basis and there is no reason for us not to heal and prosper if we just release the old story and focus on a new one.
This is science, this is proven, we manipulate genetic expression with our thoughts, beliefs, perceptions and emotions.
We are powerful and have unlimited potential, but not if we stick to the old story.
I am focusing on a pain free, well oiled, high frequency body, if I do that often enough, repeat it over and over, guess what happens......